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—————      𝙿𝙸𝙲𝙺   𝚃𝙷𝚁𝙴𝙴   𝙲𝙾𝙻𝙾𝚄𝚁𝚂   𝚃𝙾   𝚁𝙴𝚅𝙴𝙰𝙻   𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁   𝙱𝙸𝙶𝙶𝙴𝚂𝚃   𝙵𝙻𝙰𝚆.

          *   CHELL CHOSE :   BLUNT

chell is a warrior who takes the world head-on and doesn't shrink back from anything.  her bravery comes from a place of strength & determination because she has already seen the worst the world can throw at her.   she is an indescribable force, & once you've won her over, you have the greatest & most loyal friend on your side.   chell will move mountains for those dear to her, so make sure to never hurt her loved ones.

tagged   by :   @blacklyte​​ tagging :    just steal it from me lmao

[wedust]

@yuseongu​​ asked  ;  as much as sihoon wishes jae would say, actually, he CAN come for christmas, he knows it isn't likely to happen the night before the big day. so he has to make do with what he has, which is the christmas tree in his living room and the last few hours he gets to spend with jae. ❝ i didn't know if you wanted a present or anything, so i wasn't sure what to get you... ❞ he says, but he'll feel bad whether jae's got him something or not. ❝ but.. um.. do you want to go to thailand with me next year? ❞

↪    sihoon   &   jae.

he watches sihoon pace the room ,   back  &  forth ,   anxiety a violet storm buzzing around his head.    he knows part of this disquiet is due to him,   &  it kills him that there’s nothing he can do about it now.

holidays had always been a weird time for him.   he grew up in multiple countries,  with few friends or connection to his human family.   without even getting into the cultures he’d experienced in space   ---   holidays were something he easily overlooked

he’s about to mumble back an apology,  that he didn’t get any presents either   ( in fact he didn't get anyone anything ... ) ,   but when sihoon blurts out the proposal,  a grin overtakes his features.   he closes the distance between him and his boyfriend, clasping his hands in his own.    it’s partly to stop the other from pacing,  but mostly because he wanted him to see the excitement in his eyes.

‘  i’d love to !  ‘      jae nods happily.   (  he’s trying to think of anything but the bag packed in his own apartment,  set for a destination light years away.   he couldn’t back out now   -------  he’d promised his help ).       ‘  make a list of everything you want to see ,    i’ll take you to all of them.  ‘    he looks up at sihoon with as much love & adoration as he can muster.    ‘  &  we’ll spend lots of time together as soon as i get back,  okay ?   ‘

its written all over his face  ;   im sorry.  please don’t be sad   ,    but he doesn’t dare say it.  how can he criticize something that’s his fault ?     

[wedust]

BEE.HEADCANON   ;   spiritualism

it may seem odd, at face, that bee has spiritual beliefs.  however, it is important to make the distinction that she is does not believe in any god or deity, but falls closer to the ‘power of nature’  /   ‘universal energy’  camp.

bee sees the world a little uniquely.   because of her ability, she sees certain energies and intents as apparent as physical objects.   spoke words, images, art, intent connecting creator and creation.  almost like a form of synesthesia,  it adds a whole new dimension to view the world in, and  its comforting to her to think that this may not just be random, that there might some greater collective energy in the universe that holds this all together.

it may be in part due to her wish for the experiments on her to have meant something ( tapping into a whole new dimension sounds a whole lot nicer than her brain simply being broken beyond repair ),   but there’s also this feeling of overwhelming energy she cant shake ;  watching a rainbow ascend from an instrument, or watching art encircle its artist and come alive on their skin.    In those moments she truly does feel like everything is connected.

[wedust]

blacklyte​      ;      alex

  It was her job to make sure he wasn’t a threat? Something between recognition and disgust flicked onto his features. She wasn’t Blackwatch, but she sure as hell sounded like them. Blackwatch, the military, whatever she was part of, all of them claimed to fight for the good of people, when they were the ones who did the most harm. Alex had seen it a dozen times before. As she spoke, his gaze flicked to the nearest wall. Running up it, vanishing into the night would be easy. But what would stop her from tracking him down later? From tracking down Dana? 

  There were too many unknowns. He needed answers–which meant he needed to cooperate. Once she let him go, the scent lingering on her should have been enough to lead him to any of her co-workers. Then, he’d get his intel. He had started to pace like a caged animal, following a small path and refusing to take his eyes off her. She couldn’t hurt him.

  “If I was a threat to everyone, there wouldn’t be anyone, y’know.” He, of course, wouldn’t give her his name. Nothing said a threat like America’s number one terrorist threat. But if she wanted to know what he was, then fine. If it’d get her off his ass; he needed to check on his sister. “…I’m a virus. Was s’posed to be a bioweapon, military pet project. Got sentience instead. And nobody’s at risk around me unless they’ve earned it.” He narrowed his eyes, taking a slight step toward one of the walls. Let me leave. “There’s nothin’ else to it.”

recognition washes  over her features.     she signs,  eyes rolling in a sign of frustration   ( at herself, of course ).    it was the first time she’d broken eye contact,   but after realizing exactly what it was saying  ( ...   no,  it was a  ‘he’   wasn’t it ?  at least partly still ).    ‘ you’re blacklight,    of course. ’    she makes a mental note of who  she was going to strangle  for keeping this information from her.     she knew of the virus, of course,  but she’d obviously been kept out of some major loops.    (  knowing where he was, & what he looked like were fairly massive details.    thanks ,  assholes.  )

‘ or do you prefer alex ? ‘    tension seems to melt away,  hand releasing its iron hover over her weapon,  shoulders relaxing.    it had been a foundation consensus that after what he had done to blackwatch ( & gentek by extension )  ,  that letting him be was in their better interests.

she hadn’t been on the team that kept an eye on his progress in manhattan but ,  well  ....  she knew enough to be impressed.    ae huffs,  lips pulling up into something not quite a smile.      head tilts towards the building he’d been so subtly inching towards,   eyes flicking up towards the roof.      ‘   you can go,  if you want.     i’ll call a clean up team,   get rid of  this  so they don’t track it back to you.  ‘

[wedust]

A  VERY  DESCRIPTIVE  PROFILE  OF  YOUR  MUSE.  repost with the information of your muse,  including headcanons,  etc.  if you fail to achieve some of the facts,  add some other of your own !

NAME.     thanawit chanthakul  /  ธนวิท ชานทากุล NICKNAME(S).   ‘ Jae ‘  ,    ‘ Wit ‘ ALIAS(ES).    n/a AGE.    22 SPECIES.   half human,  half alien GENDER.  unknown / questioning.   cares very little for labels.    he / him  ( for convenience ) ORIENTATION.  pansexual / romantic

INTERESTS.  science,   caring for local wildlife,  reading,  learning new languages. PROFESSION.   wildlife biologist

BODY TYPE.    short  &  soft.    fairly active but doesn’t build muscle easily.    becomes slightly thinner in the winter.  EYES.    warm brown HAIR.    naturally brown, but loves to dye it.    short, slightly wavy SKIN.   soft,  warm beige,  has an almost unnatural glow to it.  . FACE.  circle shape,  round cheeks HEIGHT.  5′3′’

COMPANIONS.  any of his friends.   often takes them to see other planets / places he’s worked. ANTAGONISTS.    n/a

COLORS.     soft pastel colours.   loves wearing pink  &   yellow FRUITS.    melon   &   peaches DRINKS.  pretty much just water,   but occasionally likes sugary juices ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGES?   rarely.   alcohol affects him quite a bit more than humans SMOKES?   no. DRUGS?  no. DRIVERS LICENSE?   yes  .

TAGGED  BY  ;      @tiltedsun    <3 TAGGING  ;      @blacklyte ,    @yuseongu ,   @adoranoia​  ,   &   you  !

[wedust]

ok but i live for  EVIE  doing little things to bug people when she’s bored / mad at them.   like, 

messing with the wifi signal, making siri say ominous things without actually speaking to them, reading someone's texts remotely as they receive them ( to casually bring up the sender in conversation ), etc

i just love it.

[wedust]

anonymous said:  who is the person you despise the most, and why? ↪   for jae    /     meme.

he frowns.    ‘  that’s an  awful  word ...  ‘     soft spoken thoughts are followed by an exasperated sigh,   like he didn’t know how to answer the question.    ‘   i  ... don’t !    i mean  ...   i dont think i can.  ‘      lips purse,   he’s clearly incredibly uncomfortable.     as human as he appeared, that was only half the story,  &   there was a large part of him that had no capacity to despise anyone,  no matter how bad they were.

‘   i mean...  people have made me sad,   &  sometimes i don’t like what they do   ---   even hate those things.    i know right from wrong,  i even pick sides,    but i don’t hate people,    i can’t.     maybe that’s a bad thing,  but i can’t help it. ‘

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AE.HEADCANON   ;    academics + pressure

ae overworked herself immensely through her school years.   she was expected to be great, ever since she was a child,   &  with a certain future of joining the foundation,  there wasn’t much room for error.

not only did she cram in a double major in her undergraduate ( all while maintaining top grades )  she finished her phd in an incredibly short amount of time, breaking ground on critical research in 3 & a half years.

while ae’s main degree is in neuroscience, she (especially upon beginning her doctoral research) specialized in neuropsychology & neurochemistry   ( i.e.    what makes up the nervous system, & how that affects behavior ).   her adjacent studies in psychology & computer networking gave her much needed context to interpret behavior, run models / predictions, & decipher diagnostic data.

now, since most of the work she does is neurological or behavioural in nature, sentient & organic anomalies are the scps she most frequently works with.

this ultimately is one of the reasons she’s so nosy  & has such a thirst for knowledge.   she went from being pushed to be the best in her academics, to having an incredibly important job with national security implications.   when she’s excluded or lied to, there’s a part of her that makes her feel like a child ;  she’s  naïve, unworthy,  a liability.   like the years she put into her academics & work weren’t good enough.  like she isn’t good enough.   &  she hates that feeling.

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NEL.HEADCANON    ;    perception

nel has a tendency to look right through people, & this is because they don’t perceive the world the same way as humans.  in fact they are unable to observe light, or colour, at all.

dark matter does not affect light, and it is not affected by light. It only affects baryonic matter,  particles WITH MASS (which excludes the photons that make up light).   this means nel sees the world in atoms,  sensing the very material composition of your being down to the subatomic level.    even their condensed 'body; which is able to reflect light (making it visible to people) cannot absorb or interpret light at all.

however, nel is not ignorant to the concept of light.   in fact, they can actually ‘see’ light second handedly, by observing the effect it has on matter.   this extends to beings of pure light (like angels).   nel is actually unable to see them, but can see the way they move through the world ;  the noise they make, any matter they interact with or exude, the way they interact with gravitational forces.    they infer from that.   imagine a black hole.  you can’t see it, but you can see the gravity of it.

to be fully invisible to nel, you’d need to be able to exist outside of space & time, to forgo any interaction with matter or gravity. there are not many beings that fit this bill (mainly things that have existed before the universe, but i’m sure there are other exceptions).    of course, the moment a being like that speaks, touches a physical object, affects the physical world with their powers, etc, their 'invisibility' is no longer valid.

[wedust]

EMIKO.HEADCANON  ;  makeup

emiko enjoys alternative makeup, involving lots of blush & bright colours.  she takes inspiration from fairycore & pastel goth styles.

[wedust]

blacklyte​     ;     alex

  “It’s the least I can do.” Alex mumbled right back, shoulders rising and falling in a stiff shrug. It really was the least he could do, in a literal sense; as much as he tended to share his own secrets, he wouldn’t even consider sharing someone else’s secret, especially when they were in a boat so similar to his own. The humor spurred a slight smile from him, even if it was brief. Of course he’d take gunfire for her, that was what friends did (and at this point, he had firmly decided they were friends, and that he’d die for her). Even without superhuman regeneration, he still would. 

  As she started to go over her tale, he fell silent, narrowing his eyes in a display of interest. He sense of age was somewhat skewed, but he knew 10 was a child, a fact furthered the angry ripple down his back as she explained. Soldiers–it was always damn soldiers. By soldiers or to make soldiers, if the Outbreaks had taught him anything. The ones he’d met hadn’t been emotionless, however; they were sadistic, they enjoyed the hunt and the kill, they didn’t care about innocent people. If he hadn’t been glad she was away from where she came from before (for whatever reason), he certainly was now. 

  He made a mental note to track down the people responsible for her. To make them pay, as he had made Gentek and Blackwatch pay. 

  He looked to her when she mentioned showing what she could do. Alex wasn’t sure what he was expecting, but it wasn’t that, not even remotely. He watched the sparrow intensely, occasionally glancing back to her hand to watch her control it. And then it was gone, a puff of feathers at her command. And when she suggested she was continuing, the fraction of disappointment he felt at the sparrow’s vanishing was gone. He nudged closer, biting back a rumble of excitement when a tendril similar to his own formed. Words and pictures, and she could make things from them. 

  “…Woah.” It was all he could manage, at first; how did he verbalize his fe? “That’s…” Incredible? So similar but so different from what he could do? “…really cool.” He shifted tensely, averting his eyes–it was his turn. 

  Most of what he did was stolen faces and weapons. Maybe, if he pondered long enough, he could do something… tamer. Alex outstretched an arm, digging through the thousands of memories in his mind to pick out the one nonhuman he had ever consumed. Tendrils rippled across his body, working immediately; the leather sleeve became sleek black feathers in a moment’s notice, extending until an oversized bird wing was in the place of his arm. It was less a copy, more a modification, compared to his usual decision. After a moment, another ripple followed, and the feathers became blades, silver glinting in the light.

  “I shapeshift. Weapons, people, clothes.” He explained it calmly and casually, as though he wasn’t talking about the thing that made his entire being–literally. “That’s the most of it. There’s also the strength and speed, and stuff that’s normal to me.” 

she was glad he didn’t focus on her.....  emotional issues.   it was hard enough simply exposing them to others,  to explain the depths of the horrors she underwent at the institution.    most people were distracted by her...  abilities,   mesmerized even,  but she could tell that wasn’t the reason he’d dropped the subject.     there was something so ...  recognizable  in their situations,   so unique.    it was like an instinct,  knowing which subjects would provoke more harm at the sake of simple curiosity

of course he was curious,  they all were,  but he also seemed .... angry ?  was she reading that right ?     that was a reaction  found only in familiarity , she reckoned.

she smiles softly at the compliment,  a wash of pride puffing her chest.   it was so different,  the way people outside of the lab complimented her.   no numbers,  no progression charts,  no hidden meanings behind the words of praise.     it was just ...  pure excitement at something so unknown to them.   it always reminded her of the first time dr. nyberg had seen her.  & that brought a warmth to her like little else did.   

she watches him in turn, the same awe he showed her echoing in her eyes.  skin turned to feathers  &  to cold steel in turn.   it was so fluid,  the way he moved,  she couldn’t help but watch with rapt attention.   ‘  thats... wow. ‘    there was a hint of familiarity in his abilities,  but this was real.   not a tangible illusion like she created,  this was purely  HIM.    ‘ can you ...  do that with anything you can think of ?  does it have to be real ?  do you have to see it first ?  ‘      there were so many ways this thing could work.   there was a boy she remembered, from fairfly,  who could shapeshift into anything he touched.   of course,  the day they realized he could shift into other test subjects & mimic their abilities....   well...

she hadn’t known him that well, but now she regretted not taking the time.  not that it would have changed the outcome, but at least he’d be properly remembered.

fast & strong, was he ?   something that could take the full blast of a bomb,  &  was more agile than the average person ?    the image of something like that barreling down a dark alley towards her   ---    she was only just starting to get the picture of how dangerous he was.     &  yet,  it wasn’t her lack of fear that kept her comfortable with him    ---    he may be dangerous ,  but he wasn’t evil.    &  there was a part of her that couldn’t help but instinctively trust him.   ‘  you’re not human,   i guess....  your definition of normal is different to theirs ?  ‘    she didn’t often refer to the human race as ‘others’,  but in this case.... even she didn’t truly understand what was normal.

‘  do you need to eat ?    sleep ?   ....  breathe ?   what’s...  your  normal ?   ‘

[wedust]

“I’m not used to being loved. I wouldn’t know what to do.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald

[wedust]

hackED    /      aes.

[wedust]

𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐂𝐇 𝐅𝐋𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐑 𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 ?? ↪  jae !

Sunflower 

you are optimistic nearly to a fault.   the friend everyone goes to when they are upset, you are selfless and caring by nature.   but you have likely had a hard past, and understand what it means to commit towards stretching up to the sun.   you're hard working and beloved by everyone who encounters you.   extroverted, a leader, not a follower, and someone who delights in being surrounded by others. Sometimes, you struggle to speak your feelings or admit to struggles.   but it's okay to say you're not okay love, it's okay to be the one who needs some comforting every now and then! Let yourself rest sweetheart

tagged by:   @blacklyte​​  !

tagging;    @plasticsouled​, @somniaxperdita​, @yuseongu​, @rubiesintherough​, @cosmicloved​   &    uhhh....   you  !

[wedust]

anonymous said  ;   In general, how do you treat others (politely, rudely, by keeping them at a distance, etc.)? Does your treatment of them change depending on how well you know them, and if so, how? ↪   for chell     /    meme.

‘  ....  what ?    do you treat strangers  the same way  as your friends ?   respect is earned,  closeness is earned.   no one is automatically deserving of anything from me, or anyone.   you can say i’m  biased  because of what happened to me but ....  isn’t everyone ?    ‘

‘   i’m not a bitch   -    i like making friends.   but there are strangers,  friends, & friends you trust.   three levels.    making that distinction is important to me.  i’ll only open up to people i trust   ---   i’ll only be unnecessarily kind to them as well.   everyone gets a second chance   --  bur friends might get a third  -  if that makes sense....  ‘

‘  i’m not evil, or violent.  i don’t yell at kids, or hurt people.    if swearing & being distrustful at first is rude then fine   ;     i’m rude,    but i think you need to earn trust from people.   until then, keeping them at an arms length isn’t bad   ----    it’s smart.    i don’t need to be hurt by someone i don’t even know.  ‘

[wedust]

anonymous ;   what do you consider the most important event of your life so far? ↪  for ae     /    meme.

'   do you want the answer that people normally want    ---    or the truth?    how about this  ...  i’ll give you both.   ‘

‘  people want me to say it was the day my mother died,   but i barely knew her.  my dad would want me to say it was the first time i had a vision,  but i was too young to understand it.   the foundation would want me to say that it was the time i stopped  ▇▇▇ from breaching ,  but how many times can you save the world before it becomes just a regular part of life?  ‘

‘  none of those moments define me or my career.  i had to fight to earn my place,  even after they  KNEW  they needed me.   the first week i spent at the foundation, they were watching me like hawks.   like they thought i was a spy, like i hadn’t been training my entire life to work for them.   then i had a vision...  &  they ignored me.   they knew why the council wanted me,, why i wear this damn necklace,  & they ignored me.     31 people died    -     from a minor breach too !  ‘

'   i’ll tell you what....  they never ignored me after that.  ‘

‘  but in a life like this, you can’t consider any singular workplace achievement more important than others.   i could tell you about the time i stood up to ▇▇▇ , or the fact that i am solely responsible for remembering  ▇▇▇ at my site,   but those are just my tasks at the foundation.   we all have our own purpose,  this isn’t a one man show.  ‘

‘  no,   the moment you want to hear   ---   the  most important moment in my life,  was the one where i found out exactly who i was.   the moment i realized i could sacrifice someone for the greater good.  i was working with  ▇▇▇  ,   on ... well, its classified.    there was a d-class with me , d-1982 ...  no,  reynolds.   he was close to  ▇▇▇ when it became aggressive  ---   &  i was by the doors.    reynolds might have made it  ,    in fact the more i think about, it the more i’m sure he almost certainly would have   ---   but i didn’t hesitate.   i reactivated containment   ---   &  i watched him die.     i felt sick...  but it didn’t change the fact that i did it   ---   or that i’d do it again.  ‘

[wedust]

JAE.HEADCANON  ;   children.

things got me thinking about jae,  &  how he’s pretty touchy about the fact that he’ll never be able to carry a child   (  yes,  we’re shattering the gender binary / norms with him yet again )

all y’gans have always been able to -  for lack of a better term  -  ‘bear children’ ,  live birth, laying eggs, whatever system they happen to be copying.   because of this, one of their most universal traits as a species, is their motherliness.   its also why most y’gans take on primarily female / feminine shapes ( in species where such a thing is relevant ).    it’s not about gender or sex  ;  these things are irrelevant ,  it’s this instinct to carry children that’s a big part of their species.  it is actually incredibly rare for an y’gan couple to have less than 2 children because each individual will always carry at least one.     

*** of course there are y’gans who do not feel this way,  but they are of the utmost minority.

that being said,  jae can’t do that.   &  even though he can have kids in some capacity  ( since yes, he can still have BIOLOGICAL CHILDREN,  but not that way )   ----   he’s terrified of the results.    after all,  he had a difficult & painful childhood,  directly due to his genetics.     putting that burden on another child  ( or worse ?!? )  --  well, he’d never do that for his own selfish wants.

every other y’gan is capable of carrying children.  &  while jae is half human,  he’s inherited this ingrained  need  that is just    ---   never gonna be fulfilled.