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I need to clarify that when I said "working computer", I didn't mean "if my computer was working I'd be writing already", I meant to be able to play and fully enjoy the game, which would eventually lead to me maybe making content since playing it hands on would let me experience everything, but 👀 I can't help but notice 👀 that it's on the Switch so 👀 I think I'm gonna start avoiding more spoilers and give myself a little treat later this week ^^

If I had a working computer you guys would probably already be getting yandere Date Everything content and I'm not even remotely joking. What do you mean most of the items and even CONCEPTS in my house are either really hot or incredibly sweet and all of them want to fuck me. We're gonna fuck our existential dread, everybody!!

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If I had a working computer you guys would probably already be getting yandere Date Everything content and I'm not even remotely joking. What do you mean most of the items and even CONCEPTS in my house are either really hot or incredibly sweet and all of them want to fuck me. We're gonna fuck our existential dread, everybody!!

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I realized i haven't posted in ages, so, just a small update I guess!

It kind of took a while for things at my second job to get sorted out, and to be honest there's still some communication issues, but now that it's picking up, I like it a lot and I can even make extra money through tips which is really nice. The other day i actually made an extra full hours wages in just tips which is nice. It's still been kind of weird since both jobs are going back and forth with how many or how little hours I get, but I'm slowly catching up and able to pay bills and pinch little bits into savings. It HAS been a little overwhelming and I think Allister has been getting lonely being by himself more but I might try and adjust my schedule for my main job and maybe have one less day a week just to try and avoid burnout

Allister has been eating and is still hanging in there but I do still plan on getting him treated, it's just taking some time because there are weeks where im scheduled only 3 or even only 2 days a week from my main job. His mother Duchess has also been having thyroid problems and has needed bloodwork, so I may use some of my extra funds to send my mom money to help with all of that.

I've been able to go to more local social events and meet more people and have fun and make friends and that's been nice since I've been pretty isolated living alone. I actually went to a lake party last week and met some fun people and got some tasty treats. Also to just come out and say it the state I live in became a recreational weed state a couple years ago and that's finally starting to pick up so for example there's a club on Wednesdays that I've been going to where I just go and chill and hangout with people and you'll have people literally give you free weed because they grow shit and want feedback. Have you ever been trapped in an endless blunt rotation where you're with like 10 other people and there's 3 or 4 joints being passed around and you barely pass one on before another is handed to you. I got passed a hash hole the other day and even though I have an extremely high tolerance, I was feeling that shit 😩❤️

But yeah, I'm hanging in there! I've gone to make little posts or prompts or yandere stuff but I've just been pretty busy, and or tired. It gets to the point where I'm running around so much that I just really want to relax in my downtime, or catch up on sleep. I'm still around though! I guess i just need to try and figure out a new routine now that I'm working two jobs since some things have started slipping like my cooking or me watering plants and stuff. It's hard to keep a good rhythm but I'm doing my best!

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i feel so completely directionless

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The second job I already secured is kind of dicking around about inviting me back to fill out the paperwork to officially begin working there :( my stage interview was last Thursday and I called them back a few days ago and they were busy but told me they'd call me later that day, though they never did

Allister is still hanging in there and doing ok but I'm frustrated because I passed up another job offer to take this one and it's over a week later and I'm still in limbo with them, and their hours were not quite what was advertised, so it turns out the job I nixed in favor of this one probably would have been closer to what I needed :(

My cut hours at work have slowly gotten better though. since my department needs more help, they've wound up giving me back several of the shifts they cut, so I'm pretty sure I'll be ok, but I'm really frustrated. If this second job had actually done things in a timely manner, I could've started working last week, and now this weekend is flushed down the drain too

I'm hanging in there though! Cross your fingers for me guys! Once I start working this second job it'll be just enough to pull me out of the small hole I'm in. I hopefully won't need to ask for you guys' help again, and a big big thank you to all the kind words of encouragement and support up to now :) we're making it work!

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I feel like I could apply this to a ton of different characters but I've been massively vibing with "yandere x Reader who refuses to rely on them for anything because of trauma and is running yourself ragged trying to handle everything yourself and actively refusing any and all of their help even when they could Instantly Vanish All Your Problems"

It's like a really specific kind of, wound I guess but, you wanting to handle everything yourself because, if they help you, now you owe them. It's not "just them helping you out", it's some sort of unspoken trade with strings attached. It's a ticket for them to cash out later when they want something from you in return, or even just to have the satisfaction of holding whatever they did over your head. At least you're convinced

Especially funny if said yandere does not have ANY bad intentions (besides you know being a pervert for you) so you're kind of just coming off to them as almost neurotic. Like honey you're lowkey making them want to cry a lil bit

With all my fretting over getting a second job and having money issues, I keep thinking of, for example, a Reader completely shunning the notion of taking or even borrowing money from your very wealthy yandere soulmate. You're like working at fucking McDonald's and here's like, idk, billionaire philanthropist and also your soulmate Bruce Wayne and you're too prideful and scared to accept his offer to at the very least find you a better job at his company

You're a Sinner in Hell and here's your new soulmate Lucifer, cannot emphasize enough he's The Fucking Boss Of The Entire Plane Of Existence You're In, who can literally all but snap his fingers and make anything appear, has ALL the money and authority he could possibly have, and you're just, shrugging off spending time with him and getting to know him because you have to go work your second job at a laundromat

They think the work (or really ANY work that isn't directly related to your passions) is completely beneath you, AND, some more prideful types of yandere may even feel... 'prickly' about you having a job? Embarrassed? What, are you saying they can't provide for you? Why would you need a job and your own money when you can just ask your yandere to buy you whatever you want, or let them create a special bank account for you they just dump funds in for you to play with?

I was trying to use multiple fandoms as examples but swinging back to Hazbin, like, imagine someone like Vox, very influential, figurehead of his own media empire, real wealthy, very powerful, and like, the news gets out that "his girl" is working some low level blue collar job like flipping burgers or being a janitor. Suddenly there's public mockery about how he's with such a loser, or, 'why would he let you work' either at all or such a basic job, or, Alastor being your beau and that being how Vox mocks him, putting all over the news images and videos of you working a counter. Maybe he even decided to rub salt in Alastor's wounds by being a customer of yours, making you serve him.

That's not even to mention the aspects of them losing their minds they can't spend more time with you. You clock out and they're already there before you leave the building, dying for your attention like a dog for scraps. Or you get home and they're already inside your apartment, ready to take you out for the night or enjoy a lovely evening in, only for you to drop the news you have another job, leaving them to sit there on your couch with their eye twitching and beginning to start visibly tweaking as you change into your other uniform and breeze passed them to leave again, barely sparing any attention for how they've dutifully waited for you and how their feelings are clearly hurt

It's so, SO nice once you finally break and let your yandere just give you money, your own apartment or home, really whatever you ask for, buuuuuut if you're stubborn for too long, well... then you run the risk of being "relocated" by force, and it'll be pretty hard for them to take you out for fresh seafood when they have to try and hide the fact they've been confining you to your new little 'love nest' ❤️

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YANDERE ONE PIECE?!?!

I think I've made some small posts in the past buy I've loved One Piece since I watched the 4kids dub as a kid (bro I had no idea the Nami arm stabbing scene even existed until I was in my 20s cause of the censorship smh 🤦‍♀️)

There are just so many characters that I would literally have to make a list of all the different dynamics. Do you want a yandere boss who's a scumbag who actively takes advantage of the power dynamics between them and you or is actively enslaving, blackmailing, or extorting you and not letting you quit? Doflamingo, Borsalino, Akainu, Crocodile, Lucci, Kaido. Are you into older men or a platonic yandere father/mentor figure? Rayleigh, Garp, Shanks, Mihawk. Platonic yandere who consider you their family or something like, their sweet fragile innocent baby sister who no one should even look at? Katakuri, Sanji, Robin. Yandere who consider you a rival or someone of great potential who want to either defeat or apprehend or train you or make you join their crew, even by force? Zoro, Kid, Law. Ace. Do you just want to fuck hot crazy possessive women? Boa, Smoothie, Kalifa. Yandere who just straight up like your vibe and want to bring you along even if you don't even have any talents? Luffy. Always Luffy.

There's just too many options, my dudes...

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Whenever I hook up my ps4 and start playing Genshin Impact again, it's over for you bitches

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new rule you have to live to be 34. you cant kill yourself until you turn 34. jesus died at 33 you can do better

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I had the same thing with the Sonic yandere content (same creator) and had the exact same crisis. Like Shadow I can understand and my teenage self is thriving, but Sonic and Silver??? I wasn't ready for the potential

I doubled back and started going through that creator's whole archive and I realized that YT had already thrown one of their videos at me, but one about a different thing, so part of me is cracking up that they cracked the "liking sonic" thing first and THEN decided, "hey, you know what has so much to do with Sonic? YANDERE CONTENT"

It's just. Lmao. I don't even really have that much yandere stuff in my saved likes so the, uh, catching me off guard aspect with suddenly looking and seeing a Sonic Y/N and suddenly realizing what I was watching. And then liking that video, saving it and all, and YouTube throwing another one from them at me within the same hour. It's hunting me down like a wounded animal over here

I'm not gonna lie, I actually remember very little about Silver and haven't regularly interacted with Sonic content in a long time, but I mean, obviously I know who Sonic is. You'd never expect your, goofy lovable friend to have any malicious or mean or dangerous bones in his entire body! He's just... some chili dog eating goober! He's just this... lovable scoundrel who says dumb shit like "way passed cool" and "smell ya later". But he's also smarter than people give him credit for? Super specific example but there was an episode of the Sonic anime where Eggman had an "eggmoon" that was allegedly "malfunctioning" and blocking the sun and Eggman started selling people like, miniature suns so they could still have warmth and light and like the entire human race was kissing Eggman's ass and it was actually Sonic who stood up and called bullshit just, was basically "but if the eggmoon is stuck in place, Earth's orbit would still mean that we would eventually circle passed it and see the sun again? So the broken eggmoon is clearly constantly moving to block the sun???" as everyone else face palmed and said "oh wow that's actually super obvious, why did it take this long to realize something was fishy"

For me, Sonic is in the same yandere category as Luffy of "He's just a silly little guy who (probably) doesn't have a single sexual or romantic bone in his body!!! but also I could see them being like dangerously possessive of your friendship at the very least"

I mean, Shadow is such a given for "having a secret dark side", but Sonic also has his own appeal in "you'd never see it coming or even think he's capable of having dark thoughts/adult feelings until it was too late". Sonic would be the kind of yandere you accidentally walk in on after he's hurt or killed someone and his gloves/shoes are covered in blood and he's just casually like, "uh oh! I don't think they're sleeping! Musta been weaker than I figured? Whoops?" and playfully shrugs at your shocked horrified 'what the fuck did you do' expression as he then skips on to inviting you to go grab a bite to eat

There's also a different ....vibe/dynamic between a Mobian Reader and a Human Reader, or especially a "two worlds" sort of scenario like in Sonic X or the live action movies which I admittedly have not watched. You get sucked into another dimension and actually have this, colorful magical adventure with all your new friends, and then you return home and suddenly he can go there too and it's like "*sigh* no sonic, we can't go racing through green hill zone, I have to work today" "no sonic, i can't just 'quit my job and join your band', I have to pay rent which costs money" "no sonic, I can't just 'quit my job and crash at your place', I'm from Earth and this is where I'm supposed to stay"

It doesn't help that our... entire reality is like objectively worse than it is on Mobius or in Sonic's home dimension. Imagine your special little blue buddy finding out you had to get a SECOND job just to make ends meet! He finds out you basically don't have ANY time to hang out anymore and whenever you're off work, you're completely exhausted and he's just???? Super frustrated??? He wants to be chill and supportive of your choices but you're like, having to basically work yourself to death and, being kind of a jerk to your favorite little hedgie 🥺 being real mean to someone who considers themselves your BFF. Being a real bummer to a guy who just wants to hang out and have fun and eat tasty food and save the world together with you.

Sonic sitting down with his little roundtable of lovable furry friends, uncharacteristically ranting how frustrating it is that all you do is work and you keep brushing him off and acting like he's stupid for suggesting you just quit your job and live in his house, and everyone else (who also knows you) pitching in their own ideas meanwhile Shadow is just casually like "their boss doesn't seem to be any different than Eggman, keeping others trapped to fulfill his own desires" and suddenly the gears are turning in Sonic's head. Oh... your boss IS like a bad guy! And you'd be in a pickle if YOU did something about it! Obviously you need your good friend to RESCUE YOU!

Something something "Reader being stuck between platonic yandere Sonic and romantic yandere Shadow and also Rouge is in the corner in the cuck chair with a glass of wine" I dunno don't even perceive me right now I suddenly don't know how to read or something 🤷‍♀️

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I'm pretty positive my YouTube algorithm is slowly figuring out I like drama and dark content and out of nowhere it just absolutely brutally scalped me by pelting me repeatedly with, out of all things, yandere Sonic content, and it's... actually fucking good???? You can't do this to me, I'm 28, let my ancient sins DIE already 😭

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I came right home cause I was so sleepy and passed out but, my stage interview went perfect! It was a really calm night so it wasn't as hectic as like, it CAN and WILL be, so I'm a little nervous about "the full experience" and how I'll be able to handle it, but, one thing I really like about this job is that it's gonna keep me healthy with all the steps and walking it has, but most importantly the base pay is pretty close to my standard hourly wage at my main job AND, I'm part of the team who gets a portion of the "tipping pool" where they split the tip jar amongst everyone AND in the specific position I'm in, I also have the capacity to make tips directly, so, there's a potential I can make more money at this job and i alsp got paid in cash for my stage :) it's also technically in food service so it makes me kind of nostalgic for my first few jobs while also giving me this, kinda sense of pride, like I found myself thinking "oh yeah, you started working at McDonald's for $10 an hour and it sucked but now you're working at this nice place whose energy and messaging you really like and you're paying bills and picking up extra shifts, alright"

This second job only has specific nights a week available for me to work within my schedule, but I think since this place can get pretty busy that that'll help me from getting overwhelmed and working too much

All in all it definitely feels like a great fit and I'm pretty excited so far :) the people were nice and there are walkies in case I need to ask a question ^^ I uh, DID get warned that crackheads and homeless people like to walk up and try and start trouble, but, I'll be on guard! What's life without a little excitement, right?

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My initial interview went really well so they set up a stage interview, so, I think I'm basically set with the new job! The base pay is close to what I'm making at my main job and also has the potential to earn tips, and it's only a few nights a week so I won't have to worry about being overwhelmed :) it sounds like it's going to be a really good fit, and the co-owner called me pleasant during my interview so ^^ just good vibes all around! May all of you have something good happen to you today as well!! ❤️

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I actually heard back from yet another job I had applied for that got back to me for an interview, so i have two interviews today and I'll have to pick whichever job is the best fit

Honestly I'm kind of nervous about "making the wrong choice". One job seems like it's going to pay a few dollars more and is really close to where I live but it's in food service and I don't know if it'll be too stressful and burn me out, but the other option I was looking at pays a little less and would let me out so late I would have to take a lyft home every single time I worked there, and that can add up

Lots of big decisions! I think the right balance is that I only want to work maybe about 4 days a week. I think any more than that might wear me out too fast

Either way, I'm feeling super optimistic. Fingers crossed!

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If you're only about $100 short, why even make a post asking for help anyways? Why not just wait until you can forward enough?

Good question! So, I'm at work today, right, and after today's shift, I would be just about at the amount of need to pay rent, still slightly short. The money I earn today wouldn't be able to be accessed until tomorrow, though.

Cue tomorrow, and the late rent fee comes in at $75 and takes out basically that entire amount and sets me back, still short on rent. So just work more, right? Except that my schedule is real unfortunate this week and I'm off Tuesday and Wednesday, and also Friday, which is my payday, so I would basically have to wait until Thursday or Friday to pay rent, which is obviously several days from now

Like I said before, I can recover on my own, but I was really hoping to try and beat that late fee so I wouldn't be set as far back, or at least make it less impactful. I worry about my landlords not wanting to renew my lease if I'm on record for triggering the late fee, but I'm also not in the greatest housing so maybe they won't care as long as it isn't a regular thing

Either way, I figured, if anyone had a few dollars to spare or wanted to contribute, that I would cast out some lines just in case. There's absolutely no pressure and I recognize it's a little weird 😅 I greatly appreciate all the help I've gotten so far over the years and it makes me proud that I've managed to gather enough of a following of great people that that's even a thing I can do. I just really hope I can get this second job and then everything should be right as rain unless there's some cataclysmic emergency, and even then, with this second job I have more of a chance of covering things on my own

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I have good news and bad news!

Good news is, I have an interview for a second job set up on Wednesday and I'm feeling really optimistic about it! I worry about Allister being too stressed with his separation anxiety, but my hours at my main job are being cut too significantly for me to risk not having a second job at this point, and I'd also really love to not be as stressed about money

The bad news is, I had some expenses come up and I'm actually still short on May rent and I'm now late :( there's a late fee that's practically an entire day's wages that luckily doesn't kick in until tomorrow, and I thought I would make it in time, but the closer it gets to payday, the less that the app I use to forward out of my next paycheck lets me forward, so, between unexpected bills and semi emergencies, I basically miscalculated some things :(

I can make it on my own, albeit a little short until this hopefully second job begins, but if anyone wanted to pitch in, I'd greatly appreciate it. I'm only about $100 short. I'm hoping that with this new job this will be the very last time I ever have to do this. If you do pitch in, feel free to add a little note of so.ething you'd like to see written or talked about!

My venmo is here if you're wanting to chip in!

Donations or not, thanks for continuing to support me and my kitty and my content and sending your words of encouragement. I'm the happiest and healthiest I've ever been and you guys really help brighten my day ❤️

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do any of you remember the Kitty and Bunny episode of Courage the Cowardly Dog because youtube just reminded me that it exists and I'm suddenly realizing I had that "attracted to abusive characters and darker themes" yandere brainrot even as a kid and all I could think about when rewatching Bunny and Mad Dog interact was thinking about Valentino 😅 I'm so cooked you guys. My roots run too deep. Plus I scrolled down into the comments and there was this

At least I'm not the only one I guess