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my mum just said she thought i was bmi 24 i want to kms

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I haven’t been studying I’ve been binging I want to die

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19 and fucking stupid

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dress by 炭团洋服社

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jittery…… idk if it’s the caffeine, meds or not eating

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for half of my life, ive lived as though ive been invisible. i dont know if i want to be found or completely disappear. stuck in this liminal space…….

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i can see the person i will be at 40, the same stagnant empty person i am. i dont know how to describe it but it’s like seeing your future etched out in mirrors and you constantly wish that the ‘real’ you will emerge and by the time you’ve realised, you’re already at the end of the road. i can see my death in the mirror. this can’t be all

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i dont exist i dont exist i dont exist

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I just don’t know what im doing anymore. Like im not actively suicidal but if a bus ran me over I wouldn’t complain

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snri fix me

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~ Mealspø ~

requested

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Me going from eating under 300 cals, to over 1000, to then fasting all in the span of a week.

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High Protein, Low Cal Foods

(Per 100g)

Eggs: 12.6g protein, 147 cal

Black beans: 8.9g protein, 132 cal

Lima beans: 7.8g protein, 115 cal

Corn: 3.4g protein, 96 cal

Salmon: 22g protein, 206 cal

Broccoli: 2.4g protein, 35 cal

Cauliflower: 1.8g protein, 23 cal

Bok Choy: 1.5g protein, 13 cal

Chicken: 31g protein, 165 cal

Beef: 26g protein, 259 cal (pork is very similar)

Canned Tuna: 24g protein, 128 cal

Legumes: 9.7g protein, 139 cal

Peas: 5.4g protein, 84 cal

Chickpeas: 8.9g protein, 164 cal

Tofu: 10g protein, 83 cal

Greek yogurt: 10g protein, 59 cal

[weightlessfairy]

i want this so so so bad :( too bad im a fucking loser pig

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feeling nauseous and bloated at the same time amazing I love being alive

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also lol apparently there’s an ana calculator that you put ur stats into and i just got diagnosed with fat. lmao when ana has ruined ur life and ur not even doing it right

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fuck me i fuckijskskdk whoever said dulcolax dosidjvo fuck I blacked out twice still very weak dizzy stomach pains woekdkdkdk why do i do this