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There's been a large amount of people mentioning the purge of Black users off of Tumblr, and it's funny because like... Some of us are still here. Maybe if y'all made it feel safe and encouraging to Opine While Black around here, instead of conveniently using us as the voiceless martyrs of whatever Conflicting Opinions y'all have today, you'd see more of us 😅 we'd want to be around you 😅

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phone doodles....le sigh

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sometimes you gotta snuggle the homies okay

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why

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Idk I just have no patience for trans men/masculine people who refuse to acknowledge transmisogyny. Like. The worst experience I ever had with transphobia was when I was mistaken for a trans women. In a culinary program, I was cutting bell peppers, and one of the other students, a really big dude in a student leadership position, walks in and accusatory goes "so are you trying to be a woman, or something?" And I'm like. Well I'm trying to small dice these peppers. And I tell him I'm not a she and he says something to the effect of "Yeah I know that much." He makes some comment abt how whatever I'm doing doesn't make sense and he doesn't get it and when I tell him he doesn't have to, that he just has to respect it, he says "I don't have to do shit!" And gets real mad! Like actual threats mad! Tells me he could bash my skull in and to meet him outside for a fight and yeah it was fucking scary! The entire interaction I'm reminding myself that I'm the one currently holding a knife, if he tries anything.

Fast forward a few days later and my period is kicking my ass. Just absolutely destroying me. I'm in the dish pit, and I am visibly struggling, I'm nauseous, I'm in pain and bracing myself against walls. I'm not walking straight. And the same student leadership guy who was so aggressive with me when he thought I was transfem?

He tells me I look like I'm going to pass out. He says it's obvious I'm in pain, I shouldn't be in class, I can go sit down and if nobody can replace me he'll do the dishes himself.

Like. Do you get it yet. It's not just that he felt comfortable openly threatening me in a room full of other people when he thought I was a trans woman. It's that he did a complete 180 and was not only willing to support me, but actually pick up my slack once he knew I wasn't "that kind" of transgender. As soon as one of our classmates confirmed to him that I wasn't the wrong type of trans person I suddenly became someone who actually deserved care and compassion in his eyes. The "bigots think we're all the same and hate all of is equally" rhetoric isn't fucking true. It's just peddled to deny the privilege we have over other members of our community so it's easier to ignore how inhospitable supposedly trans-centric spaces are for TMA people.

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parappa fucked up and evil moments

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paint/color study with a vrchat screenshot from yesterday

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rolls the car window down and 2D flies out like a napkin 💛🩵

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if anyones curious as to why i essentially stopped using this site its because of the crushing moral ocd that im still unravelling that was 100% made worse by being on here as a teen and the fact that so much of the userbase is just like. mean as fuck.

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a life painted for you in shades of green

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Hello, I'm Calvin. I had been living in an old camp trailer outside of my parents' house until recently, when the cord providing my electric caught fire and could have brought the whole thing down. I've since been staying in their house again, but the conditions are less than ideal. There isn't space for me and all of my things, and especially not for my dogs—it's crowded with people and other pets alike. Living in here also brings back a lot of bad memories and I'm in a terrible mental state as a result of being constantly triggered.

I'd like to have some emergency funds. I'm unsure at this moment what I want to do with them, but ideally, it'd be enough to get an apartment, hopefully? For full transparency, they may instead be used for food, clothes, or other things I need/want to improve my living situation Here—but I'll be saving the majority to aid me in getting out, because I Really don't want to be here.

I wanted to make a gofundme, but I don't have my own bank account. I'll be taking donations through Ko-fi at this time. These will not get art in return like the page advertises, sorry—I'm artblocked.

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pink panther hotstamp postcards 1998, 1999

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to be fucking honest. i'm starting to view it as a big red flag when queer people don't have the media literacy to tell when a character is making fun of trans women. i'm sorry that man in a dress crossdresser joke is not queer rep it in fact thinks trans women are laughing stocks

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changed my and theme because i felt like it. used 2 be butchpeabody!