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*gets a transparent png of a knife* *clicks and drags* *stabs your pfp*

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...I don't think I'd ever be able to fall for a guy who approached me out of romantic/sexual interest... Maybe I'm wrong... or maybe I'm too aroace spec... but there's just that undertone where every time there's a lull in activity that lets you think you start wondering if everything you've enjoyed in their company has been a ploy to make you let them do whatever they want...

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don't look stupid, rewrite, don't ask for what you don't want or can't get, don't worry them, rewrite, sanitize.

sanitize? this is not sanitizer, the wounds are infested with rot and you used a picture as a canvas to paint a canyon, you hid it under saran wrap and paint. My leg is rotting and you're calling the poison a cure!

Well nobody wants to deal with rotten flesh, nobody wants to see you rotting by, If they love you they can look at my paintings and unwrap your leg

If they can't or won't it wouldn't have made a difference except made them uncomfortable with the stench

Maybe they shoul-

Shush now, doesn't sanitizer smell so good, here let me wrap it real close

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If I don't get through uni I'm a stupid failiure but I know I'm not stupid so I'm just a lazy failiure but actually I'm valid bc it's a mental health thing but I wouldn't be mentally ill if I just did things right to begin with but it doesn't matter this is the situation now but actually you haven't even tried fixing it you could do it but shut up I'm litterally trying not to kill myself but shut your moth with the excuses it's not even that bad, excuse me, I just said I want to die, yeah? so what? just do something, litterally anything productive and it'll be better. And if you were to quit you'd have to explain, and pay the goverment back. I could just leave. But you won't. I could get a job. Yo can't do shit, you're "depressed". You just told me I could do months of work- But you won't and we've both seen what looking for jobs does to your mental health. It wasn't worse than this. Wasn't it? I could go to my sister's. She's planning on quitting, you have no guaranteed place there. I-- No help is coming.

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Is there a reason there's laws to punish behavior but not to reward behavior? I think there probably is a bunch but still... it feels like something to think about

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technically we could absolutely use a direct democraty instead of a representative one nowadays thanks to the internet. Is it better? Don't ask me, I'm not an expert on politics. Do I think that we should at least keep it in mind instead of just pretending representatives are the only option due to population size? Yes.

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Get yourself a boss who calls you out of the blue to tell you you can do way better

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Let's play "is it anger issues or do you simply live in an enviroment so intolerant to anger that you feel like the smallest expression of anger is unacceptable violence" today's candidate is someone who is well known for being a nice person and hasn't properly snapped at anyone in years but recently snapped at their mom for interrupting a thing they were saying to urge them that they had to go. The scentence was so unimportant it was forgotten not even a minute later but the retaliation bad enough that the mom still wondered if they were mad hours later. The retaliation in question included, raised voice, changed tone and carelessness in a slightly later joking shove that caused it to be painful.

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*gets a transparent png of a knife* *clicks and drags* *stabs your pfp*

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Ah, my main reason to live is that I need to tell my character's stories nowadays

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huh, years since I reacted to minor inconviniences by saying I'd kill [insert arbitrary number of people] or commit other acts of unspeakable violence... I guess that's growing up and getting a more stable mental health, now I just want to rip a singular throat out

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gonna hyperventilate bc a minorly uncomfortable thing is over and I'm alone enough to vent now

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I'm like if an alpha (omegaverse) had crippling social anxiety

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Not suicidal but it'd be so funny to see my hyper religious classmate who thinks we're besties' (I've shown her the least open distain in the class) reaction to me killing myself and thereby probably condemming myself to hell in her eyes

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I need to stop giving up. I won't, but I need to.

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Oh, hey, my feeling of a stable mental health is gone again, you hung in there longer than I thought but now we part ways again

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mentor figure fighting the enemy who can control minds, looses and becomes an enemy, protagonist kills the mentor turned villian and has a whole arc about their feelings for the mentor they feel betrayed them, protagonist fights enemy, all hope seems lost, suddenly finding a weakness, realizes their mentor died to put it there, traded their soul not just to give a future hero a chance but with a certainty that they would fight, they would spot the weakness and they would use it and defeat the evil.