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I really hate this feeling. 😣😔

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I miss the calmness and the sound of the sea.

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“It is awful to want to go away and to want to go nowhere.”

— Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

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“‘You’re going to be happy’ said life ‘but first I’ll make you strong.’”

— Unknown

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- j (x)

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But darling, in the end you have to be your own hero because everyone else is too busy trying to save themselves.

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What is lagnat to a hard working momma. 😅

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Last time I lived here in Pasig ganito din ako eh.

Lahat sa akin, kala ko graduate na ko dito. Kala ko magiging okay na.

Pero bumabalik na naman.

Uubusin niyo na naman ba ako ulit???

DRAINING.

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Bakit ganun. Bakit mas mahirap. 🥲

Pagod na ko.

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“I’m independent and strong, but sometimes…just sometimes, it’s nice to be taken care of.”

— Samantha Towle

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“I can do nothing for you but work on myself. You can do nothing for me but work on yourself.”

— Ram Dass

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Last night (earlier today) roughly around 5am, nakatulog ako. After long hours of being awake and being restless.

I opened my eyes and saw my baby sleeping beside me. After a while I felt my lips getting numb until para siyang namaga and felt like sasabog. Someone/something is pushing me down I can’t move. I prayed. Nung nakalagaw ako, tiningnan ko agad si Arie. She was in the most corner of my bed against the wall. Para siyang nilagay sa sulok and she can’t move an inch. Kinuha ko agad siya and lumabas ako ng room. Tinawag ko agad si Mikko to tell him na may demon sa room ko. Sumilip ulit ako sa room since the door was open. On the wall by the bed was the shadow from my night lamp. Kitang kita ko yun shadow ng demonyo laughing and waiving hands at me. I prayed out loud. “By the power of blood of Jesus, I rebuke you Satan! By the power of blood of Jesus, I rebuke you! You’re not allowed in here! In Jesus name, we are protected. Please God, please protect me and my family.” I was hugging Arie so tightly, I wanted to cover her with my body so no one can see and hurt her. I prayed out loud several times until the demon in my room vanished.

When things started to quiet down, we returned to our room. I was so tired and so weak, nakatulog agad ako. But not long after, I felt the presence again and I can’t move. Again I prayed out loud. I kept rebuking the demon

Until I woke up. Literally woke up. That’s when I realized that it was all a nightmare. I checked my baby and she was sleeping soundly beside me. I prayed again. My body feels heavy from sleep paralysis. Never thought I’d have to encounter a demon even in my dreams.

My sleep and waking life is giving me restlessness. I’m literally weak.

Pagod na pagod yung heart ko. At yung mind and body ko.

I don’t know what to do, Lord. Please help me. 😭

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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA SABI KO DI NA AKO AFFECTED. SABI KO MOVED ON NA KO SA GANUNG TRAUMA. DI PA RIN PALA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I SUPER HATE VALENTINES DAY!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

PS: I HATE SUNFLOWERS HAHAHAHAHA PLEASE ILAYO NIYO YAN SAKIN. DESIGN, BAG, SHIRT, EARRINGS, KAHIT ANONG SUNFLOWER. BATO KO PA SA HARAP NIYO YAN HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

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I hate Valentine’s Day! It’s a traumatic day for me. 😣