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get a load of that tongue

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i should draw more porn this summer

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so i was a little confused when tommy first sees buck and flashes this big sweet smile at him. given how things ended and tommy’s nature—i thought he’d be a little more awkward, maybe even shy, during the initial exchange (especially since it wasn’t expected or planned)

and just a few moments later, when he moves to sit down, he does get awkward in classic tommy fashion (ilu)

but then i realized — this (below) is likely what tommy saw as he was walking over to the table—buck taking his shot(s) in the most buck way ever (a little chaotic, messy - putting his whole body into it lool):

and well, given that, how could tommy NOT flash him his biggest, sweetest most endeared smile in that moment. especially when buck’s also looking at him like the cutest baby deer caught in headlights:

anyway, the end :)

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I've been rewatching all of 9-1-1 with the loml (I got them into it) and I just have to share that they picked up on that Buck was into Tommy at the end of the capsize arc and called it AT THE START of "Buck, Bothered and Bewildered" when even I didn't see that coming until at least halfway through the ep first time through.

They literally yelled "JUST KISS ALREADY!!!" before even the muay thai comment so I was laughing too hard to even fully enjoy their satisfaction of the actual kiss because this is exactly why I knew they needed to be One Of Us.

we don't all know each other but we do all Know each other iykwim 🏳️‍🌈

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buck moved into eddie’s house, fucked tommy in it, and left. an icon.

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Thinking about the possibility that every time Buck catches a glimpse of himself covered in soot, exhausted, and wrung out, he thinks of that day. Of Tommy showing up like that for him, probably after 24 hours of fighting fires. Still choosing him through smoke and bone-deep fatigue. Still kissing him in the middle of a hospital lobby like nothing else mattered

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did you think about this today?

okay now you did, go on

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Buck: My biggest talent is being stress! Ravi: Don’t you mean stressed? Bobby, Eddie, and Maddie: No.

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OK the best way I've come up with to boil this all down to is fandom shipping vs fandom canon shipping. And it is specifically NOT TO SAY that fandom shipping is bad!!! But they are different.

I'm a huge rickyl (Rick/Daryl) shipper in the TWD fandom. The way I ship rickyl is pure fandom shipping. I KNEW (/know, but don't ask me about my spinoffs reunion delusions) that the show would never actually pair up the two. I admittedly held out hope for a queer / ace Daryl for a long time, though that's a different beast, but I didn't ever realllyyyyy think they'd make Rick break from comic canon so far as to be queer and fall for a non-comic-canon male character, especially when we were given explicit canon, in-narrative evidence Rick is straight. That doesn't mean I didn't see every split second of loaded interactions, chemistry, queer undertones, and potential of those characters that made me ship them extra hard and overanalyze all of those moments and explore their potential, alongside thousands of other rickyl shippers. We aren't crazy; we're fandom shippers. It's fun. It's sexy. It's imaginary.

The crazy part comes in when you think your interpretation supercedes canon, reality, and explicit narrative evidence so much as to manifest it into the show, to the point of delusions that cause you to harass real living people.

Anyway. All that about shipping rickyl is completely different from shipping Buck/Tommy, because none of that ship is wishful thinking. It being endgame? Maybe. Them getting back together? Maybe. But IT. IS. FACT. that they were together, banging, catching feelings, building something, etc., all in-narrative and canon to the show. (And we haven't gotten an explicit "NO" that that ship has sailed, but again, different [fire] beast.)

Eddie has been explicitly illustrated as straight time and time again, and was wonderfully casually supportive of Buck's bisexuality and interest in Tommy without missing a beat, which would've possibly demonstrated any personal crisis about Buck being into men if he HAD hesitated or freaked out. We've been given explicit acknowledgement of the *potential* that exists with Buck and Eddie, but I believe *specifically* to acknowledge the proverbial elephant in the room to get it out of the way for their real intentions with Buck and Tommy.

My endgame opinion aside, it is unavoidable truth that Buck and Tommy are a real ship while Buck and Eddie are a fandom ship. And THAT IS OKAY. Fuck, I was a buddie shipper before s7, but I shipped it the way I ship rickyl: as fandom fantasy shipping fun. Tommy changed everything, and IN A GOOD WAY. The wish for queer and bi male rep expansion was happening before our very eyes, on screen and in 4k. THAT'S AMAZING. I can't even begin to emphasize the victory that is bi Buck and the Buck/Tommy storyline being on a cable TV show.

ANYway.

TL;DR - buddie is fandom shipping and bucktommy is fandom canon shipping, and while neither is better or worse, it's important to acknowledge that one is for the fun of it while enjoying a TV show, and one is for the celebration of its reality in the world we live in where this TV show exists and support of its continuation because it matters.

Thanks for reading my rant, ily.

P.S. - Don't get me started on where destiel fits into all dis.

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hi just a scream into the void that it is possible -- and actually quite common -- to be an eddie fan and a bucktommy fan. ❤️

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you have been where i am now, and i have never belonged. the love i have for myself is out of place. i have seen you before knowing you, and deep down, you were so afraid. the love you have for yourself is unrequited. the people who saved you and me are the string that was tied between us. and now it's pulling. but i'm unraveling. i hope you want me anyway. why does it keep pulling? call me by my name again. i want to be yours. and you do. and i am.

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listen all I'm saying is I remember being a destiel truther in the time of wincest shippers and look who was right

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TOMMY KINARD | got it.

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EVAN BUCKLEY | You’re not scared I’m gonna break your heart anymore?

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life continues to life (as my doctor says perfectly) but this fucking little dramatic gay wee-woo show continues to be both a comfort and a torment.

spoiled bits of s8 pt 2 for myself because I'm rewatching all of 9-1-1 with my partner (they're One Of Us now too 🥰) and we're on s7 and I couldn't live with not knowing if Tommy was really just gone. I have no regrets, especially as my partner experiences the incredible high of the bi Buck reveal and BuckTommy without knowing what's coming.

I have Thoughts coming soon about where Buck's story has been and is going... brought to you by ADHD, queer theory, my writing major/sociology minor degree, escapism, and 3 months of intentional sobriety. 🫠❤️

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OH MY FUCKING GOD

THE ITALIAN DUB AT IT AGAIN

You know how in Masks Buck says 'it's our people that are what make life worth living?'

Well, in Italian Buck says 'it's the people we love that make life worth living'

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All I want for Christmas is for bucktommy to get back together