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i just wanna be able to were a simple tee shirt and be comfortable 🥺

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i just want a cute boy to flirt with me ;(

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THIS IS AN ANGREY AL CAPS RANT

MYABE IM JUST TIRED OF BEING AND UGLY PEAICE OF SHIT WITH NO GODAMN SELF CONTROL MAYBE IM SICK OF BEING SPOILD AND UNORGANIZED AND EMOTIONAL AND IN THE WRONG FUCKING BODY BUT WHAT DO PPL SO WHEN I TALK”WHY FO YOU ALWAY GOTTA TALK ABOUT YOUR GENDER WHAT IS EVERYTHING ALWAYS ABOUT YOU” BUT WHEN I QUITE ALMOST MUST”SWEETIE IM WORRIED SWEETIE YOU SHOUDL TALK TO SOMEBODY ”WHERE THAT FUCK IS THAT ADDITUDE WHEN I WAS CRYING ON MY ROOM FLOOR BC I HATE MYSELF. YEAH H SHIT TOU WERNT THERE BC NOBODY FUCKIBG CHECKS ON ME. NOBODY WANTS TO HELF ME FUCKING COPE BUT WHEN I FOUND MY OWN WAY YOU CALL THEM DISTRUCTIVE BUT THE. LEAVE ME WITH NOTHING. DONT IM TIRED OF BEING THE SMART KID WHO DOSENT GET TI MAKE ANY FUCKING MISTAKES ALL I DO IS WORRY ABOUT OTHER PPL AND HOW IM MAKING THEM UNCOMFORTABLE WITH MY FUCKED UP METAL CONDITIONS SO IF I WANNA JOKE ABOUT BEING TRANS OR BLACK OR POOR OR DYSLECTIC OR ADD IM GONNA FUCKING DO IT WHY BC I HAVE TO DEAL WITH THEM AND IF IM LAZY ON THE ONE DAY THAT I DONT GO TO SOME SORT OF EDUCATIONAL PROGRAM (SUNDAYS) THEN DEAL WITH IT BC THE TRUTH US I HATE MYLIFE AND DONT WANNA SAY IT BC I DINT WANNA SEEM LJKEAND UNGRATEFUL BITCH. OH AND ANOTHER THINK STOP TALKING ABOUT HOW SKINNY I AM AND HOW YOU THI K I NEED TO EAT MORE SOMTIMES I STUFF MYSELF BC IM SCARED THAT YOULL TJINK IM ANOREIC IM NOT SO STOP SAYING IT BUT YOU KNWO WHAT AM DYPORIC DEPRESSED ANXIOUS BUT DOSE ANY FUCKING BODY ANKOLAGE THAT HELL NO. I LIVE MY FAMILY BUT SONTIMES I DONT WANNA BE AROUND THEM BC THEY MAKE ME FEEL PILE A BAD FUCKING KID!!!! but i’m not going to dwelll forever i got it out and now i’m done. -stay high astro cats 🚀

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music is my drug of choice

basically my mental health starting to go down hill around the 4th grade that’s the first time i felt sad in a different level...like a sad darker then sad. It’s also when puberty started to pick up my chest wasn’t so flat and there was more pressure from my mom to be more girly..it was just a lot and for a long time i had not way to cope or at least not a healthy way then on day while i was in this after school class for mg called sophia (sorry for the settle flex) one of my best friends named Naomi showed me a band called Panic! at the Disco. I was intralled to say the least,the music resonated with me and even when it didn’t it was fun to listen to the stories imbedded in the sounds. It also helped that Bendon Urie is really pretty and shares the same brithday as me (aris for life). Of course panic! was just a gateway to way more music just to list some persona favorite twenty one pilots,the wallows,waterparks(stream turbulent) conan grey,some fall out boy songs and lana del ray(an all powerful queen). I also have an afenity for for the hamilton sound track. And while i haven’t completely gotten rid of my old copping habits i’ve gotten better. Wow this was so serious i feel like i need to tell a joke.. How does a squid go into battle? Well armed. 🦗🦗🦗 i’m so sorry. This was shorter then usual but that’s ok i felt like it was nessery. Well i gotta go discover a new planet....stay high astro cats🚀

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hey i’m back for a second rant !

ok just realized that the big text is for that heading soooo...i guess i’ll be reviving my blogger of the year award if you could even call me a blogger . Anyway lately i’ve really been wanting to fall in love which is strange because i just got out of a relationship. I broke it of for a lot of reasons and none of my friends know the whole truth at this point i don’t think i do i just knew it wasn’t right and im not the type of person to let things fester. but i still want to fall in love and this time with a guy. i do prefer guys bc i consider myself a homosexual though my last relationship was with a girl because i am also biromantic or panromantic still working out the kinks with that one non the less every time i imagine a wedding or whatever after i read a love story between two boy against all the odds (i’m a hopeless romantic i know) i find myself picturing the same guy. My ideal guy would be taller then me (but i don’t discriminate short guys deserve love too) brown eyes,dark curly brown hair, alt style or emo to complement my soft grunge aesthetic lmao and have a HUGE WOPPING heart ;)). tho ive never met a guy like that and to be honest all of these things don’t really matter except for the heart part. Oh and i definitely need somebody who’s opinionated i LOVE depating and arguing in general and i’ve yet to meet my match honestly if you can beat me well either be best friends or get married on the spot...lmao or both. This all new bc befor had i never really thought about love or relationships while my friends (who are all girls) were off funding bf or whatever i was playing minecraft in my own world. I know i’m not ready for love in the end to be honest i don’t even love myself yet and i here that’s very important so maybe the the guy i should be falling for is me. My eyes are brown (and big) and my hair is curly well more woolly considering i am african american..or american as i like to say but that’s a topic for another. Ok i got off topic but the point is i should probably start loving myself before i start loving other ppl romanticly. like date myself hmm is that insest ? ew. and on that note my specs ship is here so i’m gonna fly out......stay high astro...cats? yeah i’m gonna stick with that....stay high astro cat ✌🏾🚀

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hello internet tho j know nobody’s going to read this....i thought tumbler could be like my diary bc non of my friends follow me a rant place if you will so i can say whatever i want about my life and blow off some steam. One thing that’s been really in my mind lately is my mom. i came out as trans a while ago and my dad taking it fine he’s really supportive all the men in my like are actually but my mom...idk i feel like she doing stuff in purpose and it’s small stuff like comparing me to girls and imploring me to get my makeup done (tho guys can like that stuff i just don’t and she knows that). i really don’t understand i haven’t changed as a person i just let everyone else around me know how i truly am as sappy as that sounds. oh and do t even get me statef on how she keeps calling me a lebeain(which is strange bc i’m about a gay as they come). idk what to do really but not gonna lie if felt damn good to rant(oop i cursed !)

~thanx for letting me rant🐙