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Poem: “Position of the Heart”

Oh I am fulfilled

Complete to my core

A warmth wraps my soul

There is nothing else to complete me

I radiate like the sun

Though i give my all, am remain full

My source of nourishment is my radiance

Only ending when I close my arms

If I look out, all can be found

If I look in, the light is never found

With closed arms I am unfulfilled

With open arms I never want

The more I give the more I have

The more I have the happier I am

The more I hold the more I need

The more I need the less I am satisfied

11/4/2024

Michael Timothy Smith

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Poem: “The Road of Death”

I walk this old gravel road

Looking to my right and left I see great horror

The dead line the road

The stench is so unbearable

The sun beats down and intensifies the decay

The screams of pain echo in my ears

My eyes want to hide from the vision of filth

My hands wish to recoil from the rot all around

Occasionally the perfume of sweet flowers swirl in my nostrils

The joy of laughter soothes my ears

The bounty of joy brings tears to my ears

How I long to swaddle and hold this beauty

Alas love appears so briefly and rarely

It’s beauty so rarely manifests

The soil is cracked as if with canyons from the lack of its life giving waters

Missed opportunities create a pit in my soul

10/20/2024

Michael Timothy Smith

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Poem: “Looking At my Hands”

I look at my hands

How they speak to my soul

Today they are so filthy

I can barely see my skin

Yesterday they stayed clean all day

Flawless and prepared for anything

Shining in the noonday sun

Not a mark upon them

Today I feel so weary

My work has drained me whole

Spent to utter nothing

There is no where I want to go

Yesterday I was restless

At it’s evening I could not sleep

Anxiety ruled my mind

In my dark recesses I wished to weep

It is easy to stay clean

It is easy to keep a day void of accomplishment

It is easy to be nothing

It is easy to be blown away like sand

It is hard to fight in the world

It is hard to carry on and through

It is hard to be something

But it is glorious and rewarding too

2 Tm 4:10-17b

10/18/2024

Michael Timothy Smith

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Poem: “Wanting to Shine”

Designed before the beginning of time?

How can I conceive this thought?

I know that I have today

And in this way I want to shine

Designed for love and to bring it in

How can I when my heart is broken?

I know that I have your help

And in this way I want to shine

Designed for hope and what lies in store

When the walls are falling what do I do?

I know that tomorrow will come

And in it I hope to shine

Designed for joy, dancing and laughing

Even when everyone is watching?

I know I decide what I focus on

And in it may my joy shine

EPH 1:1-10

10/17/2024

Michael Timothy Smith

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Poem: “Longing For Peace”

How I long for peace

I search the far reaches

Yet it alludes me

Am I blind?

Is peace before my face?

Is it’s solace within my grasp?

If I am blind, why?

What am I holding before my eyes?

What is in my hands?

To let go is to see

The burdens I carry are stacked in front of my face

I may even trip over peace and curse it’s presence

What can I let go of?

Where is my heart?

How long will this journey of the mind endure?

GAL 5:18-25

10/16/2024

Michael Timothy Smith

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Poem: “Oh My Little Box”

Oh my little box

It is where I reside

It is small and comfy

It’s warm and cozy, sometimes too much

Oh my little box

I remember when it was bigger

I had room to run and play

But now I am older, maybe wiser

Oh my little box

It’s filled to the brim you see

Oh I am so lucky

It’s just a little cramped anymore

Oh my little box

Some say it could be bigger

That I get and hold too much

Without it all I’d have more room

Oh my little box

I can’t give it all away

It’s all mine I tell you

I’ve been collecting for so long

10/15/2024

Michael Timothy Smith

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Poem: “Oh the Sun”

I turned away from the sun

I hid from it’s light

I thought I knew where I was going

I thought I had all the answers

I turned away from the sun

It was bright and I did not care for it

It was hot and made me sweat

I longed for the cool of the night and the shadows

I turned away from the sun

I hid from the light and the warmth

I stumbled and fell, injuring myself

I was cold and huddled in the corner

I went looking for the sun

Maybe I could get back what I once had

But I forgot where it dwelt

I had run so far away

I went looking for the sun

I saw a small light off in the distance

It is now my guiding star

Soon will I be back again?

10/14/2024

Michael Timothy Smith

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Poem: “For So Many Years”

For so many years

I knew your love

I felt your love

But I did not see you there

For so many years

I walked away from you

And so you cried

I did not care

For so many years

I was in pain

I thought I was alone

But you were there

For so many years

I have returned

And so the trials

And we face them all together

For so many years

I’ve been on this journey

You love me, you know me

No matter which way I am looking

10/10/2024

Michael Timothy Smith

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Poem: “Waiting for the Answer”

I see the storm clouds circling

The wind rises in strength

The wind cools and feels sharp on my skin

I call but where are you?

Out in my boat fishing for dinner

The peaceful waters get restless

My boat rocks increasingly violent

I call but where are you?

Walking through the field, the harvest is soon

The ground begins to quake

I see a plume of smoke in the near distance

I call but where are you?

So I wait for your response

I wait for your answer

Why can’t I hear your answer?

Is it my fault for lack of focus?

I call but where are you?

10/3/2024

Michael Timothy Smith

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Poem: “And So I Walk Forward”

The sun shines and all is well

Flowers slide through my fingertips

Sweet aromas flood my nostrils

A warm blanket encloses me

And so I walk forward

Clouds dance across the sky

A breeze cool surrounds my body

A crispness transforms the air

Questions begin to arise

And so I walk forward

The clouds begin to darken

A crack of thunder is heard close

A swell of water and dirt I smell

Goosebumps erupt on my skin

And so I walk forward

Am I alone?

Have I always been?

Where should I go and to whom I turn?

Today is the same as yesterday

And so I walk forward

9/30/2024

Michael Timothy Smith

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Poem: “A Whisper Through Time”

Running in the fields

Sun on my back

Pleasant scents dance in my nostrils

Never have I felt so alive

And so comes the whisper

I feel the sand between my toes

Waves bounce with glee on the shore

The song of crashing water enthralls my heart

Birds soar the coastline with majesty

And so comes a whisper

Lying in the grass, a soft bed holds my body

The clouds play and dance across the sky

The sun ever pulls a smile from my face

The cool breeze caresses my skin

And so comes a whisper

The day goes long

The sun sets

Coolness and darkness creep in from every corner

Hesitation and doubt invade

And so comes a whisper

When will I listen?

Or

Will I ever?

Michael Timothy Smith

9/28/2024

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Poem: “Following the Cracks”

Following the line of life

Trying to make my way

It looks like a crack in an old sidewalk

Turning jagged every which way

I hold my breath sometimes

Sometimes I gotta jump

Sometimes I’m really sore

Sometimes I’m just too tired

But each day rises

And I head out again

Following the path of my life

Waiting for the end

Michael Timothy Smith

9/25/2024

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Poem: “Sitting In This Water”

Sitting in this water

I’m cold and lonely

I thought this would be fun

Didn’t think I’d be alone

Sitting in this water

How long do I keep waiting?

Is anyone coming?

Or am I just to swim alone?

Sitting in this water

I float with the waves

How long can I last for?

For what am I made?

Sitting in this water

Ready to get out

No shore or edge insight

Been treading for too long

Sitting in this water

My muscles begin to ache

It’s time to decide

It’s time for new waters

Michael Timothy Smith

9/24/2024

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Poem: “Hey Old Man”

Hey old man are you okay?

You seem to be moving slow

Hey old man, you doing okay?

You seem really tired and groaning

Hey old man, it’s been a long day

Do you want to take a rest?

Hey old man, it’s okay

We won’t let you fall behind

Hey old man, you’ve taken lots of hits

Do you want to leave?

Hey old man, don’t you worry

But know, we all can see

Hey old man, some are real angry

Some say you were all wrong

Hey old man, no one is perfect

It’s not too late to make amends

Hey old man, the day is late

It’s almost time to go

It’s been a good run for you

Don’t worry we’ll keep it going too

9/13/2024

Michael Timothy Smith

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