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I used to be afraid of losing you in my life.. But now I've realized I already have.

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I am an idealist and I make no apologizes for being so. I want to believe in the goodness and kindness of others. Some may call it naive but it's the only thing that helps me make it through the day. #drunkramblings #innate-goodness

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The agony of being just your friend is all encompassing. I don't know how much longer I can take this torment. There is a fine line between pleasure and pain.

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After years of suspicion and months of lies... There's something gratifying finding out i was right all along.... That I wasn't crazy. That I'm justified in not trusting you.

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There are so many reasons not to love you. And only one reason to. Unfortunately I can't gouge my heart out with a dull spoon.

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I'm at my breaking point. You've completely annihilated me. I don't know how much more I can take.

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You hurt me more than anyone I've ever known but you are all that I know.

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She's nothing but a whore dressed up in fancy lingerie. That's what excites you by all means, try your hand in that. You'll regret it down the road.

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What once was love, now is loathing. By treating me like I was nothing.. Making me feel like second best.. All tender feelings became corrupt and peeled the blinders from my eyes. I see you for what you are. An emotional user. A junkie for companionship. You are the poison in my life. The doubt in my head. The cancer in my heart. I know I need to heal myself. I need to learn to live without you. You can't use me anymore.

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It's never so apparent to me how little I mean to you until you are away...

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My heart is breaking and you don't even give a fuck.

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I have inability of letting go hope that you and I will eventually be together. Nobody understands you better or accepts you more than me. All your imperfections and your trying qualities. I've stuck with you through some real hard times. You know deep down that I AM exactly what you need. I will be patient. I will keep holding on. I just hope I don't break in the process.

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I wish I could clone you. And have your replica love me the way you are unable to.

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You'll always be a part of me. That's one thing that will always stand true.

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I still hate myself for loving you. You are killing me. I hate the person I have become because of you. I hate it. I hate me.

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Such pretty words you speak.. But I'm not blinded by them. I see the ugliness of your lies You don't have me fooled.