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IM IN TEARS WILBUR IS SO KENOUGH

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Some types of switching for us

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this disorder is that, a disorder.

i wouldn't wish having dissociative identity disorder on my worst enemy.

of course, im appreciative of all our parts that helped us survive through abuse. im appreciative because with them we can function and (somewhat) work full time employment.

but this disorder is not just an alter disorder. the alters are what results from severe childhood abuse, and the fallout from that.

and most importantly, this disorder is not something you can turn off when it's suddenly inconvenient to have it. (something endogenic systems will never understand)

And today. We got married to our now wife.

This should have been an amazing day, but instead this disorder had other plans for us.

Our wife has connected with all of the parts of us and they all adore her dearly. During our vows we lacked impulse control and several parts came close to front to try and be part of the experience too.

And the result of that? We spent the rest of the day dissociated and desperately struggling not to pass out - at some point holding onto our wife. We didn't tell her because we just got married and we didn't want to ruin such a special day. So we just suffered instead.

We are lucky we even got married today because we suffer from such bad amnesia and brain fog, we mixed up the times and arrived an hour late. They had a cancellation so they were able to squeeze us in. We felt so ashamed that we couldn't even do a simple task of remembering the right time for the wedding.

We couldn't even get one day. Had we not had this disorder we could have had memories of the beautiful ceremony and our amazing wife. But it's tainted, instead we remember carefully walking throughout the street being so focused on our steps because we didn't want to fall and faint and cause a scene.

Dissociative Identity Disorder is not a fun thing to have, it's not something you should want to have. It's a disorder that affects absolutely everything.

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just found this. This is how DID feels most of the time

-host

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holy shit

if i see one more "#endo friendly!" post im gonna have a d1 crash out.

GET OFF OUR TUMBLR ARUGHHH

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System culture is preferring messaging over calling and in-person communication is because then we can go back and read what was said in past conversations instead of having to try to remember it all.

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[Text: This system realized they are a system due to the YouTube channel DissociaDID.]

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Poly frag autistic System culture is:

Wait is this just me fixating over a media or are we splitting? Better yet: Am I a member of said media????

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SHIT WHY IS THIS ACTUALLY HOW I’ve been drawing tho- I JUST WANT TO MAKE A STUPID LITTLE DRAWING OF ME AND VOX IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK!!! ~Alastor

HEAR ME OUT

REMEMBER THIS???

MY NEW HEADCANON IS THAT THESE SKETCHES IS HOW ALASTOR ACTUALLY DRAWS

BOOM. MIC DROP.

why ive never thought of it before omg

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[Text: This system's innerworld is mainly compromised of forests.]

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[ Text; This system is introject heavy!]

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Vent-

I’m so upset about all the shit with Wilbur I’m almost upset with myself in a way I want to change my name but also not I want to look different but still not idk what to do-

~Wilbur

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[Text: This system has insys romantic relationships.]

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high school teacher voice hello neurodivergent openly queer kid everyone sees as weird. you need to select a partner for this group pr- what do you mean everyone partnered up already? what do you mean youre the only one left without a partner? well i guess i have no choice but to force you to walk up to a random set of friends and join their group while they ignore you for the entire class again

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when new alter fronts for the first time;

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Plural culture + overactive imagination/MADD is "did this actually happen or did I make this up" and "is this alter real or did I just make it up" etc

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