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truly

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(Note: the difference between guilt and shame is that ‘guilt’ focuses on specific acts or behaviors, while ‘shame’ involves the overall sense of self.)

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Mary in 70s style of clothes

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Closed my eyes for a sec, opened them, and there he was uhm

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Any time I find myself explaining late seasons supernatural to someone who stopped watching somewhere in the mid-seasons it sounds exactly like I'm describing a fever dream I had and they usually ask me if I'm fucking with them several times.

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Sammy

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(bleeding from my wound) notice anythiung differebt about me ;)

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im still losing it over the "how did high schoolers write 600 word essays before chatgpt" post. 600 words. that is nothing. that is so few words what do you mean you can't write 600 words. 600 words. this post right here is 45 words.

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also bears repeating that everyone needs to compare sam’s hell arc with dean’s hell arc.

dean: is given the option of ending his own torture by becoming a torturer himself. is part of a system and has a Commander (alastair) to answer to. we are told that he becomes highly skilled at it and we are given specific details about A) his hell timeline, B) what was done to him, and C) how he felt about what he subsequently did to others.

sam: no choice but to suffer endlessly. locked in a box with a violent and vengeful man. for Some Reason the narrative had his period of torture last for significantly (almost unquantifiably) longer than dean’s did. the timeline is fuzzy and the details of the torture - outside of a handful of Jokey allusions to rape - are a mystery. sam never talks about the specifics with anyone across the entirety of the series because A) he presumably lacks the language to do so, B) his trauma doesn’t tend to get spotlighted like that relative to dean’s, and C) who would listen?

dean was a Righteous Soldier who Tragically Broke, and this Wasn’t His Fault. sam was Paying For his Sins and he had the audacity to come out of the experience Wrong (soulless arc) and then Crazy (hallucifer arc).

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Heat of the Moment

I didn’t finish this in time for the 1st, so it’s a little late rip

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I'm just saying

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i think we should have a fic where season 2 dean, who just found out his father wanted sam dead because he's "dangerous," meets season 13 dean, who wants jack dead because he's "dangerous." and s2 dean can't understand for the life of him how he got this way, what his future self could possibly be thinking to condemn a child that hasn't yet done anything wrong, and then s13 dean shouts, "he's a monster!" and s2 sam, who's been by dean's side this whole time, goes deadly quiet. and then s2 dean beats the shit out of his future self

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something i really enjoy when done right in horror and tragedy is when it refuses to let comedy be a relief. yes, it is absurd, it's absolutely ridiculous - and isn't that just fucking awful? you have to laugh, or you'll cry, you'll scream, you'll lose your mind completely. it isn't escapism, it's complicity.

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