windfaemaiden

[windfaemaiden]

I feel really bad asking for help but I've been unable to work for a few weeks now. I've been doing a lot of physical work and my body feels like its just broken down for good at this point, and I'm terrified tbh. I've been putting my girlfriend who I live with under financial stress due to my inability to pay for bills besides my own even while I was working, but now I'm sinking more into the negatives and I desperately need help. I can't keep putting this strain on her income, and I need to be able to live while I'm getting tests done by doctors to figure out why I'm in constant pain and can barely move these days. I recently went to the ER for the pain and how it affected me mentally very recently, and I feel very lost and scares these days.

Long story short, disabled trans woman looking for any financial help.

Here's a link to my Ko-fi, I'm not currently doing commissions as I haven't been able to work on past ones for a long while (I will get those to you eventually, as best as I can, I promise I haven't forgotten) Ko-fi is the easiest but feel free to reach out if it isn't an option. Sorry and thank you for your time.

I'll put more info under a read more, if you want more of an explanation about my health and why I'm scared and struggling.

I've had chronic pain, mostly situated in my chest (which is terrifying, I'm sure you can guess why) since I was 12, well over half my life ago at this point. The pain mostly showed up while stressed or working out a lot, stuff like that. Over the years it got slightly worse, but starting about 2 years ago or so, the pain started getting exponentially worse and worse. November of 2023 I went to an urgent care due to pain while I had a slight cold, and I ended up seeing my primary doctor about the pain. It was misdiagnosed (by a different doctor) when I was younger as Chostochondritis, but that from what I remember has no cases of being chronic. I went through a few different meds to try and help with the pain, and my current dr said I most likely had fibromyalgia, gave me some meds that often help with the pain from it, and he was right.

Day 1 of taking the meds made me feel the best I had in years, but sadly, due to working a very physical job for about the past 6 months, my body feels more worn down than ever. I worked this same job only a few years ago working over 40 hours a week, but I could barely keep up working only around 14. On top of all this, I might also have rheumatoid arthritis or something else going on as well, which is compounding the pain. Ngl its been extremely depressing and stressful watching myself in real time being unable to work and do things I could do only a couple of years ago. I used to be able to work and go to college at the same time, but most days I can't shower without needing to take at least an hour of rest afterwards. I'm scared, I'm angry at my own inabilities, especially for things I've been able to do before, and I'm no longer living alone and I watch as all of the financial struggles now affect my beloved girlfriend as well.

I've tried getting on disability and got denied, and need to resubmit when I'm allowed to. I'm at a loss and I'm just constantly terrified, and I don't know what to do. Sorry.

[windfaemaiden]

Rabbit Hole!! Maybe something else, not sure how long I'll be live.

[windfaemaiden]

Gonna play some Space Engineers and then either House Flipper 2 or Cassette Beasts, not sure yet. Come hang out <3

[windfaemaiden]

Okay I posted this and forgot to say it'd be in about an hour when I made it (About 30 mins from now) Oops!

Okay fuck it Palworld stream in a world me and my beloved Msinput have been playing. We're pretty late into the game but I wanna play it today but I also wanna stream so <3

Lots of base management and going around killing bosses and stuff.

[windfaemaiden]

Okay fuck it Palworld stream in a world me and my beloved Msinput have been playing. We're pretty late into the game but I wanna play it today but I also wanna stream so <3

Lots of base management and going around killing bosses and stuff.

[windfaemaiden]

I feel really bad asking for help but I've been unable to work for a few weeks now. I've been doing a lot of physical work and my body feels like its just broken down for good at this point, and I'm terrified tbh. I've been putting my girlfriend who I live with under financial stress due to my inability to pay for bills besides my own even while I was working, but now I'm sinking more into the negatives and I desperately need help. I can't keep putting this strain on her income, and I need to be able to live while I'm getting tests done by doctors to figure out why I'm in constant pain and can barely move these days. I recently went to the ER for the pain and how it affected me mentally very recently, and I feel very lost and scares these days.

Long story short, disabled trans woman looking for any financial help.

Here's a link to my Ko-fi, I'm not currently doing commissions as I haven't been able to work on past ones for a long while (I will get those to you eventually, as best as I can, I promise I haven't forgotten) Ko-fi is the easiest but feel free to reach out if it isn't an option. Sorry and thank you for your time.

I'll put more info under a read more, if you want more of an explanation about my health and why I'm scared and struggling.

I've had chronic pain, mostly situated in my chest (which is terrifying, I'm sure you can guess why) since I was 12, well over half my life ago at this point. The pain mostly showed up while stressed or working out a lot, stuff like that. Over the years it got slightly worse, but starting about 2 years ago or so, the pain started getting exponentially worse and worse. November of 2023 I went to an urgent care due to pain while I had a slight cold, and I ended up seeing my primary doctor about the pain. It was misdiagnosed (by a different doctor) when I was younger as Chostochondritis, but that from what I remember has no cases of being chronic. I went through a few different meds to try and help with the pain, and my current dr said I most likely had fibromyalgia, gave me some meds that often help with the pain from it, and he was right.

Day 1 of taking the meds made me feel the best I had in years, but sadly, due to working a very physical job for about the past 6 months, my body feels more worn down than ever. I worked this same job only a few years ago working over 40 hours a week, but I could barely keep up working only around 14. On top of all this, I might also have rheumatoid arthritis or something else going on as well, which is compounding the pain. Ngl its been extremely depressing and stressful watching myself in real time being unable to work and do things I could do only a couple of years ago. I used to be able to work and go to college at the same time, but most days I can't shower without needing to take at least an hour of rest afterwards. I'm scared, I'm angry at my own inabilities, especially for things I've been able to do before, and I'm no longer living alone and I watch as all of the financial struggles now affect my beloved girlfriend as well.

I've tried getting on disability and got denied, and need to resubmit when I'm allowed to. I'm at a loss and I'm just constantly terrified, and I don't know what to do. Sorry.

[windfaemaiden]

Gonna do some Quest 64 and Cassette Beasts tonight! We're nearing the end of Quest and just at the start of Cassette Beasts <3

[windfaemaiden]

Still live and switching to Cassette Beasts! Its my first time playing it so its a blind playthrough and I'm excited about it, its been on my list to play for a while.

In about 10 minutes I'm gonna stream the final boss of Dragon Warrior 7! Gonna follow it up with some Cassette Beasts as well <3 Come hang out!

[windfaemaiden]

In about 10 minutes I'm gonna stream the final boss of Dragon Warrior 7! Gonna follow it up with some Cassette Beasts as well <3 Come hang out!

[windfaemaiden]

In about 15 minutes I'm gonna play some Quest 64 again, got about halfway through the game yesterday and I was enjoying most of it so more today sounds fun :3 Oh and also probably more Mario 64, I'm on the last 14 stars!

[windfaemaiden]

Since I missed two stream days I'm gonna be live for a while, starting off with Mario 64 (120 stars), then doing probably some other n64 games like Mystical Ninja Goemon, Possibly Glover, and might also beat Dragon Warrior 7! Not sure on the last one. Come hang out <3

[windfaemaiden]

I feel really bad asking for help but I've been unable to work for a few weeks now. I've been doing a lot of physical work and my body feels like its just broken down for good at this point, and I'm terrified tbh. I've been putting my girlfriend who I live with under financial stress due to my inability to pay for bills besides my own even while I was working, but now I'm sinking more into the negatives and I desperately need help. I can't keep putting this strain on her income, and I need to be able to live while I'm getting tests done by doctors to figure out why I'm in constant pain and can barely move these days. I recently went to the ER for the pain and how it affected me mentally very recently, and I feel very lost and scares these days.

Long story short, disabled trans woman looking for any financial help.

Here's a link to my Ko-fi, I'm not currently doing commissions as I haven't been able to work on past ones for a long while (I will get those to you eventually, as best as I can, I promise I haven't forgotten) Ko-fi is the easiest but feel free to reach out if it isn't an option. Sorry and thank you for your time.

I'll put more info under a read more, if you want more of an explanation about my health and why I'm scared and struggling.

I've had chronic pain, mostly situated in my chest (which is terrifying, I'm sure you can guess why) since I was 12, well over half my life ago at this point. The pain mostly showed up while stressed or working out a lot, stuff like that. Over the years it got slightly worse, but starting about 2 years ago or so, the pain started getting exponentially worse and worse. November of 2023 I went to an urgent care due to pain while I had a slight cold, and I ended up seeing my primary doctor about the pain. It was misdiagnosed (by a different doctor) when I was younger as Chostochondritis, but that from what I remember has no cases of being chronic. I went through a few different meds to try and help with the pain, and my current dr said I most likely had fibromyalgia, gave me some meds that often help with the pain from it, and he was right.

Day 1 of taking the meds made me feel the best I had in years, but sadly, due to working a very physical job for about the past 6 months, my body feels more worn down than ever. I worked this same job only a few years ago working over 40 hours a week, but I could barely keep up working only around 14. On top of all this, I might also have rheumatoid arthritis or something else going on as well, which is compounding the pain. Ngl its been extremely depressing and stressful watching myself in real time being unable to work and do things I could do only a couple of years ago. I used to be able to work and go to college at the same time, but most days I can't shower without needing to take at least an hour of rest afterwards. I'm scared, I'm angry at my own inabilities, especially for things I've been able to do before, and I'm no longer living alone and I watch as all of the financial struggles now affect my beloved girlfriend as well.

I've tried getting on disability and got denied, and need to resubmit when I'm allowed to. I'm at a loss and I'm just constantly terrified, and I don't know what to do. Sorry.

[windfaemaiden]

Late night stream but lets play some Furi and some Super Mario 64 <3

[windfaemaiden]

Okay daily dose of spreading girls on my timeline or whatever its called. Gonna stream some Against The Storm! And something else afterwards, not sure what.

[windfaemaiden]

Xcom 2 and probably Mario 64 tonight, come hang out <3

[windfaemaiden]

Okay just some Xcom 2 while I figure out what I wanna do. Come hang out and maybe throw game suggestions at me or I might Glover or Mario 64 or something.