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I am finally brave to say, what a fucking toxic server with toxic people I joined long ago what a cruel bully that artist was what an unable abusive jerk that woman was

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If you are a part of causing suffering and invite someone to it and did nothing to help, excuses like "not my server" don't work, fucking apologize for real.

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so much trash to clean blocking people from past and connected and won't even use this anymore

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and suffer when people pretend interest

Being obsessed with your own ocs is so so good for you i seriously can't recommend it enough

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FF14 is now traumatic for me, thanks everyone who made this happen, the others still see all of you as popular friendly charismatic real fandom members. I have quit. There is evil masked here.

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you can pet the dog

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Bitches be simping over a game character which they've never played their game. It's me. I'm bitches.

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Wyrmblood

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bird

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I want to do the events but so scared to login. Bad memories mixed with my favorite things sucks.

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I’m still grieving so much for losing someone who I had so much hope and respect and wished we were friends.

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Wonder if I am brave enough to return here.

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I’m afraid to reply to old dms, or any messages.

One of the reasons I don’t have the courage to reply to old dms. I never get past 6 dms, that person was the only one.

Do those people even remember me? Will they even care?

If by miracle they do it’s always the same thing, I go with hope for a conversation to reply, three dms later they get bored or something and say something like talk to you later and never again. If they replied to posts or liked not even that anymore when I was active.

Maybe keep the illusion.

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Lost the only person who I was not invisible too, they replied to me, who didn’t dismissed me after a few dms, who showed they liked my stuff, who truly talked to me.

I won’t get that back.

That was all I wanted.

I will have to leave that part of the fandom too, not that anyone cares, everyone ignored me.

I wonder if I had any reason to come back but no.

I wonder if I have any hope with people but no.

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reminder: you can love your memories with them and still move on

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Adrift

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— Audrey Niffenegger, from ‘The Time Traveller's Wife’ (via lunamonchtuna)