wine-less-blog

[wine-less-blog]

6:32 am

"stop bottle up your feelings" here, I guess people talk about this alot, stop keeping everything to yourself. We all have sides we wanted to keep, something not for the outside world touch, the deepest than deepest part of us that take times, up to 40 years maybe before we can opened up to that someone we can true than truer trust. "are you okay?" If I answer "im okay" then people will stop asking. Because that's the answer they wanted to hear. People felt triumph if they thought they're the person that makes you feel finally "okay" at the end of the day, even the truth is that didn't. It happenes to everyone, sadness, depression, anxiety, madenss, each with different definition where stereotypes views as the same thing. I can't fix it in one day. Stop aksing me to "get over it", yes im happy but im not sure of that myself. Im not okay, but I feel okay. That's the most maximum of feelings I think I can feel the most. "Okay" is understament of "I am not feeling very sad or very happy", know that. "Okay" is when "I am not going to feel what "im actually don't want to feel, but I guess im alright". "Okay" is when "I'm okay". I'm not afraid of sharing what I feel. And im training myself to feel more of my words. I don't care about you, I care about me the most. I know my priority. I know what I want to achieve. Perpetual block is something I need to overcome, everyone feeds me lie and thanks, for opening my eyes till this far. I still got alot to learn.