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//Well, it's been some time.

Here's where I am

Still sick, still don't know what's wrong. It wasn't my gallbladder, since I've gotten it removed and I'm still in pain. And I have another surgery scheduled... in December.

Appendectomy, a scope while they're in there, and a possible hysterectomy... all because none of the doctors know what's happening.

Oh, and my appointment for a second opinion with another hospital isn't until MARCH.

I'm... I'm really tired... and I'm sorry I've been gone, but I can't do much anymore.

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//-Brandon Ferris voice-

The gallbladder go ow

The bitch got yeeted out of my body and now I understand true pain(insert Naruto gif here). Hydrocodone don't do shit, but I'm too shy/fed up to ask for something better, so we're raw-dogging it with Tylenol to mix.

Hopefully this was what actually caused the pain and I'm on the road to recovery. I've been so emotionally stressed and spent... and I'm pretty sure this entire ordeal proved I have undiagnosed bi-polar tendencies... yay shitty genetics.

Sorry for such an informal update, but ya goth girl is spent. I hope all of you are doing well and you never have to go through this shit. 💜🖤

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So...

I've been gone for two months.

Tomorrow I get either results or shipped off to another hospital. I've been doing marginally better, but I've been in pain since May 29th.

Hopefully tomorrow starts me on the road to recovery. I appreciate everyone that's been hanging in there with me.

Maybe this means I get back to rp, but only time will tell.

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//I've given up on feeling better at this point and I'm going to be putting this blog and the rest on Hiatus until further notice.

Thank you all for being patient with me, but I have no desire or drive to do anything anymore. If you wish to keep in touch, I can give you my personal discord, but...

Thank you for 10 years on this platform if I don't return.

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//Day 31 of me feeling like shit.

Please bear with me. I'm doing the best I can, and I'm so sorry for being a ghost on here.

Under the cut is a rant, don't feel obligated to read it, just know I'm doing everything I can to try and feel better.

The hospital I go to is a fuckin joke. I find out things through a fuckin app faster than they tell me and they failed to tell me about shit that showed up on a CT scan. I've been there 7 times within 4 weeks and have lost 21lbs. In 4 fuckin weeks. I'm in constant pain and they refuse to give me anything for it when I've told them extra strength Tylenol and Midol don't work and I just lost my job because of the pain and the inability to get things done.

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"Will you stay with me?"

'I'm Okay' Memes

With emotions all over the place, the hybrid wasn't sure if she heard the other clearly. They had just narrowly escaped death, and were slowly coming to terms with what happened at a tavern when Eskel spoke up.

Covered in blood and gods know what else, Rayne was deep into her drink and trying to process the past events. Fluttering, her eyes then focus on him, wide as her mind still spun. "You... want me to... stay? With you?" She asked slowly, making sure to give him an out if he misspoke.

@eskelwolf

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"Oh, that's perfect then."

Even as they moved away from the bar, though the feeling of danger faded, it wouldn’t shake completely, nearly causing a frown to paint across her lips, though she refused to let her face give away that something was wrong. Her smile only softened as they walked, and she kept her guard up... if only for a while longer.

“Well, It’s very nice to meet you too... where did you learn to play, if I may ask?”

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Her cheeks darkened some then as he offered, though she only nodded. “I’m pretty far out, but if you want, yeah. I’m this way.” She nodded off in a direction, her hands going into pockets in her jacket.

Normally, she would decline offers like this, but there were enough people around someone would remember them talking, and that many people only made her want to leave even more so. Someone in the crowd was giving off danger vibes… but she couldn’t pinpoint who…

After taking a few steps away from the bar, she looks back to him, “Oh, I’m Rayne by the way.”

Rook shrugged. “I’m headed that way too, so it’s no trouble.” He said, adjusting his guitar on his back. He nodded and smiled. “Nice to meet you. I’m Rook.” He said. He started walking in the direction she had motioned. It was lucky that his apartment was in that direction too. It wasn’t often that he spent any time talking to patrons, but something was definitely different about her and he wasn’t sure what or why. He was still pretty lost in how to live the way he was now. He was making due, but it wasn’t exactly a life of luxury or comfort. 

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Talk shit about someone my Muse knows.

Could be a friend, a loved one, maybe even an enemy! Try to provoke some sort of action out of them! Can be done on or off anon.

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//Still feel like shit, but at least I made a new meme tag.

HiddenMemeing

Ooooo you clicked on it, now you have to send one!!!

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GRUMPY AFFECTIONATE STARTERS.

1. “Yeah, yeah. You’re cute. Just stop smiling at me like that.” 

2. “I love you, but please stop whatever it is that you’re doing.” 

3. “You’re so annoying. Oh my God– I love you so much.” 

4. “STOP BEING SO CUTE, IT’S NOT FAIR!”

5. “Listen, I enjoy this hug and all, but can you stop?”

6. “Give me a minute, I’m going to tickle the shit out of you.” 

7. “Hey, stop looking at me like that– I don’t like how cute you look.” 

8. “Please, stop smiling at me like that. I’m not sure what will happen if you keep doing that.” 

9. “I don’t like people, but you’re an exception.” 

10. “You’re the only one who gets to call me that, you know.” 

11. “I crave your affection, but I crave your silence even more– shut up.” 

12. “Is this your way of subtly hinting that you want to hold my hand because it’s quite cute, but I’m not in the mood to hold your hand.” 

13. “You’re talking too much, just shut up and hold me.” 

14. “Ew. Get away from me. No– not you. You stay.” 

15. “Hi, I’ve been subtle at hinting that I want your attention all day and you haven’t noticed once and now I’m pissed.”

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//So I've been feeling like shit since my birthday, and I've just not been feeling writing for longer.

I apologize to anyone waiting for a response from me, and ask for a little patience.

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AMC'S INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE SENTENCE STARTERS . a selection of quotes from the amc's adaptation of interview with the vampire. change pronouns/names accordingly as you see fit.

Do you know the secret to immortality?

I have loved you with all myself.

You irritate me. Your very presence irritates me.

A last dance before the feast.

(name), I would like you to meet the vampire Armand, the love of my life.

The vampire bond. There is no human equivalent. It's a bond that can never fully be severed.

Lover. Murderer. Maker. You took him back.

You took (name) back.

I was someone I don't want to be anymore. I've changed.

She's grown very protective of me. That's what this is. It's why it's hard.

She came back altered when she left us. There's a darkness in her that wasn't there before.

Write me a song, put your lover's voice on it. What the fuck is wrong with your head?

You don't need me. You think you do. But you don't. You're smarter now. You see trouble coming a mile away.

You're ugly when you act like that.

Better ugly than blind.

Once you put it out there, they decide what it is. It can get away from you.

You're not my (name). You can't be.

You kill like a, like a killer.

All vampires are born out of drama. We made her out of remorse. Out of selfishness.

Poor, dear. She wasn't held enough in between ritualistic murders.

Who am I supposed to love? You two have each other.

You are chronicling a suicide. Do not look down on Claudia. Look in the mirror.

He don't give good answers to questions. And he sits on the truth like it's his chair or something. I thought we weren't supposed to keep secrets.

Young, strong, and likely to fight back. You must be most ferocious.

Remember this. His face as it melts. This is why we never get close to mortals because sooner or later, they end up dead.

Do you ever think that we, that's to say, our kind, were put on Earth for a larger purpose?

I'm a vampire.

 I heard your hearts dancing!

From time to time, I like a little variety. There, I said it.

A fish that doesn't swim. A bird refusing flight. You're going to struggle. I have faith in the feline population of New Orleans.

Hunting is an art. You have the power to subdue anyone you want, but sometimes restraint is your most powerful weapon.

There is one thing about being a vampire that I must fear above all else, and that is loneliness.

You can't imagine the emptiness. The void. Stretching out for decades at a time. You take this feeling away from me, (name). We must stay together.

Don't expect every reader to swallow that one.

 I'm assuming you only met at night.

It's New Orleans. Days are for sleeping off the previous evening's damage.

 I've seen death over and over and over and over again. It's boring.

That'll make a great blurb.

Don't do that shit here! Not with my family.

I was being hunted. And I was completely unaware it was happening.

Yeah, well, mortality beats a heavy drum.

So, (name), how long have you been dead?

The rage you must feel as you choke on your sorrow.

Fifty years later, you talk like he was your soul mate, like you were locked in some fucked up gothic romance.

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♡♡ Lulu's Sunday Positivity! ♡♡ I know it has been a hot minute since I last did this, I was taking my own advice and indulging in some self care! It is so important to take a step back every now and then to relax and recharge, especially when this time of year can be so stressful for a lot of people. Whether you're finishing up with school or simply preparing for the summer months, remember that your well being is super important! Go out for walks, arrange lunch dates with friends, or simply curl up on the couch to watch your favourite show/movie! Just take care of yourself, and never forget that I am always cheering you on from the side-lines!! You got this, you precious jelly bean!

// Q~Q you're such a sweetheart. I really needed this today, thank you love.

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//Age aside, I have 1 and ½ starters ready to go for anyone that wants them.

1 involves human!Rayne, princess of a conquered kingdom that's being given away to repay a debt.

½ is someone finding her at the top of a very high tower/place just... thinking.

Like this for a different starter or comment to claim one.

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//Age aside, I have 1 and ½ starters ready to go for anyone that wants them.

1 involves human!Rayne, princess of a conquered kingdom that's being given away to repay a debt.

½ is someone finding her at the top of a very high tower/place just... thinking.

Like this for a different starter or comment to claim one.

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//I don't want to be 28... I barely wanted to be any older than 25 when it happened three years ago. WHY AM GETTING OLD.

Monday... stay away.

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"That's actually a really good idea... that way we won't spend a lot on something we'll only wear once or twice... depending on how many parties we go to." Truth be told, she wasn't planning on more than maybe two, but who knew... maybe they'd run into people while they were out. "Thrift stores are amazing... most of my wardrobe is thrifted..." she admitted with a small blush before nodding, "no horror costumes is fine with me, yeah..." Her own life was enough of one as well, though it was all past. "That's perfect for me. Let's go!" Her hands excitedly reached out for his as she practically bounced her weight back and forth on her feet.

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Seeing how happy this made him made her own smile grow. “Then I suppose we’ll just… ‘wing it’, as they say.” Her eyes sparkled before her head tilt, trying to figure out a game plan for them. “Which store would you want to go to first then?”

He chuckles, “We can try one of those big chain stores to get ideas first. Then maybe we can try some thrift stores? I love thrift stores.” Kharon nods, thinking on it a little before adding in; “Maybe something a little lighthearted? I do love the horror of the holiday but, I get the horror all year and if we do something together I want it to be fun. If that’s okay with you?” @wingsandcoffins