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I miss Dean Winchester and his gay little angel Castiel. I miss their eye fucking. I miss the way they stood while eye fucking. I miss their son Jack who is also kinda God. I miss all the ways they said 'I love you.' I miss the spanish dub. I miss the awkwardness between them. I miss them. I miss destiel.

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cas getting very injuried on a hunt, struggling to heal himself properly, but ontop of that he gets such an intense, desperate prayer that reverberates in his vessel that it sends him keeling-over. it’s deans desperate pleads of ‘cas, cas, cas’ getting exceptionally louder that it actually pains cas to hear it and causes such a staggering headache for him that he has to hold his head.

the only way it quiets down is when cas finally conjures enough strength to heal himself and the prayer falls down to a dull thudding mantra that, before, cas never even noticed but now realizes was always constantly there. on the outside, dean tries to act as nonchalant as he can with a mumbled but still mildly panicked “cas, you okay??” but inside he’s frantic, desperately pleading to him to be okay.

and prayers can only be that loud—that powerful—if the sender was desperate enough to plead with their entire being.

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honestly what summarizes the supernatural experience better than the fact that there is an episode of this show that is so rich and compelling and tragic and full of potential that fans still obsess over it a decade later and it inspired a 4-book, million-word-and-counting fanfiction series that is itself so beloved and detailed that people write fanfiction about that fanfiction. and then in the next episode sam and dean get beaten up by paris hilton. when we say unparalleled media experience—

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the thing is. THE THING IS!!! for all his suicidal antics, there really is no one on the show who clings to life the way dean does. he's really nursing this endless well of hope. he makes these plans for the future that are pipedreams for anyone in his position but he clings to those dreams anyway!! when this is over, we'll go to disneyland. when this is over, we'll go to the beach. you me & cas, toes in the sand. when this is over, we can go home! he IS prepared to die when he's on the job but it's more a soldier who knows what he signed up for thing than a this dude who wants to kill himself walked into traffic thing. like. come on. as early as s3, he's sacrificing himself for his brother and acting the brave, nonchalant hero about it but when it comes down to the wire, he wants to live!!!!! he doesn't want to go to hell!! he doesn't want to leave!!! also in regarding dean. he's....god, i don't have another word but heartbroken, when he realises that he might just kick it bc of the spell. the only time that I can think of where he actively fully kills himself/is ready to die fully is when cas dies. which is. JUST. JESUS CHRIST.

anyway. i don't know the point of this post actually. i think it's just that. it's just that much worse that they killed him. he never wanted to die. he's the craziest bastard on the planet. he keeps all that hope locked up in his heart and they killed him anywayyy andrew dabb you sleep with one eye open!!!!! you watch out!!!!!

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the hum of our contact

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we need a supernatural revival. dean has more pop culture to reference.

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I’m the one who will have to watch you murder the world, so if there’s even a small chance that we can save you, I won’t let you walk out of this room.

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“Will you, b o y ?“

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But it's like. Cas saved Dean from Hell. he literally remade Dean's body. he cradled his soul. he had to remake the exact shade of green of Dean's eyes. his pretty lips and freckles. pour all the love back into his heart. how was he not supposed to fall in love after that??

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dean canonically being against the death sentence is so funny. local man whose job is literally killing living beings that are capable of complex thought and morality when they step out of line or even for merely existing is against the death penalty.

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dean drunk carving castiel's full fucking name into his table he's batshit insane

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beatiful

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I found it really funny how not only is jimmy a completely different vibe from cas but the chemistry with dean also just suddenly went away

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Jensen Ackles as Dean Winchester SUPERNATURAL (2005)

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big fan of non-verbal i love you's between dean and cas everyone give it up for non-verbal i love you's between dean and cas!

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I need everyone to enter the era of understanding that Cas has zero taste or class. He is a blue collar angel and that is literally the whole point. His fuckass pretentious brethren are the ones who like luxury and think they're too good for lowbrow human experiences. The whole POINT is that Cas is different.

Cas likes beer and grape jelly and reality t.v. He is not watching nature documentaries; he's watching 90 Day Fiancé. He does not have a garden; he has 3 potted succulents at BEST and only because Dean takes care of them. He watches porn for the plot. He likes emojis. He's a jock. His most frequently-worn item during his graceless arc was a hoodie. He's kind of a fuckboi.

I genuinely believe seeing a ham and cheese pinwheel at a party would have caused him to wax poetic about human ingenuity.

Recognition for my working class angel who acquired his taste in music third-hand from a mechanic via the mechanic's construction worker son. He doesn't even like to read. 🙏🥰🙏

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