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5.7.19

it's a friday night, we went to station51 @ clarke quay to celebrate yy's birthday-

i asked for your opinions on what to wear and sent you a photo of what i was gna wear and you said i could wear anything and so i did. we met under your block and i saw you while i was walking towards you. you looked so good even from afar.

we waited for xav and we took the bus to the mrt to go to dhoby ghaut to meet wx. we ate dinner before going to the bar. you made me sit beside you and away from the rest of the dudes. you made me laugh, a lot.

when we reached the bar, you sat with me and anytime when someone pours me a drink, you'd taste it first just to make sure it's not too strong for me. you'd always check on me to ensure that i'm ok and i'm not drunk. you made me feel safe.

before we left, this other girl was clinging on you so bad and when i saw you, i was pretending that i wasnt looking but even tho i was quite pissy, i still decided to trust that you were just being nice since she was tipsy. i saw the way you looked at me and how your hands were away from her, deep down inside, i was glad.

when we were walking to the pick up point, you held my hand and made sure i was walking okay. the other girl was tryna get your attention and was throwing herself onto you but you still came back for me and held me back. we board the cab and i was lying on your thigh. i felt safe and i knew i was safe. the way you caressed my face and pat my head to soothe me, i could never forget. when you texted my mom to reassure her that im otw home, i saw a different side of you. every time the cab jerks, you'd always catch me so i dont slip away.

when we reached my block, you sent me to my doorstep and even made sure i was gna be okay. the lift stopped at level 4 instead of 7, i stumbled, you grabbed me by my waist and got me balanced again. we took the lift to level 7 and you held my hand to the doorstep, unlocked the door and brought me into my house, greeted my mom and once again, assured her that im in good hands.

you made sure i was ok and you made sure to bring me home safe. thank you, bhyl :'-)

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just to clarify but i didnt make a new tumblr acc just to talk about hyl, its just the timing rn and the person im having hearteyes for is him

i just really needed a platform where i could pour everything out and no one irrelevant could find out and for myself to look back at these someday

i am so so happy to be where i am rn today but at the same time, i feel so much confusion in me every single day and as bad as it sounds, i really just want a time out. from the day i met you i knew this wasnt gna end well and furthermore i didnt expect us to be this close :') im just letting myself make bad decisions over and over again and continuously making up excuses to cover over the fact that i just wanted to see you in a better light

im always anticipating to see you around, spend time with you and just go home with you. i wna be the person you go to for any reasons and i wna be the reason you smile. it's not easy and i know this isnt gna end any time soon which means it's gna get really bad for me but im just glad im around you