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for the anon who wanted pics of when i started losing weight and what i look like now

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im so frustrated. last time i was on my bullshit i was still losing so fast. now ive been eating 300-500 cals a day for about a week and have not lost anything. utter bullshit

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When I say “I hate my body” I don’t mean “oh I’m a little insecure about my belly” or “I could lose a few pounds” I mean I have physically repulsed by it. It’s horrifying and upsetting to see. I wanna crawl out of my skin.

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ive been so good the last few days that im struggling to get through my tiny dinner of 2.5tbsps of mashed potatoes, 10 spears of asparagus and 4 almonds. this is a very good sign. hope i can keep this up at least until this weekend because its my birthday and i know im going to be eating alot 😩

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I’m always scared to eat cause I’m worried once I start I won’t stop.

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reblog if:

- you have an eating disorder but youre not professionally diagnosed

- your starting bmi is considered overweight

- you’re afraid of food

- you’re looking for friends to support you

- you’re really fuckin hungry

i’ll follow back everyone that reblogs and hopefully we can become friends.

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…I almost killed myself

I put on my sunglasses, to hide my swollen eyes, over my tears. I cried all my makeup off. Went inside to have a milkshake. I don’t know why. I wanted something to drink as I figured out what I would do. I got a soda and a milkshake. Medium. The cashier looked at me and with a line around the corner of the counter he rushed away from the counter “Hold on “ he yelled to a coworker.

I filled my soda and went back and saw him looking all over. I go up and he gets close and says “I made it a large”.

That was seriously enough for me not to do it. His kindness. Someone went out of their way and as I went back in my car to cry I realized I could muster through a few other days. A few more weeks. Then I came down from that panicky high of anxiety, depression, and pain. I finished my shake. And it was enough time to let me feel better. I… I’m alive. I’ll make it through.

Try and be nice today. Tomorrow. Something as much as a smile. It helped so much.

Thank you man at McDonalds.

The milkshake saved my life

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✧2021 weight loss spell✧

2021 is our year 

we´ll get skinny 

we got this

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My Personal Reasons For Wanting to Get Skinny

Little things to remind myself of why I’m doing this in the first place 💕

• To be able to walk into a clothing store and try on anything I want, knowing it will fit + look good on me.

• To be able to be lifted into my lovers arms, effortlessly. To fall asleep on their chest like a lil angel on a cloud. To sit on their lap and snuggle and cuddle and kiss them without a fear in the world.

• To be the small one in the group. The thin one. The pretty one.

• To be able to wear dresses without feeling the need to tug at them so it doesn’t stick to my stomach, showing off my tummy.

• Having a thigh gap between legs so far apart you’d think they were enemies. To have slender lil arms and a tiny waist that looks absolutely precious, and oh so fragile.

• To be desired. To be confident. To walk down the street and know that I’m catching everyone’s attention, turning heads, and loving every second of it.

• To be healthy. Or at least, to appear that way.

• To be able to run and walk and dance without fat jiggling. I want to be a fairy, a beautiful fairy that appears lighter than air.

• For the aesthetic tbh.

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for someone who really want to be skinny, i am shit at not eating

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Reblog if your pro recovery. Whether you’re in it or not

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reblog if you want to lose at least 20 lbs

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My siblings: *complaining about how there’s no food in the house*

Me: praisejesusamenhallelujah-

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person: hey you ok?

me, dissociating: 

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oh hey sorry I’ve been distant lately…. I’ve been really busy having a brain that is bad

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