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Dec 18 2018

So theres this guy, who am I going out with for almost 2 months. Yes, never ako natuto. I've always been into this situation. again and again. And I never learn. I dont know why, but I am repeating the same mistake again.

Out of all the guys that I have met, he's different. I guess everyone's differnt. But theres something in him that I did not see with those previous guys. I got attracted on his personality. It amaze me on how he handle life and how strong his courage are. Sobrang ganda ng personality. I mean, we've not been together for a long time and di ko pa siya ganon kakilala, pero theres in me and naniwala ako agad na he's a good man.

Sobrang family oriented niya, masipag. and may goal sa buhaym He is so matured. He's so nice. at first I got awkward. well actually until now, I still do. but as the time goes by, I started opening up with him and I got little comfortable to be with him.

Imm doing my best para tapatan yung oras niya. Coz I know how precious his time are. Like naiintindihan ko yung pagod niya and kung gaano kahirap maging working student. SUMUKO nga ako. sobrang hanga ako sknya coz sobrang strong niya to the point na, parang ayaw niya ilet yung ibang tao na mag care sknya. He handle everythinf by himself.

Then thats the time I told myself, Lord, I want him. I like him. I want to love him and to take care of him. Like gustong gusto ko. Nafeel ko naman na willing siya na gusto niya din. But idk kung anong pumupigil.

sobrang gusto ko siya. He's so nice. I hope, and I wish. Na sana. Ganon din siya sakin. Coz nafeel ko naman yung care noya for me. Kahit sobrang cold niya minsan.😭

Im so thankful kasi imbis magpapahinga na lang siya sa mga free time niya, nagkkta pa kami. And nawitness ko kung gaano siya kapagod but still chose na samahan ako. Di ko sinabi pero gusto ko nalang siya uwi. huhu. I want to take care of him. I wish and I hope that someday, he let me to. 😔

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December 1, 2018

Patapos nanaman araw ko. Patapos na rin yung taon. wala pa din ako kwenta. ANDAMING TAONG DUMATING. AYON LAHAT SILA UMALIS DIN. WTF JUST HAPPENED WITH MY 2018. But this time, i'll deal with it.

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Please bear with all my rants. I hope I can read them again when I can finally say that I am Okay and I am happy. But for now, ill leave it here.

[wndyvnnncl]

Please bear with all my rants. I hope I can read them again when I can finally say that I am Okay and I am happy. But for now, ill leave it here.

[wndyvnnncl]

How am i suppose to end my day. well. again. lying in my bed. spacing out. its another day. And I guess I survive. Im so tired. Im so exhausted. But atleast I got busy at work and forgot everything for a while. but in the end. bumabalik sila. How am I suppose to live my life. Like gusto ko ng totoong happiness. yung genuine na happiness. Happiness is a choice pero di ko alam paano at kung ako magsisimula. im too dramatic. but what can I do im lost. 😭

[wndyvnnncl]

So its another day. 5:36AM, Sunday, November 25, 2018. I am fine for the past few days. Im doing great. Im laughing and having a good day at work. Im going back in track. Like, I cleaned the house, cleaned my room, cooked somthing, put xmas decor, danced all the way in front of the mirror and watched movies. I even went to church yesterday. Im trying to be postive, and be happy wth everything around me. Im trying to go back on what I used to be. But idk whats happening again.

i started thinking blankly and spacing out. I really wanted to cry out loud but no tears are coming of. I wanted to shout and scream but the voice inside my head are louder. I can't hear it but there's so much into it. Idk whats in it. Idk whats happening again. Im drowning again.

[wndyvnnncl]

stop.

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nakakapagod

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im so fucking tired of everything 😓

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Nahihirapan nako.

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Baked mac with love HAHAHA. Happy me 😊😊😊

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😶😶😶

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G 👌🏻

[wndyvnnncl]

Come sit here I will make you fall in love with me.

rezarusandi (via wnq-writers)

If i could do this and it will work, i will do it every single day.

[wndyvnnncl]

And when you make it to your bedroom, Do you collapse on your bed right away? Or do you lay and think about how fucking lonely you’ve become?

(via kissedby-suicide)

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Bakit ba ngayon ko lang natutuhan kung pano gamitin tong tumblr. WTF. minamahal ko na siya. 😍😍😍