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248 days since

248 days since the day you proposed to me.

Honestly, we never did really communicate. Our only medium of chats were through instagram. I’ve always claimed that he owed me a birthday treat and so was he. And that was just it. Nothing else. Just conversation on when he or me should treat me nice meals. Though i actually noticed he always the frequest replier to my stories, but of course the innocent me won’t get any clues to such thoughts.

2 weeks of remaining for the year 2018, sometimes in December, we agreed on having dinner after work at KLCC - after having knew that you were in KL for training. The initial intention of the meeting was just some chats over dinner with a friend.

We had dinner at Sushi King. We talked over some stuff, from work stuff to criticising the sushi tastes, to movies stuff, and then to him suddenly asking me out the next day for to watch movie. I was a bit hesitant, but casually said ‘yeah ok why not’. We then finished dinner and walked down to me suddenly noticed that there was a big Christmas tree at the KLCC park and i’ve been wanting to see it so badly so I requested to go out for a while and he ushered me out. He stood next so close to me attempting to take a good angle for a picture of the Christmas tree. And ok let me tell this honestly, my heart did skipped a bit. After that, he walked me to the LRT station, and we said each other goodbye. After boarding the LRT, my face turned red, i smiled, confused at the same time. His attitude towards me was different this time. But then i quickly reminded myself again, and whatever thoughts and feelings that were about to cloud my working brain, I brushed them off.

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July 7th ♥️

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Not a day goes by that i regret my decision by saying yes the night you proposed to me. Not a day goes by that I don’t fall deeper for you than yesterday. Not a day goes by that i dont feel grateful that you came knocking on my door and I voluntarily opened it. You’re the most wise, the most composed, the most generous, the kindest, the most intelligent, and ultimately you know how to handle me so well. No one, ever in my entire life have ever made me love as deep as the way you made me feel and for that I love you at the sincerest of my heart, wholeheartedly ❤️

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Everytime i think about “How did all these happened so suddenly?”, i giggled. Really. I have no idea how. Never in million years that I thought the one that i’m going to marry is the person who’s always, always just right in front of me. He’s always been there, unnoticed, for years. But fate brought me to bump into the wrong boys first (which is why I didn’t notice him). Heartbroken over the same silly guy, without knowingly the one who’s going to pick up all the shattered pieces is the man who sits just right next to him. Sometimes, fate is just so amazingly, strangely beautiful aren’t they?

Astonished by how surprise and twist my story of with whom i ended up with, my close friends are even more surprise when they knew. I can’t help but smile and giggle. One thing for sure, i’m being reminded so many times by my close Sheffield friends (who has seen me at worst), that “You really deserve a man like him” and honestly, truthfully I couldn’t be any happier. I’m indeed a lot happier ❤️

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I once thought it’s impossible to love someone this too much. He broke down the walls i’ve been building myself since years long, he is the only one who successfully managed to get through it.

I remembered clearly the day when you proposed to me on new year’s eve. I remembered clearly every moment every second of it the day when your grandmother put the ring on me, witnessed by both of the families, i couldn’t help but feel so overwhelmed tears came down instantly. And so were you.

Counting moments to the day i can officially call you my husband ❤️

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January 1, 2019.

The day when He answered all of my prayers at the perfect timing at the most amazing place.

This moment, i will keep them right close to my heart ❤️

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I was supposed to be studying. But my mind won’t allow me to. 

So here I am, writing. Again. 

2018 has been.... well, no words can really describe how confusing a year it has been to me. Yet at the same time I unbelievably achieved so much. 

Hence, just to recall.

1. I discovered my career passions within 3 months. 

2. I surpassed my KPI performance expectations, twice. 

3. I drive my first car, ever. 

4. Featured in as the headline news for AmEquities launch project 

5. I passed all the 5 crucial stages, the selected 50 nationwide and secured a scholarship from Ministry of Economics Affairs’ Yayasan Peneraju to pursue Chartered Financial Analyst (CFA).

6. My company report got published in Star and NST news. 

7. Selected in Talent Connect 2018 programme. And actually survived it. 

Also at the same time, 

8. I gave a n-th chance to that same guy from the US when he asked me to. I still can’t. 

9. I am now best friend with the same Sheffield guy who boldly confessed to me 2 years ago. 

10. I lost my best friend, my very close Sheffield guy friend. Completely. And I’m actually dont have any care in the world to rekindle. 

11. I slowly and indirectly distancing myself away from the Manchester guy just because i had a bad past experience with guys within the same circle of friends. And yes, i do feel bad. 

12. And this latest one, comes unexpectedly. Never in hundred years that I thought would be him. All I know is, I can’t read him. 

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The two generations of SMSA family #batch14/15 & #batch15/16 ❤️

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I have been crying since you left me, and I am afraid… I do not know how to stop.

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via weheartit

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The best things in life are free | anastasiyabelik

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“Stop searching for the person who purposefully left you behind,”

16:45 - You won’t find them, because they wanted to lose you, and you’re so much better than that