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My goodness!!!

How many times I have to tell you that my concentration is only our family. If they are good to you, I will talk with them. Otherwise, I will see them like strangers

My brother said I have so many illustrations and these relatives help our family. So ****.

Dear mom

You said if i do not talk with your sister, you will loose your face. Her daughter has helped you alot so i have to be polite to her even though I were awkward with her words that I should go back to our country if I cannot support my parents

I am polite with them because they are your brothers and sisters but If your life become pathetic because of them. NOT ANYMORE

I am sorry for not being generous. If you raise me, I hope you understand your daughter. My priorities are our family and myself only. You said i should expand my connection and honestly, you never try to understand completely. You think everything is so simple.

I am really tired. I will not please anyone. You can tell your relatives that i do not want to talk with them. Leave me alone!!!

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Self-protection~ Selfish

My grandma used to say about my fate that my parents could not count on my brother or mine. I am unsure if she did remember but i were said for a while 

She did compare between my uncle life and my dad and said my uncle will grow old with better life with good supporting from his children

What a life!! For me, my parents are the most kindness over the world. I hate their relatives but i know they love them unconditionally even they keep hurting my dad and mom so many times. However, what do they receive for being a good person? ....

Gradually, i stay away things easily. You can say that i am stubborn and i will regret after that

Yes, i know i do but i choose to protect my insecure feeling first

If you said hurtful things to me, sorry i will choose to cut it off

I used to things everything is same but now i dont know

There are many factors and i think it changes 

Please go ahead and think what you want

Rather said bad with each other, i choose to protect myself

Once day, if i cannot stand everything at all, what i should do

You should know you are my everything, i spend my haft life with you and even closer with you than my mom

Everytime i talked with you and all my problems became smaller

I only need someone to show my feeling 

Now i dont know i should continue..............................................................

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Betrayal feeling

Sometimes, you have to accept things may not happen like what you want. There are so many people let you down and please do not disappoint about this. They will never realise that their actions and words hurt your feeling. You think she is your good friend but she regards you as a normal friend and at the end, please learn a lesson that do not depend to anyone. The loneliness or even sadness will overpass. If you think you deserve better, you do not need to define yourself or let anyone console your feeling. Different person has different perspective and I will admit that life is more crucial than I expect. When you were on your dating apps, man is also looking for high social and good looking lady. People are reality in a way that if you are honest but you have nothing, you will end up having nothing left. 

Dear all who have hurted my feeling today and even before

I COMPLETELY FORGIVE YOU ALL

You have your own thinking and I cannot change your mind

For me, i rather losing everything than giving anyone a chance to hurt my feeling again and again

At the end, your true feeling is most important than anything or anyone else

I do not want turn myself into someone else to fit your image or become a version that I also hate later on. Being true, honest and reliable person is what i want and no matter what. 

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Dear myself on an afternoon Sunday (Gửi tôi vào một trưa chủ nhật)

Clearly, you can buy the food you love, the drink you like and enjoy eagerly. Therefore, focus on present and try to work hard to save money. Do not bother boy things. Things will come unexpectedly. The right person will know your value. Do not let anyone interfere or make you doubt yourself.

Everybody has different path of their life. You do not know how they suffer. Do not compare and live your own life. I hope one day all the hard things in my life will make me shine and find my real passion

BE WHO YOU ARE AND LIVE SIMPLE

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Gradually, I realise that I will never feel disappointed if there is no high expectations.

The life between dream and reality is totally different. Sometimes, things never happen in the right direction….

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The stories of passerby

As working at the bakery, it gives me so many stories to tell. My colleague said you remembered customers so well and i replied that only with some friendly ones and they make my day. I mean it is not only nice customers but also the regular ones who bought the same items every single day. You might not like their attitude but they are actually loyalty with your bakery..

I have one customer who always ask to warm up her bread and put it in another paper bag that she said double bags. At first, i feel annoyed about this because she can eat straight after heating up and she was wasting an extra paper bag. However, you cannot deny that at least she is brave when she speak up for what she wants. Have you actually done it before?? Once time, when i went to Coles and bought mix seafood marinara which are the mixtures of basas , salmons, shrimps, squids and mussels but the staff gave me the weighted part which i did not really like and i was say nothing beforehand. Therefore, no one knows what you want until you say it to them. Don’t expect too much from the stranger.

There are 2 girls came to my shop and started browsing around while we were getting busy. After that they ordered 2 cheese and bacon rolls in 2 separated bags. They kept talking with each other and didn’t even care my question that if they would like to warm up their bread rolls. At the end, while i already took the money for both of bacon rolls from one of them, the other said she wanted to pay separately. I said you can pay back for your friend and sorry because i already take her money. They look at me in unpleasant way. However, i will react the same if it happens like that again. I know that you have to be nice with your customer but it doesn’t mean you take advantages and do not understand when someone is busy or behaves brutal because of having a bad day. You have to learn how to respect everyone before expecting everybody treats you decently.

One of my favorite customer, Kate came today and i showed her how excited I am for the Friday. After that, she asked if I remembered about the poet which she mentioned before. I said I couldn’t and asked her to repeat it for me. She said “pissed off Friday, tomorrow is Saturday”in a lower voice and we both laugh hardly. We greet each other for having a lovely weekend. Sometimes, the happiness comes from the simple thing.

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Dear love

I just want to say that the unfair happens sometimes and you are out of luck. I know you are crying inside but it is not your fault. You try the best. The good people have seen those. Sometimes, it leads you to another better choices so do not get hard to yourself. Don’t get stressed. You still find your way to survive. I don’t know if they will regret to loose a hard working like you or not but who cares. Keep moving forward and do not look back. You will find your way

Be kind and stay strong as you are always.

Yourself xoxo

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WHAT DOES LIFE MEAN TO YOU?

I asked: " Why does everything seem so hard? The chance was nearby but i failed it. I am so unlucky"

She said: " Because of your mom's family side. They did so many wrong things and now we have to pay these until debts are gone"

I wonder that " how many lives do you have to repay all these guilts? Everybody makes mistake but is it you only live once? Why do you have to endure someone's failure into your life. If you judge who is right or wrong, I can only say that I actually do not know which lessons do life want to teach me

I replied her that "Nana, I do not know but in my eyes, good people were unfortunate enough to loose everything and bad person still has money to buy new things. Therefore, when will these people repay all to get completed life. Do we have to be miserable like this forever??"

I wonder again that" Do i really want my life that is controlled by visible and unvisible things? It is not me. I rather believe that I am useless and not good enough to get what I want and keep moving forwards. I wont compare anyone life and live for myself. Sometimes, something will comes when it is right time, if it is not, it will be yours unfortunately..."

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Mommy. I know you will never see it but could you take care of yourself first please.

Sorry i feel really tired. I dont think i can say any. You never try to undestand our family members rather than your relative and your friends.

The more word i say the more things i will break your heart even though i care for you from the bottom of my heart. Now i just pray our family will stay healthy and i have my own life. We have different life’s path. I do not have right to judge your choice and I won’t do it any more. My word will keep in silence and i will try to make my own peace.

I hope we will understand each other one day but i dont know how long it will be

At least, you raise me to be a good person and i do until now. The life is so complicated and money makes people greedy. Therefore, if you let money control you, you loose yourself. Beliefs become joke when your family members betrayed you. Like a human, they care for themselves first and why don’t you are. I dont know should i call it kindness or stupidity......

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Me: “Wake up please. How many times do you ignore my feelings :(. Why don’t you live for yourself rather than these stupid people mom”

I scare to loose my dearest family members but i feel hurt when you don’t believe us. You turn me down so easily. Gradually, i choose to be silent and keep distance so that we don’t say hurtful things for each other.

I just want to say that i always love you mom and the reason i hate them because they hurt you so many times.

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Where should i go??- North Pole🤪 They said”Ring the bell” and I actually did it🙈🎄🎄🤶🤶 https://www.instagram.com/p/CJNjSqSDjutnjxulbx2ta-_eG5FFYLtGSnlP7Y0/?igshid=osb7uuleuvh0

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Mistletoe Lane 🤪 (at The Rocks) https://www.instagram.com/p/CIqKiB6jZqgXG5syTjObFHIg98VqJgizbcnWaI0/?igshid=1wyz1b85dzece

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Last year Christmas with my long hair. Now my face is so round 🤦‍♀️ Thanks @thao_thao208. You are the amazing photographer💕. Miss u so much also #lastchristmasedit #longhairmoodtoday https://www.instagram.com/p/CIqBVNFjYnJxFm9jZUqIVL4fknujONrMmPhheM0/?igshid=1pxei1xis7kdz

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I keep sleeping and pretend to be normal but it’s not. The reality keep breaking me into pieces. No one is truly interested in you. You loose your own friend. Everybody was going, they lied and i just hold it. Nothing is last forever and i become the symbol of unlucky things. Reminding to myself: you will never have happy ending, will be forever alone and gonna be sadness most of the time. The peaceful on my mind just fades away.....

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. . . . . . . #peacefulplace❤️ #sunset #simplelife❤️ #nofilterneeded #aplacetolive https://www.instagram.com/p/CHcy5MmDHmIXIbuRCSswHo4RooLTcxcU0kGLFo0/?igshid=1kntjqxr5jx85

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A day for myself

Dear Diary

I pray and hope everyday of my life will be fulfil with positive energy and happiness. Also, please focus on you rather than comparing somebody’s life. 

Today, a friend tried to upset me but I feel unemotional. It is not a real friendship so why dont i have to be angry this type of person who always lied like a habit. A best friend can understand you and you will accept their opinions that even make you uncomfortable or upset a bit. Baby, no one can understand you even yourself, so dont expect somebody too much. I am straight forward, honesty and ambitious and always hard-working. I wonder a million times that why dont i get this job, why everybody can except me, why dont i am confident, what my future is, etc. Like a leaf drops into the river when the season ends, I let my life flow without directions. I choose a quiet life that is not much friend and stay alone for myself rather than a lively life. I am like the person who is going straight forward without direction. Should it be okay???

I saw the story from my friend’s instagram that said the problem is you and they mentioned about the US’s election. I dont follow much about political things but like Jenny Hans, my favourite author said people have the right to choose what they think it is true and no matter who will be a president, I think no matter who (Trumps or Biden) the president always wants to try the best to help the country. Jenny chose Biden and she mentioned about how Trumps discriminates the diversity of Asian American and honestly, I stay in Australia and I dont know much about this think. However, it makes sense to me when she has lived in the country and has her own opinion about this thing. Therefore, my advice is that you shouldnt judge when you are not in the situation. Try to live your own life rather than caring unnecessary things and focus on yourself, not somebody else. 

Good night folks!!!

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BROKEN TRUST

From I were young, i were taught to be honesty and I have tried to do this until now. However, the adult’s life becomes complicated. Everybody lies like a habit (good or bad intentions) even me. Strangers, friends and families give excuses to their purpose. I wonder that will i trust anyone completely. I gave an excuse for myself and said it is a white lie for good purpose and to protect myself. However, is it true? why cant you be honest even with your own family. 

I have told myself for a million times, I said “ I will never have happy ending or never happily ever after, don’t be upset, my future is invisible, my own body keeps floating on the cold ocean like a zombie, hopeless and lonely” on my mind.” My life always bears with loneliness and I think i create this for myself