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I haven't posted anything here for almost a half year, i think? but I finished watching the series yesterday, and I really wanted to draw this

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Job interviewer: So tell me, where do you hope to see yourself in five years' time?

Me, looking up the company's CEO on my phone and mentally comparing her net worth to the salary estimate I was just given: You know that one painting of the nameless Bolshevik soldier standing in the throne room of the Winter Palace

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Ok, loves, so we've all got the message that joking about suicide is bad for your mental health. Now we need to get on "joking that the planet/all of humanity has no future is bad for societal health/encouraging resistance to bad shit."

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the thing is that childhood doesn't just end when you turn 18 or when you turn 21. it's going to end dozens of times over. your childhood pet will die. actors you loved in movies you watched as a kid will die. your grandparents will die, and then your parents will die. it's going to end dozens and dozens of times and all you can do is let it. all you can do is stand in the middle of the grocery store and stare at freezers full of microwave pizza because you've suddenly been seized by the memory of what it felt like to have a pizza party on the last day of school before summer break. which is another ending in and of itself

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call me a dirty communist radical but I think everyone should know if they live near toxic waste

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Balrog: Why do I hear boss music

Based on this post

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daily affirmations

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Welcome to the multiverse of stairwells in Carol's apartment complex! Well, not really, but one of our goals after I was promoted to art director was revisiting and polishing up some stuff from earlier episodes - especially episode 1, since it would be viewers' first impression of our world. One of these things was this stairwell Carol walks through to exit her apartment. The original background (not pictured) looked great and was completely serviceable, but we really wanted to push the world-building and disconnect between Carol and this communal space where people seemed to perpetually be partying. My job was to help figure out how we could SHOW that thorough colour - not just tell it, and as you can see, there was a LOT of discussion and potential solutions. Personally, I think part of an art director's job is being a liaison between their team of artists and everyone else: translating other stakeholders' words/abstract ideas into concrete, visual direction. Sometimes all this means is handing off a brief to an artist, but other times it requires more: actively listening to stakeholders, creating multiple (sometimes many!) solutions that meet their goals/vision, helping guide them to the solution they feel best meets that goal (not just telling them), and then whatever direction results from that dialogue can be handed off to the artist(s). Anyways, thanks for looking, and watch Carol and the End of the World on Netflix! Showrunner: Dan Guterman

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You can get used to drowning.

You can spend so long beneath the waves, you forget what it felt like to have anything other than water in your lungs. It's never pleasant but it's just normal; it's just the way things are.

There's no struggling, no thrashing. Just quietly, painfully waiting to succumb to the depths. Not actively sinking, but not trying to save yourself.

Then something pushes up on you from below and there's a lull in the waves and some driftwood flits under your hands and you're taking your first breath of air in a long time and it's sheer and utter agony. You don't know how people can possibly live like this, just breathing in air and staying afloat like it's nothing.

And you can't just sink back under. Now it feels like drowning again.

But driftwood will not save you. A friendly push from below will not save you. They can help, but at some point you have to try to save yourself.

The hardest part is wanting to.

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if you're on instagram get off that thing and go outside

if you're on tumblr hold fast and keep scrolling soldier

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when you grew up as a lonely uncool girl it will never stop haunting you by the way. you will meet a cool person at a bar or the train station or at a friend's party and you can wear your most stylish outfit and striking eye makeup and you will swear that they can see through all of the facade and see the lonely terribly insecure teenage girl you used to be who desperately wanted to connect and you will swear that they know that there is like an insurmountable gap between you. this will happen forever

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I asked my friend to post something for me on rednote (asking for light, healthy, non greasy recipes) and within 20 minutes there were over 50 comments!!! Shoutout to all the rednote users who were sweet enough to share detailed instructions/pictures of their meals/ingredient lists....i love you cultural exchange

Time to make steamed fish soup....

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bitch this is all you’re gonna get. this life, this face, this body. you better not ‘maybe in another universe’ your way out of everything. sit your ass down and face this. go make tea and have a picnic and read a goddamn book. kiss your loved ones, send that damn text, and hug your siblings. this is all you’re gonna get.

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realised that i have been wrongly treating myself as if i am a small little bonsai tree who exists to live beautifully and look beautiful and must be pruned and shaped with wire and kept in the right conditions. but that isn’t what i want to live like. i want to be a very sturdy decades old forest-dwelling tree that pays no attention to its own beauty and only exists to deepen its roots into the world and feel the sun on it and grow some more and more. do you understand what i mean…

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Foods I like as a Fallen Angelkin:

Sweet:

Chocolate Pixies (Cookies)

Lavender Honey Ice Cream (or Honey and Lavender ice creams)

Anything Butterfly Pea Flower (warning flashing lights!)

More Butterfly Pea Flower (safe link)

Maronchinos (also anything Rose Water!!)

Juniper Syrup (in milk steamers, great with nutmeg)

Mint Syrup (also for steamers)

Maple Candies

Dandelion Cookies

Tea Shortbread (I like them with Russian Caravan tea)

Savory: this was much harder!

Za’atar Challah

Purple Dead Nettle !!!!!

Chickweed Salad (also tasty with dandelions)

Watercress Pesto Pasta

This Matzo Ball Recipe (sorry it’s just an image)

Hanpen 

Tofu Hanpen Croquette (video)

Buyables:

Violet Mints

These two Teas

This Ramen 

Konpeito 

My Kitchen Pepper Blend:

Nutmeg, Juniper, Cubeb, White Pepper, Allspice, Galingale Sometimes Sumac or Paprika

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Angels and computers have compatible software btw. They're made of the same stuff. My halo is filled with circuitry, and your memory stores are made of light.