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Happy thought! We shall to-night play sane wits against mad ones. He escaped before without our help; to-night he shall escape with it. 

Mina while transcribing All That:

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Jeremy and Maddie right down to the last minutes of the season finale @ the writers: “Can we get a break? Can we please get one singular break??”

The Writers, dumping all those horrible implications on their heads for half an hour: “No :)”

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Now that @theholmwoodfoundation has posted the final episode, I thought now’s the time to share the memes I’ve been posting in the Discord! (Ooooooo you wanna listen so bad oooooooo)

FINALE SPOILERS IN THE FINAL VIDEO

General meme made funnier by the finale I think:

Episode 5:

Episode 6:

Episode 7 (finale spoilers):

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The crazy thing is that just a couple of days after Lucy started improving (because Dracula left Whitby on the 17th), Mina got the letter from Hungary and began packing. With the relief that Lucy is now getting healthier.

Mina and Lucy parted with the knowledge that they would see each other again very soon, for Lucy's autumn wedding.

Lucy: "Go, go! Write to me as soon as you arrive and... I will be seeing you again soon. As Mrs Harker." Mina: "And I will be giving you tips on being married! Well, for about a month at least. I love you." Lucy: "I love you."

The last time they saw each other they were happy. They saw the future they dreamed of unfolding. Loved and safe and joyous. Wedding kisses, romance abounding, see you at the chapel!

And then Dracula rips it all out to force in a future shaped only like him.

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Those cancelled NEH and NEA grants haven't got us down - Torrey House Press is launching an in-house kickstarter to raise funds for Beyond the Glittering World. 

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possession horror where the thing possessing the autistic character causes them to behave in a more neurotypical way. autistic possession horror where the thing inside you is easier to communicate with than you are, the thing inside you doesn’t have a flat affect, the thing inside you doesn’t let your body stim, the thing inside you is how you were told to behave and you can only do it when you are no longer you. autistic possession horror where you will never forget that everyone liked it better than you before they found out something was controlling you. autistic possession horror where they know what’s inside you isn’t you and debate whether it would be easier for everyone to leave you like this anyway. you agree. reblog.

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We need happy and wholesome nice queer representation to remind us that being queer doesn't doom you to a short life of loneliness and misery and we need fucked up and toxic queer representation to remind us that queer people are human beings who are messy and complicated and are not required to be beacons of moral goodness

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Tired of explaining to my college peers that yes, actually art history is essential knowledge for anyone who is ever in charge of designing concept art for pretty much anything.

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Wolfe On Wheels

Hi! For those of you who have been following me for a while, I'm sorry you've heard me talk about the past year one million times already. For those that are new, Hi I'm H.S. Wolfe, a queer horror author from the midwest.

In January, my long term, long distance partner who I met through the book community, helped me escape the United States. We live together now in Denmark, and I am a full time author, artist, and stay at home husband while he works on finishing his masters degree, and hopefully a PHD after that. (I am going to be married to Dr. Nakayama!!!!!) We spent the summer, and his time off school in Brazil so that I could meet his family. It's been a year since Jun has seen his parents, and we were VERY lucky with travel. We managed to get stand by tickets for flights, which are significantly cheaper (by more that 50%) with the downside that we are loaded onto the flight last, if any seats are available. If not, we get moved to the next flight.

While in Brazil I was able to access affordable, private healthcare that I've been denied my entire life. Anyone who is disabled knows what a hell scape it is to try to get a diagnosis, let alone help in the United States. I was born with Lupus, and went undiagnosed for the first two years of my life. At two they found rheumatoids and inflammation in my blood work. This was 30 years ago. Even now, we are still learning a lot about bodies, but I grew up with little knowledge of my illness and how it affects young bodies. I spent my entire childhood with a myriad of serious problems, including digestive and stomach issues that went ignored and often got brushed off. I was "trying to skip school" I was "seeking heavy medication" the usual. I won't get into my whole history though, so lets fast forward to this summer.

One of my biggest issues, aside from the chronic pain and joint deterioration is that Jun noticed through many video calls and phone calls, that my symptoms would often flare much worse after eating. In Brazil I saw a gastro doctor and discovered through blood work, ultrasounds, and an endoscopy, that I have an incredibly inflamed stomach, H.Pylori, a herniated esophagus, and stage 2 fatty liver disease. Though this does provide us with some direction, we still were unable to get to the root of the problem. Why is my stomach inflamed? What caused my hernia? And why do most foods make me feel exhausted, full of mucus, give me headaches, or make my endometriosis symptoms worse?

Right now we are on our way back to Aarhus, with several new medications for both of us (got my gabapentin dose upped which was much needed, several long term medications to help with my stomach inflammation, A huge and expensive box of antibiotics to treat the Pylori, an even longer list of what I can no longer eat, and MUCH NEEDED ritalin for the both us. I am also, thankfully, finally back on HRT after running out and not being able to see a doctor in Aarhus due to my residency taking 4+ months to process.) Now that I have my residency, we'll be continuing both of our care in Denmark, and trying to find more answers. I hope to finally get a referral for a full hysterectomy as my Endometriosis is one of my biggest issues (we think it's also a huge factor in my digestion issues--if you didn't know, endo can spread to all of your organs including brain and eyes.)

All this brings me to my actual point (sorry I'm a yapper). I need a wheel chair. I've been using a rollator on and off but sometimes it's difficult on the streets in aarhus, and puts unnecessary stress on my shoulders and elbows. I've noticed a problem since moving to Aarhus, that when Jun and I walk for more than a few minutes I start to feel ill. My throat feels like it has a huge lump in it, I start burping up acid and bile (which, because this has been a problem for a long time, has begun to ruin my molars) and I feel faint, and like I'm going to hurl. It's awful on top of the way even minimal exercise and movement will sometimes flare my endo, or my joint pain. Long story long, I am asking for help getting this wheel chair. (The chair in question)

I have nothing against gofundme's, or asking for donations, and I DO have a Ko-Fi with a goal set up on it, but I would LOVE to provide my community with services in exchange for money so I may be a Wolfe on wheels.

You can throw me a few bucks here, but you can also commission me.

https://ko-fi.com/werewolfpresident

I've added two new styles of commissions, a PAY WHAT YOU WANT option, and a CREATIVE LIBERTY OPTION, I'm trying out something new.

I've also made a shareable linktree with all the information and all the places you can find my stuff

https://linktr.ee/wolfeonwheels

Ways you can support me

Books

Several of my ePubs are on sale for 40% off Today is the last day to pre-order signed copies, sketched copies, and merch. I will close physical merch tomorrow, and order stock to ship out

I have several stories available for free, ranging from erotic, to romance, to just plain horror. Leaving a review, or making and sharing posts about my work helps immensely, especially now that I can no longer rely on sites like itch.io

My books are actually available wide so you can get them from B&N, smashwords, and I think maybe Kobo, but they are cheapest directly from me!

Art

I have commissions open right now, but PLEASE NOTE that I do tend to take on a lot at once, and have big backlogs to get through, which makes me a SLOW artist. Because of this I keep my prices very low, because I want them to be accessible, and my hands are one of the most severely affected joints. I plan on making art as long as I am able though, because I love to.

Commission Jun

Formatting - Jun offers epub and ebook formatting and if you've ever seen one of my books you know he's an artist with it.

Cover art - Jun is a master with turning classical paintings in scary lit fit covers that fuck, sometimes I even add some custom art to them.

Subscriptions

Patreon - Yune & myself have a monthly sticker club patreon. This month we're making ramen and rat stickers.

Wolfe's Den - I offer a subscription service with several tiers, the cheapest being a tip jar where you get access to me rambling about my life, and my work!

If you read though all of this, I appreciate you so much. Even if you are unable to help, spreading the word can make an immense difference. My sales have been rough due to moving off of itchio, and I'm hoping to rebuild a platform and direct people to my personal sites.

Disability advocacy is important to me, I have a new book coming out that is my first sapphic work, feature a trans woman who uses a cane. My good friend and editor, Tyler Battaglia, has inspired me in so many ways, and one of them has been the decision to make characters in all my works disabled. Horror is an outlet for me, and I love writing body horror. It comes from a place deep within me, and I hope it connects to readers in ways conventional media can not.

If you're interested in Crushed Plums, (which by the way, is going to have a sick cover by author Harvery Oliver Baxter) you can sign up for an ARC here

https://forms.gle/pL22sLf14JGmDanx8

I have a couple things up my sleeves I plan to post an announce once I'm back home, (I am writing this from Portugal, where we have a several day layover before returning to Denmark) including a dissection of what makes a good group project an anthology, announcements and updates about CLC Press, and an essay about the way folks with disabilities are simultaneously not believed, and infantilized.

If you're interest in free, and welcoming community spaces you can join my discord at Discord.gg/monstermanor or check out the new community forums on monstermanor.org where I am currently running a writing challenge until the end of September.

Make sure to subscribe too, if you don't want to miss out on updates. I hope to get into the habit of recommending more media when I do this, but I am using all of my spoons right now to make it home.

-XOXOX

WOLFE

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BE NOT AFRAID doesn't come out until Dec 9th, but now's a good time as any to meet the main characters (and that other one who might definitely want to kill them…). Art by me! 👁️ The novella barely breaks 30k words, so there aren't a lot of characters. You'll get to know these two and maybe that one pretty well!!

Pre-Order, sign up to be an ARC reader, or add it to Goodreads today! ➡️ https://sjean.carrd.co/#benotafraid

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At the River Clarion, Mary Oliver

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always a little funny to me when filmbros are vehemently anti fanfiction but love to discuss film theories. Maybe my theory is that the 2 main guys sucked each other off. And swallowed

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I've normally thought more about Mina's entry than Samuel F. Billington & Son's letter today, but the latter is interesting as one of the few examples where modernity works for Dracula, rather than against him.

The Demeter's voyage did not go according to plan, partly from Dracula's actions, partly from the actions that the Captain took against him. But the end result doesn't seem to have upset Dracula's plans in the least. The boxes were consigned to Mr SF Billington, as planned, and then Billington dutifully arranged for their delivery to Carfax by overnight train, with as little delay as possible.

The wheels of commerce roll on, and ensure that Dracula's scheme continues uninterrupted.

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Four puppies cuddling. Pompey, 1 century CE.

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Just… ever notice what horrifying tortures Lucy went through already by the 17th of August? Mina mentions how Lucy grows paler and weaker by the day, how in sleep (when ever Mina finds her by the open window) she gasps and struggles for air, how once she was even unconscious and silently crying when finally woken, and then when asked what the matter is just shakes her head and turns away. 😭 This makes one sure Lucy “knows” what is happening to her but a spell is cast keeping her silent, keeping her afraid of things she is made to forget but still aware when they come. (Add the incredible performances of @re-dracula that add to the tragedy and horror of the situation)

How then can any adaptation ever made look a this entry (Or any entry with Lucy) and come to the conclusion “She was totally into it”?!!!!