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we make eye contact and i connect to the wifi in your brain and i delete half of your memories and make you left handed

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cuyanir‌:

if there ever was a moment to remove his helmet so they could see his eyes, it was now. his hands move but all they do is leave the panel he was inspecting. they don’t reach for the dented cage on his head. they just neutrally rest at his sides. 

he gets up. all the years he’s known kennedy, he can’t recall that level of seriousness in their voice. it’s not worrying, nor gripping. just different.

“you have my attention.” is all he says. his eyes behind the visor watch them closely as if he was meeting them for the first time. but he knows them. so after a pause, he adds: “all of it.”

He could have done better, he could have done a lot worse. Kennedy stays close to the ground for a little longer after Boba answers, looking idly at the open panel in the wall. They wonder is there any fault with it or was Boba just preparing for something to go wrong. He must be the best for a reason. Things go wrong for everyone, but he must be ready for every eventuality. He must to be the best one, they drill into their mind. 

Kennedy stands up. “A bounty hunter is after my friend. I need you to save them. Whatever that means.”

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boba looks at kennedy and he cannot recall if he did thank them or not. chances were low. he most likely offered a biting comment that could have been read as something approaching gratitude ( but always from a position of knowing more than the other person ). 

he doesn’t take offense to kennedy calling in a favor. boba owes them that and he is a man of honor. some carved-out version of it. he nods once and crouches to inspect the wiring inside of his ship’s cargo hold. “alright. what’s it gonna be? credits? or a job on the house?”

   “Boba.”

They have a hand on his shoulder, standing above Boba to take his attention away from the wiring. It’s rare enough that Ken needs to address Boba, how reflexively he can tell a shift in the room’s tension, how quickly he’ll look at them before they even think to command his attention. It’s rarer still they’ll call him beyond a comical Mr Fett. Needs must. Keeping their hand on his shoulder, Ken lowers to their haunches to crouch at eye-level with Boba. 

   “I know you’re listening, but I need you to look at me so that I know I did everything I could, and I did everything right.”

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he doesn’t say ‘you’re welcome’. he just cants his helmet slightly to the left. 

then his shielded gaze drops to the wound on ruby’s hand. the mission was not a success and boba feels a sting of something. regret maybe. or just anger. whatever it is, it dies fast. he doesn’t let it get past his sternum. instead, he slowly unhooks the cape that hangs from his shoulderpad. 

“cleanest thing i got.” he explains. it’s a logical decision. a cut like that could get infected fast. and ruby has all this freedom to enjoy now. he hands him the brown fabric. it’s coarse to touch, many holes peek through the rough canvas, the edges are singed. but it will do its job. 

he glances at the still-burning building. it’s starting to get quieter, running like a timer for their conversation. the flames still crackle and so he stays, like he has something worthwhile to say. all he comes up with is an explanation. 

“didn’t want to approach you.” he saw ruby when he first walked into the trading post. but he stayed low and as inconspicuous as someone with an entire arsenal strapped to their body. he wonders how long has it been since ruby deserted the first order. “thought you wouldn’t want trouble.” boba gestures at the site of the explosion like it’s a punchline to some joke he withheld.

he’s not the right kind of attention for a former stormtrooper, he’s aware of that. boba won’t tell ruby he saw him two months ago and turned the other way. he might see it as something personal instead of practical.

Ruby gawks too long at the place where Boba’s cape used to hang, more shocked by this open wound than his own. Since the first day he met Boba, dents, scratches and all, this is the greatest change he’s seen in the bounty hunter’s immutable image. He can see embers floating past beneath Boba’s elbow, in a place he shouldn’t be able to see through, like a limb is missing. He takes the cape silently, his head lowered. He’s nodding, bowing, looking away out of embarrassment, reverence, just looking at the cape now, watching his blood seep through in a dark stain. “I hope that washes out,” he lies, laughing quietly.

Now that Boba’s mention it, Ruby realizes he doesn’t even know when Boba entered the building, what he was doing in the trading post, how long they were in the same room while Ruby was too busy battling with his borderline illiteracy. He frowns, watching the fire writhe and glow in the reflection of Boba’s helmet.

   “You’re not trouble,” Ruby says, dumbfounded. He hears how stupid that statement is when it’s laid over the creaking of a building falling apart in Boba’s wake, but it’s the plain truth as far as he’s concerned. He hears it’s stupid. He feels stupid. He’s missing something here. “Your job is, is uh... You’re not trouble...” Ruby rubs his brow when he feels the creases starting to stick, but it goes right back into a frown.

It’s not like Boba to talk about wanting.  “I feel like, I feel like I only ever see you when things are on fire. Do you want it that way?”

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cuyanir‌:

he should be scanning the crowd for his target but he stares at kennedy instead. they’re becoming a distraction, something wise but cold warns him. he shuts it out, this one time. 

he wishes he had jango’s warmth. he wishes he could take off his helmet and show them his father’s eyes, framed by the many laugh wrinkles. he wishes he knew a sharp comment to offer in return, something biting but completely harmless. then they would both throw their heads back and laugh while other partygoers smile at them. he’s seen it so many times with jango and zam. 

but he and kennedy are second-rate copies at best, boba realizes that now. 

their eye-contact is prolonged but one-sided. no eyes get revealed, the helmet remains where it was. and as he waits for kennedy to glance away from him, he rasps out: 

“i don’t do celebrations.” as a concept, they’re pointless. a waste of time that could be better spent preparing for the next mission.

but if the job goes well, i could humor you, he almost says but he cannot even rehearse these words in his mind.

a triumphant blip! goes off in the privacy of his helmet. boba breaks the eye-contact first. his head whips around and he sees the guest of honor finally enter the ballroom. a well-dressed blob of flesh situated on top of wobbling crab legs is making its way towards the center of the party, accompanied by excited greetings and hushed murmurs. his target laughs at the attention, at the fawning gazes and clapping hands.  

the bounty hunter straightens up, alert. 

“that’s him.” he motions at the still laughing guest and glances back at kennedy, gauging their readiness: “there’s two ways we can play this.”

Kennedy doesn’t know what to think when they stare down Boba. They try to get past the surface level, the obvious -- i wish i could see you just take it off this isn’t fair i just want to see -- and push through the condensed, succinct -- who are you?

But they can’t. Their whole life is lived through the skin. They can’t begin to imagine how things work in Boba’s head, what he sees when he looks at them through that visor. Then he looks away. And it’s a relief, for a second, not having to figure him out anymore.

It occurs to Kennedy again that they are out of their depth, but they’ve gotten so used to the notion that it’s barely potent enough to make their heart palpitate. They only skip one heartbeat -- two at most -- but manage to keep the panic on their inside, taking up a coy smile as they gaze glassily across the room, looking like they’re still looking for someone. 

   “Feel free to elucidate those options for me Mr. Fett,” they say in a hurried, low laugh, “Do clue me in. I’d be in something of a bind if my personal bodyguard assassinated someone and left me unprotected in a roomful of concealed carriers.”

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   “You never thanked me for helping out.”

In all likelihood, Boba mumbled his appreciation at some point or other on the night Ken posed with him, but it’s a non-sequitur. They only want to break the silence that briefly fell between them. It was comfortable, and they did enjoy it while it lasted, but Ken has been picking their lips and fidgeting with words all eve, trying to find a way to introduce a tender conversation to a man who hardly speaks. It’s got to be gotten over with. There will be no easing into it.

   “I did you a favour. I need one back.”

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The height of luxury might have been uncalled for, but when acting the part of a wealthy patron, it’s in for a penny, in for a palace. Root watches itself through the eyes of a maid standing by the door, keeping its gilded, regal body in a perfect frame of light. In the body of the maid, it thinks itself repulsively vain, and considers that an adequate first impression to make on the Mandalorian.

   “Hm... Sir.    Sir Ferral, if it excites us.    You needn’t stand in the doorway like a servant. Come in, learn your charge.”

@worstorder​ ( for root )

he hooks his thumb in one of his belt loops, staring at the prospective employer. something is telling him that this isn’t another case of an ambitious politician wanting to move up in the world or a scorned partner looking for a payback. there’s something different about this potential contract. different doesn’t mean bad. different breaks the routine and that’s good when you’re boba fett. 

                “what should i call you?”

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warstar‌:

I’ve not heard any complaints, Luke almost retorts.

He watches the porg, the stupid things he helped nurse and repopulate and then, in result, overpopulate when he first landed on this island. The porgs’ bodies are too fat to fly themselves far, far away. They couldn’t leave even if they wanted to. Leaving should be a choice. Luke does nothing to stop the ooze.

He came to this island to pull himself away from the Force. Now, in a moment of paranoia–of, yes, he’s humble enough to admit it: fear–he reaches out to the Force once more. It’s hardly reaching if this entity is already here, this close. He would be a harsh old man if he counted it at all. He does. He’ll confine himself to his hut for a whole day of meditation to make up for it. The first sensation he feels when he finds it–whatever it is–is expansive. Expansive not like a valley, expansive like a hole, a gaping hole. A hole which he can feel many have fallen into. A hole which will never be filled, no matter how many fall into it. He breathes in heavily and sways back, light headed, with a profound feeling of vertigo. He stumbles sideways and clutches a nearby boulder for support. Leaving, for those people, should have been a choice.

His expression is hard and stony, mouth frowning.

          “And now? Why are we meeting now?”

Something that is not Luke extends from within Luke himself, and something that is in Root but is not Root itself reaches out in return. It feels a pang in its chest. Something trying to pry the ribs outwards. To take a hand outstretched. Then it ends. The turmoil quietens, in an instant. And Root feels, as always, as if standing on a cellar door. There is no screaming beneath it, no scratching at the wood or snarling or crying, no sign of life at all beneath it. But it could be opened. It could.

Seeing Luke fall sideways, Root drops smoothly to one knee and cants its head to keep eyes level with Luke, continuing their conversation on the bias. It feels the feline reflexes of a grey-furred creature half a galaxy away prowl through its posture, keeping level despite a precarious lean. After spending so long watching the world glazy-eyed from a distance, it isn’t about to let an old man’s weak swoon ruin the view. The porg trills behind it, and the ooze slithers away from the bird in fast, periodic movements, like blood pumped through an excited heart.

   “I’m ‘exploring’,” it says with debonair insincerity, “Wandering the galaxy, winning people over to my point of view with, shall we say, hard persuasion, striking down the opposition for their inferior choices, all of our people gathering under one voice, one quest, you know... Jedi things.”

Root watches his face, at first for a reaction, then just for the sake of understanding it. The ooze circles by its feet, shivering. “I... rib you. I salt wounds. Skywalker, we are meeting for the reasons I think all people truly meet. I’ve missed you.”

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In moment light and sound and heat and a cool metal chestplate overpower his senses, Ruby’s mind is stuck on the food tin in his hand. The image of a grinning humanoid feline is plastered across the tin, but with the rest of the label written in a language alien to Ruby, he has a hard time deciphering is the feline a mascot, or the source of the meat inside the tin. It sounded like jellied meat when he shook it, at any rate. Sloppy. He grimaced, staring at the ambiguous cat-man, wondering how it is he’s come to eating things that can sound sloppy.

And now he comes to, not having blacked out, but his senses have caught up to him after he left them behind in the trading post. His sight goes from blinding white to blazing yellow, to the harsh black shadows and bright orange shades of fireside light. He realizes the can is still in his hand and a gash in the tin is oozing and bubbling. Singed fur is bulging out of the jelly.

His other arm is still locked around Boba’s neck, even after his feet hit the rooftop. Ruby withdraws it slowly and starts holding the runny, sizzling can in both hands, like a warm drink. It’s been seasons since Ruby last wore a stormtrooper’s helmet, but he still feels naked standing in front of Boba with his face exposed. “Huh?” he asks, common sense falling back in place as Ruby nods “Me too.” before Boba can answer. His hand jerks and he drops the can; Ruby looks at his sticky skin where the thin mangled metal cut into his palm, smeared with blood and jelly and dubious meat. “Ah, f- okay,” he accepts meekly. He could look around for a rooftop hatch, or ask Boba to drop him to street level, and these facts come logically into Ruby’s mind and leave illogically out of it. “Do you have, uh, do you have something I can clean with? My pack was... was in the trading post.”

He says finally, quietly, like it should be as unspoken but necessary as a full stop; “Thank you.”

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the shoot-out over unfair prices is reaching its zenith. somebody’s hand has reached for a thermodetonator. boba didn’t need to see it to know that it’s happening. he heard the familiar click of ignited wires. not much time left for anyone inside this trading post. 

he finally puts down the scope he’s been examining and leaves the shadowed corner. he picks up a chair with one hand on his way to the center of the store. he didn’t really feel like talking to anyone today but he supposes he has no choice now. boba stops next to ruby who was oblivious to his presence in the post until now. he gives him a short nod. and then without a warning, he throws the chair at the nearest window. the shattering glass is audible amongst the agitated rabble and beeping of a detonator.

he grabs ruby. first, an arm around his shoulders. then he bends down and locks the other arm behind his knees, picking him up. he blasts off with his jetpack through the opening he just created. and then the trading post explodes, spewing fire and glass shards everywhere.

but the two of them are already safe on a rooftop across the post, far away from the blast. boba deposits ruby on the metal surface and stares at the store engulfed by flames. something creaks and the building folds in on itself with another deafening noise.

“i was just browsing anyways.” boba says after a beat.

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It stands inches from his back, where the longest hairs on Luke’s head just tickle Root’s nose as the wind picks up. They’ve been here, some parts of Root. They have been to Ahch-To. As an ashen spore or infected bird, powerless to replicate and so tender when it hits the rocks, so wide-eyed and observant while it lasts. This, Root remembers through a haze. Not something it had forgotten, but that it never paid attention to in the first place.

So it takes time to the soft grass as well as the hard rock this time, to notice the hairs touching its nose, and the smell wafting off Luke’s collar. Root cannot put a name to it. It’s the smell of staying in one place. Stagnation or maturation, depending on how well-received the odor is. This world is very different when you are not a dying bird.

   “I might take you, if it weren’t for the smell,” it says, mechanically. Few threats have ever been emptier. Now Root steps shoulder-to-shoulder with Luke to watch a porg amble towards a small pool of gray ooze, the bird unfazed as the puddle begins rippling and slithering towards it. “But if I wanted that, I would already have you. You must know I have met you at many weaker moments than this.”

@worstorder​ for root!

The Force is not a frequency you can tune into and out of. It is not a radio. The Force will not hum you lullabies and it will not hum you dirges. If it makes a sound at all, few have ever heard it and fewer still have heard it rightly–it is not a whistle, it is a hiss. A hiss like a serpent. Luke reminds himself of this every time he can feel its hiss whistling straight through him like wind through a cracked brass bell.

Sometimes, very rarely, here on Ahch-To, Luke feels things through the Force. Things too daunting to not wash over him. Now, he can feel an obstruction on the Force. A presence. Somehow physical. Somehow here. Somehow right behind him. Foreboding. Possessive. Horrifying. He does not turn around. He keeps cleaning his dirtied drinking canister with a corner of his equally dirty robe.

          “You have nothing to overpower here. You can try to take the porgs, but I don’t think there’s anything inside of them to take.”

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howdy early birds 👀

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Thandie Newton & Karl Urban in ‘The Chronicles of Riddick’ (2004). 

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Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 (2017)