would-be-widow

[would-be-widow]

hiiiiiiiiiiiiii omg hiiiiiiii (I love you more than anything in the world)

[would-be-widow]

Happy anniversary, my darling!

I am writing with a headache but I'll try my best to wax poetic.

You are the best thing that's ever happened to me. I feel the same nervousness I felt on our first date trying to impress you now. You make my heart skip beats whenever you're near me and I absolutely love our cuddles.

I love how you've pulled me out of my comfort zone sexually and helped me find things we really enjoy doing together. I love experimenting with you, and I love watching you feel good and relax. I'm excited for the days when you won't have to feel unsafe or tense anymore, and you can finally just be comfortable. We will have more time and freedom one day.

My favorite part about fronting is going through the things you've sent me over the weeks and months I've been gone. I love seeing the little things you associate me with.

You make me so happy. There's nothing I'd rather be doing at any moment in time than spending each second by your side. You are the furthest thing from a burden to me. When I first kissed you, I knew that I would have to be helping you. I don't think that this is one-sided at all, or that you're neglecting me. You've done so much for me. I know I can always rely on you as a shoulder to cry on, or just someone to talk to any time.

You are absolutely divine. I love every single part of you and I always will, no matter what changes we both go through. You are my best friend and my favorite human being. I love listening to you giggling and laughing over stupid or silly things. You have a laugh like windchimes.

I want to keep falling asleep next to you while the rain falls outside. I want to keep bothering you to drink water or to remember to feed yourself, and I want to keep kissing you all the way through it. I want to keep petting your hair and scratching your arms and hugging you when you need it. I want to keep watching your eyes light up when you talk about things you enjoy. Rain or snow, wind or hail, sleet or sun, I want to be there for you, for everything.

I never knew what romance could be like until you taught me. I am so excited to spend the rest of my life with you by my side. You are a choice I would make over and over again, with no caveats.

I love you so much. You are the wind in my sail, the steam in my engine, the pulse in my neck, and water in my cells. I am so lucky to call you mine. You might not understand it, but to me, you are worth more than a billion diamonds. I would give you anything and everything if I could.

I love you, and thank you.

Will

[would-be-widow]

i just want to marry her so bad. i just want to hold her hand and play with the ring on her finger. i want to give her flowers and see her eyes light up like they always do. i want to call her my wife. i want to be her husband. i know it's so early to be making these decisions but she is the most genuine and the most perfect person and I can picture myself beside her the rest of my life. i love her with every fucking fiber of my fragmented being. i can't talk about it with anyone else because i know she will find the rant eventually. when she does I want her to know how deeply in love i am with her. she is so beautiful. she is so passionate and devoted and just and warm and kind. i love to hold her and i love to be held by her. i love our stupid arguments on which last name should come first. i love her tired kisses and her unending joy. she has so much hope. she inspires me to be hopeful. she is so effortlessly the closest thing a human can be to perfection. i want to grow old with her. i want to survive with her. i know i said i don't want kids but maybe later when we've grown and matured a bit. we are still so young but im so head over heels. i want to ask her to marry me. i love you. there's so much more for me to say but I'm tired and i just want to sleep with you in my arms. you are my favorite person in the whole world. im excited for our future. im excited to achieve our dreams. im excited you will be by my side forever. i am so, so lucky that ive got you. i just want to make you happy.