wowilovethevoid

[wowilovethevoid]

The anxiety is crazy this week. Why do I feel like everyone hates me and everything I say is wrong.

Work is so fucking boring. I know that I meant for more profound shit than rearranging a stock room. Do they think I’m not capable of something more meaningful? Is this what events is? Just not meaningful for ages and then shit hits the fan for like 10 minutes. These people don’t know what real work trauma even is. I am straight up so fucking bored.

Maybe it is the work itself giving me such mad anxiety. It’s so unbelievably unfulfilling for way too long. But at least I can take leave whenever I want and work from home whenever - but does that matter when there’s nothing to do at home anyway?

I’m so worried I give off vibes like I’m not capable of more. I need more. I hate that the office still feels like a clique I’m not quite a part of - I don’t feel trauma bonded, maybe you guys did but I was on my own - there’s the team and then there’s me. I can understand why there’s so many people you’ve worked with who aren’t fans, it’s very hard not to feel like an outsider amongst you.

Don’t stay too long please, you need more. Maybe just roll the dice, home ownership seems so far fetched still anyway.

[wowilovethevoid]

I know you’ve tried to twist it like I’m the one in wrong here, which really did you think I’d never hear about it?

I was done with you when S told me she had to defend the leave I took when J left to you. She asked me what your deal was with me, because it was part of a collection of instances that really seemed like you had it out for me. That’s an offensive move no matter who you are. But you did it while claiming to be my friend, my friend who had full context as to why I needed that leave. I don’t care what your intentions were, you had no business dragging me or my leave into whatever chat you were having.

I stand by my decision to not be honest with you about why I distanced myself from you. I wanted a 6, and beefing with your coworkers is a one way ticket to never getting a promotion. I know you, and I watched you beef with basically everybody else in there, no way was I letting it happen to me. You put me in the worst possible position, how could I be honest with you without jeopardising my relationship with my boss and my chance at career progression?

A real friend would have never put me in that position. You made a hard time in my life much more difficult than it had to be, all because you were incapable of trusting that I wouldn’t stab you in the back, like you so easily did to me.

This is my catharsis

I really don’t think I owe you any kind of explanation but I’ll will give you one. To be clear we aren’t friends anymore, there is no coming back from this. I don’t base this purely on the gossip I heard from others, this is also about the pretty clear signals I got from you that that gossip was true.

When you first started I genuinely pretended not to know you for your sake - I was really pissed when I lost that role to Jenny, and the whole team knew about it. I was pretty sure it had damaged my reputation with management and I didn’t want you to get dragged into it by association. But as time went on, the decision to protect you from my reputation, also protected me from yours. I started hearing things very early on, I heard you felt I had sabotaged your shot at exams. Since we’ve been friends for over a decade, I can see why you’d think I should have given you the benefit of the doubt. But your comments in the office made it very clear to me that you not only wanted exams pretty badly, but you resented the fact that your conflict was getting in the way of that. So yeah, it felt pretty obvious that you were placing blame my way for inadvertently reminding Simi of your conflict. And then the gossip just kept coming and your actions around the office only made it more believable. Maybe you’re able to forgive a friend for undermining you, and fact-checking you with your boss but I’m not. It literally happened it Teams once so I had 100% confidence. And Simi and I have worked together for 4 years, she would tell when other staff question stuff she knows I’m right about. Also, I could see you doing to everyone else, I’m not deaf so I heard every time you asked the same question of someone else when you didn’t like the first answer you got. And so did everyone else, just FYI. To me, you seemed willing to throw me under the bus for any attempt at professional gain. And then when I created distance between us, it got even weirder. I have no idea what you were trying to achieve, but I heard you started sharing all these details about my past, including formal photos, with people at work - painting a picture I was some kind of bitch for avoiding you. Other people asked me about it, it put me in an awkward position on several occasions. Also, I don’t know if you noticed but that whole management team was pretty ageist, so it was so annoying to know that when you talked about how young you were, you were dragging me into it with you. I wanted progression so badly, and it’d already been insinuated that I lost the role to Jenny for my age, and then here’s my “friend” reminding them that I’m so much younger than everyone else. But congrats, now they know you’re young too, you’ve probably screwed yourself. Good luck trying to get progression now. I had also already messaged you to tell you why there was distance by this time, so if you really wanted to try and fix our friendship, that was super weird way of showing it. Maybe you never thought I would ever find out all the shit you did behind my back, and if so - that’s naive, that office is a cess pool of gossip, I knew the entire time. You made every day in that office harder than it already was, my only regret is that I didn’t leave sooner.

[wowilovethevoid]

I wish I knew I wouldn’t be able to escape the societal pressures of needing to be partnered once I was actually partnered.

Why is it so hard still to get a friend to spend time with you without your partners. How do you say I like your partner but can it just be us?

Like long distance was just like being single, except I did have a partner but he couldn’t come to events with me so just like being single, nobody knew how to interact with me at an event, and lowkey stopped inviting me because my partner couldn’t be there.

Having a partner with a crazy shift schedule is the same. If he’s not available then we’ll change it when he is because why would why hang out without are partners hey? Sorry didn’t realise we’re just couple friends and you can’t hang out with me as just me.

[wowilovethevoid]

This is my catharsis

I really don’t think I owe you any kind of explanation but I’ll will give you one. To be clear we aren’t friends anymore, there is no coming back from this. I don’t base this purely on the gossip I heard from others, this is also about the pretty clear signals I got from you that that gossip was true.

When you first started I genuinely pretended not to know you for your sake - I was really pissed when I lost that role to Jenny, and the whole team knew about it. I was pretty sure it had damaged my reputation with management and I didn’t want you to get dragged into it by association. But as time went on, the decision to protect you from my reputation, also protected me from yours. I started hearing things very early on, I heard you felt I had sabotaged your shot at exams. Since we’ve been friends for over a decade, I can see why you’d think I should have given you the benefit of the doubt. But your comments in the office made it very clear to me that you not only wanted exams pretty badly, but you resented the fact that your conflict was getting in the way of that. So yeah, it felt pretty obvious that you were placing blame my way for inadvertently reminding Simi of your conflict. And then the gossip just kept coming and your actions around the office only made it more believable. Maybe you’re able to forgive a friend for undermining you, and fact-checking you with your boss but I’m not. It literally happened it Teams once so I had 100% confidence. And Simi and I have worked together for 4 years, she would tell when other staff question stuff she knows I’m right about. Also, I could see you doing to everyone else, I’m not deaf so I heard every time you asked the same question of someone else when you didn’t like the first answer you got. And so did everyone else, just FYI. To me, you seemed willing to throw me under the bus for any attempt at professional gain. And then when I created distance between us, it got even weirder. I have no idea what you were trying to achieve, but I heard you started sharing all these details about my past, including formal photos, with people at work - painting a picture I was some kind of bitch for avoiding you. Other people asked me about it, it put me in an awkward position on several occasions. Also, I don’t know if you noticed but that whole management team was pretty ageist, so it was so annoying to know that when you talked about how young you were, you were dragging me into it with you. I wanted progression so badly, and it’d already been insinuated that I lost the role to Jenny for my age, and then here’s my “friend” reminding them that I’m so much younger than everyone else. But congrats, now they know you’re young too, you’ve probably screwed yourself. Good luck trying to get progression now. I had also already messaged you to tell you why there was distance by this time, so if you really wanted to try and fix our friendship, that was super weird way of showing it. Maybe you never thought I would ever find out all the shit you did behind my back, and if so - that’s naive, that office is a cess pool of gossip, I knew the entire time. You made every day in that office harder than it already was, my only regret is that I didn’t leave sooner.

[wowilovethevoid]

I quit!!!!!! I never have to work with that bitch again. Hope that place breaks you :)

Ok babe this is for future you.

2019 is on repeat right now because she has manipulated and backstabbed her way into a permanent job in YOUR workplace, and is trying to lie her way into YOUR role. Why are you still friends with someone who so consistently assumes the worst of you? Don’t do it, don’t go back. Letting her in will only allow her to fuck you over even more.

[wowilovethevoid]

That bitch is crazy lol. Trying to manifest that you give up and quit because the boss can see right through you and knows you’re full of shit. Can’t wait to cut you off girl.

Ok babe this is for future you.

2019 is on repeat right now because she has manipulated and backstabbed her way into a permanent job in YOUR workplace, and is trying to lie her way into YOUR role. Why are you still friends with someone who so consistently assumes the worst of you? Don’t do it, don’t go back. Letting her in will only allow her to fuck you over even more.

[wowilovethevoid]

You bought a 50 thousand dollar caravan that you take to a caravan park half an hour away every couple months but the couple of extra bucks for a second Netflix screen is where you draw the line. Make is make sense please

[wowilovethevoid]

She is legit terrorising your colleagues. End it.

Ok babe this is for future you.

2019 is on repeat right now because she has manipulated and backstabbed her way into a permanent job in YOUR workplace, and is trying to lie her way into YOUR role. Why are you still friends with someone who so consistently assumes the worst of you? Don’t do it, don’t go back. Letting her in will only allow her to fuck you over even more.

[wowilovethevoid]

Ok babe this is for future you.

2019 is on repeat right now because she has manipulated and backstabbed her way into a permanent job in YOUR workplace, and is trying to lie her way into YOUR role. Why are you still friends with someone who so consistently assumes the worst of you? Don’t do it, don’t go back. Letting her in will only allow her to fuck you over even more.

[wowilovethevoid]

It’s been a whole ass year - because I’m a petty ass bitch here’s everything I wish she could know about the life she tried to fuck up

Woke up next to a man who loves me, kissed me goodbye several times before he actually went to work. I have TWO incredible housemates, who know how to handle their shit - we like living together so much we’re moving to a new house this weekend, everything is equal and peaceful and even though they’re both worse off financially then you ever were, they’ve never tried to take advantage of me.

Bet your life still sucks xx

Future me better not get sucked into signing another lease ok

She gets pissed when you don’t thank her for doing something you didn’t ask for -

Also who does half of your dishes and expects thanks - why bother if you’re going to leave half on the bench

I do most of the cleaning, the fkn bins, the fkn rank microwave, all of the fkn household bills chores shit and then I’m then I’m the asshole bc you did some of the dishes?? Bitch fkn act right

Let’s shut the door and sulk. Can’t wait to get a text in 3 weeks that’s says You’re moving out bc you don’t deserve to be treated this way - you’re 28 for fucks sake we’re not dating we’re housemates just don’t do my dishes then??

[wowilovethevoid]

Last night he said I love you and I said it back. Woah

I’m talking to a boy that I really like - I feel 16 again what is this?

Is the universe finally doing me a solid and giving me a nice boy who likes me back??

[wowilovethevoid]

Called me girlfriend yesterday. I really like this boy

I’m talking to a boy that I really like - I feel 16 again what is this?

Is the universe finally doing me a solid and giving me a nice boy who likes me back??

[wowilovethevoid]

I’m talking to a boy that I really like - I feel 16 again what is this?

Is the universe finally doing me a solid and giving me a nice boy who likes me back??

[wowilovethevoid]

She’s not fine - she’s obsessed with her body image and he dumped her so hard. I can see her in person and feel okay - she doesn’t have any power of me anymore.

Imagine ruining a 7 year friendship over a misogynist pig

Our friendship would only work if I pretended to enjoy the company of a woman hating, direspectful red flag??

Lmao pass I’m good thanks have a nice life with that one

[wowilovethevoid]

Can’t believe I prophesied her breaking lease over some dishes

Posting my epic rant in the hopes I actually send it to her -

For the record, I really couldn’t give less of a shit if this has been at all difficult for you - you started this by submitting a notice to leave and breaking our lease without my knowledge or consent (not your precious proper process by the way), you then told the real estate I couldn’t afford the place on my own (potentially sabotaging my living situation). And then you have the audacity to wonder why I got legal advice? And that’s without mentioning the attack on my personality and my personal relationships - you’re 28 and still think that’s an acceptable way to speak to someone? If I was being as difficult as you think I am, I would have told you about my new co tenant so I could make you pay rent until they moved in AS PER PROPER REAL ESTATE PROCESS. But I’d rather cut my losses so that you could just get the fuck out of my life.

As usual you have made incredible assumptions about me and chose to act on the version of me you created in your head. You made several claims to real estate about what I would want, and what I would be doing without any consultation (you thought the hypothetical conversation we had a few weeks earlier would still apply after I had to cop your verbal abuse? Really?) You’ve haven’t missed a beat when it comes to making snide remarks and attempting to tear down my self esteem - the way you have always spoken to me is honestly disgraceful - being four years younger does not make me beneath you and it certainly doesn’t make you more mature (what kind of child breaks lease over dishes anyway?). You’re the first person I’ve ever met who needed to tell me she was nice, and now I can see why you have to spend so much time justifying it - it’s time to take a hard look at yourself, you wouldn’t need to say it if you were actually as nice as you think you are. I truly wish your new housemate all the very best, they’re going to fucking need it. Have a nice life.

Future me better not get sucked into signing another lease ok

She gets pissed when you don’t thank her for doing something you didn’t ask for -

Also who does half of your dishes and expects thanks - why bother if you’re going to leave half on the bench

I do most of the cleaning, the fkn bins, the fkn rank microwave, all of the fkn household bills chores shit and then I’m then I’m the asshole bc you did some of the dishes?? Bitch fkn act right

Let’s shut the door and sulk. Can’t wait to get a text in 3 weeks that’s says You’re moving out bc you don’t deserve to be treated this way - you’re 28 for fucks sake we’re not dating we’re housemates just don’t do my dishes then??

[wowilovethevoid]

Future me better not get sucked into signing another lease ok

She gets pissed when you don’t thank her for doing something you didn’t ask for -

Also who does half of your dishes and expects thanks - why bother if you’re going to leave half on the bench

I do most of the cleaning, the fkn bins, the fkn rank microwave, all of the fkn household bills chores shit and then I’m then I’m the asshole bc you did some of the dishes?? Bitch fkn act right

Let’s shut the door and sulk. Can’t wait to get a text in 3 weeks that’s says You’re moving out bc you don’t deserve to be treated this way - you’re 28 for fucks sake we’re not dating we’re housemates just don’t do my dishes then??

[wowilovethevoid]

Imagine specifically requesting an inperson chat

Avoiding the apartment, then when you finally come home you hide out in your room.

Stop being a cunt, you’re 27 for fucks sake.