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“Forget the mistake, remember the lesson.”

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Why Commenting On FanFiction Is Important

Alright kids, Boo here with a hopefully non-arrogant PSA.

I’m a writer of FanFiction because I like it and it’s my preferred genre (also a great way to receive feedback on writing that I can use on originals, bref). But like with most artistic work posted online, I have very little feedback.

When I was in a slightly writing rut, I cranked one shots left and right, nothing out of the ordinary. But instead of people commenting with their thoughts and good feedback, they just gave me requests.

I don’t think I could ever put into words what that felt like, but I’ll try (the irony of being a writer). It suddenly felt tiring, being a writer, and very quickly I stopped writing altogether. I only ever showed my friend what I wrote and left it at that. I haven’t published anything for a while after. It felt like people were treating me like a mule wanting me to do work for them, and I just wasn’t up for that. I lost my will to write, and then I began to think, “If I post something else other than what was requested, will people even read it?”

Then you get the infamous comments, “You haven’t forgotten about my request right??? Here’s another.”

That just adds anxiety and guilt. I’m purposely ignoring the comments to save my own uncreative ass, at least that’s what it feels like.

After weeks of convincing myself that my stories are worth sharing no matter how many people read them, I started writing and publishing again while working on some longer pieces. Slowly it got better.

Now this week, I remembered I joined another fanfiction platform, and realized I had never published anything on it. I had an idea, and so I started writing. It didn’t come out as I imagined it would, but I was so proud? Like, I started feeling happy about what I created again. Like genuine happiness that I haven’t felt in months since my last published work.

A few hours later, I get this comment:

I cranked out three 3k stories after reading this.

In four days.

It never happened before, and I don’t know how many times it will happen again. It was one comment, but it gave me so much fighting spirit that I think I’m on my way to regaining my initial writer mindset.

Fanfiction writers depend on feedback as a validation that their stories matter to people. If you’re wondering why your favourite author hasn’t updated/posted in a while, ask yourself, “Did I do everything that would convince them to continue writing this?”

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I think at a certain point you’ve just got to nod and agree with whatever parents say and then go along and do whatever you think is right anyway…they have such a restricted view on things based on their own negative or positive experiences they don’t realise it might be different for you

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In case you need this today

- you are not a failure - you are not a waste of space - you are loved - you are wanted - i believe in you - you can do it

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next week's episode is going to kill us all (x)

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COTE AND MICHAEL ARE CO-PRODUCING A SHOW ON CBS

https://tvline.com/2018/08/28/michael-weatherly-cote-de-pablo-reunion-cbs-new-series/

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things that are nOt okay:

going through your children’s things (phone, journals, backpack)

talking badly aBout your kid to other people

insulting your kid both to their face and behind their back

“this is my house you have no privacy”

hitting your kid

compare them to other kids

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WARNING: SEASON 10 SPOILERS!!!

You were sitting at the table, gripping your coffee nervously. Dean had been out at the bar for hours, and he was either too drunk to function, hooking up with some one-night stand, or some demons (or other evil sons of bitches) had nabbed him. In every case, the idea made your stomach churn and fear or jealousy gripping at your chest. You knew none of those women loved him, none of those women deserved to touch him, not that you did either, but at least you were there for him even with a relationship or sex off the table.

You heard the garage rumbling, you were going to kill him, he was drunk and driving. You poured out your coffee and marched to the garage to yell at him, you were so angry, you were waiting up for him to come home, and he didn’t even take a fucking taxi, all because he was afraid his precious baby would be left at the bar for a night. But as you stalked into the garage, with the Impala in sight, you froze. Something wasn’t right, Dean was still in the car, with the engine turned off, with his face in his hands, his body was heaving as if he were hyperventilating. You slowly walked to the car, Dean was on the edge, it was clear that he was more wasted than usual, you slowly opened the passenger door, he jumped a little, startled by the creak of the door. But once he saw it was you, he rubbed his eyes, straightened up, tried to steady his breathing and looked out the opposite window.   

“H-hey Y/N. Why aren’t you in bed?” He stuttered and slurred his words. You took a deep breath.

“I was waiting up for you, worried. I was about to come looking for you.” You responded, it sounded ridiculous and motherly, something you didn’t want to sound like with him, but it couldn’t be helped, you decided to ream him out for drunk driving tomorrow when he was sober, you figured with a hangover the piercing sound of your voice would get the message across better.

“I’m sorry…” He said sadly. Like a five-year old in a grown man’s body apologizing for being bad.

“What’s wrong Dean?” You asked, he was acting completely strange, and you knew he wasn’t heaving because he couldn’t hold his liquor.

“I was just wondering if I hurt more people than I save Y/N… And I realize that I’m a plague, wherever I go people die, or get hurt… If I had just left Sammy alone, he would be married to his girlfriend and in law school… My Dad traded his life to save mine, Jo, Ellen, Charlie, Adam, Bobby, and Kevin would all still be alive if they hadn’t met me, I can hardly remember the names of the people I’ve saved, but the faces of everyone who died are still burned into my brain.” He explained, gripping the wheel tightly and leaning forward, as if he was having heart or stomach pain. Your heart was aching for him… You knew how much all these things hurt him, but him saying it outloud made it more real. You were used to the Dean Winchester who bottled up all his pain, who muttered “I’m fine” when people who loved him were concerned. He was only expressing these things because he was ridiculously drunk, you could smell the liquor as soon as you sat down next to him. You saw the tears running down his face, you put your hand on his back and began rubbing in slow circles.

“Dean… You saved me remember?” You said softly, Dean looked sideways at you, not even trying to hide his face at this point.

“I do… And now that I look back on it, it’s my proudest moment, because I haven’t fucked up your life yet. And you’re on of the closest people in the world to me. But I’m scared of hurting you every day… Sam wound up dying six times!”  Dean burst out, slamming his hands against the wheel. He was obviously not in the right mind. You had to get him to bed. You got out of your side of the car and opened his, gently leading him out of the car and garage. With a great struggle you managed to lead Dean to his room, he was wobbly, couldn’t stand up straight, and seeing as how he weighed more than two hundred pounds while you didn’t even break one-fifty, he was not easy to keep on his feet. When he sat on his bed you sighed with relief. You bent down, and began unlacing his shoes. At one point he laughed wildly, then he whined saying he wanted pie, but then sadly he went back to the self-loathing. After you were done with his shoes, you took off his jacket and flannel so that he was just wearing a black v-neck, and after checking the hem of his underwear you concluded that he was wearing boxers and it was okay for you to take his jeans off without him feeling awkward in the morning. You got him to lie down and placed the sheets and blankets over him, at this point he was being oddly quiet, just staring at you blankly while you made him comfortable and put his shoes and clothes away. When you were done, you came and sat on the side of the bed and rubbed up and down his arm, you cupped his face and kissed him lightly on the forehead. God you felt like his mother, and while you didn’t mind caring for him, you didn’t want him to think of you like that. Dean stared at you, his eyes confused.

“Why do you care about me Y/N?” He asked, purely curious. You weren’t expecting the question, but several reasons immediately came to mind. It wasn’t hard to know why you adored him. You ran your fingers through his hair lovingly.

“Because you’re a good man, you make mistakes, don’t we all, but all you want to do is help people. You’re funny, and charming, and incredibly handsome… And I don’t just care about you Dean, I adore you.” You admitted, if he took it the way you actually meant it, you could deny it because of how drunk he was. Dean stared at you, he smiled sadly.

“Thanks Y/N… I’m sorry I made you wait up… I just can’t be around you sometimes so I need to go to the bar.” he said, it sounded like he had a mouthful of marbles. The comment took you back, you felt a little pain in your chest. But then he elaborated.

“You drive me crazy… I know I can’t have you, so I just go to the bar and pick out the girl who most looks like you…” He muttered. You wanted him to continue so you stayed silent.

“Don’t be mad Y/N… I tried not to fall in love with you. I think even Sam wants to be with you sometimes… I don’t want to ruin you like I ruined Jo and Lisa… “ He mumbled. You knew about Jo and Lisa from Sam but you never heard Dean talk about them. He was retardedly drunk.

“It’s okay Dean… I promise you I’m tougher than Jo and Lisa, but you won’t remember this in the morning, so just go to bed. I love you too, that’s why I need you to sober up, so you can realize that you make people’s lives better, not worse.” You dared to give Dean a small peck on the lips. You turned off the light and went to bed.

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The next morning was a blur. You made Dean breakfast and was going to bring it to him in bed, but he had already woken up, and showered. He had a slight migraine, but he had taken some advil and eaten raw eggs to make the hangover go away. In the kitchen after you gave Dean his breakfast at the table, he was oddly quiet. Even Sam asked him what was wrong, Dean just waved him away. He kept staring at you all morning, silently watching your every action. At one point you smacked Dean upside the head and told him that if he ever drove drunk again, you would slash holes in his tires. He mumbled an apology. You were doing the dishes when Sam left to the library, Dean brought his to the sink and began drying and putting the ones you had washed in the cupboards. Continuing to silently observe you. You felt his eyes burning a hole into the back of your head so finally you cleared your throat.

“What’s up Dean? Got something on your mind?” You questioned not turning to look at him. Dean cleared his throat too.

“I uhh- umm what did I say to you last night?” He asked, you froze. You didn’t want to bring up his self- loathing episode. You didn’t want to embarrass him.

“I don’t remember anything you don’t want me too, okay Dean?” You explained carefully. Dean stayed silent.

“Y/N…. Did you tell me you loved me?” He asked, you could hear the hope in his voice but fear still gripped your chest. There was no point in denying it, he knew you would be lying, he always knew when you were lying.

“Yes. I did.” You answered shortly. Dean hesitated.

“Did I say I loved you?” He asked.  

“Yes.” You answered shortly, but your voice cracked, your hands were shaking. Dean muttered “oh”. The two of you stayed in an awful anticipation filled silence. After a few minutes Dean mumbled something quietly.

“What?” You asked, turning around, Dean looked like he had just been caught stealing. He looked at the floor, but then suddenly he squared up, looking you in the eye with determination.

“I said that I meant it.” He said, trying to sound confident, but the blush apparent on his cheeks and he was fidgeting with the dish towel. You felt a warm sensation in your tummy. Your heart began to race and your hands shook less.

“You did?” You asked slowly, Dean fearfully nodded his head very slowly. You smiled.

“I did too.” You responded quietly, almost like a secret. Dean grinned, the corners of his eyes crinkling, his freckles dancing around his features as they moved. He took your breath away. Suddenly he was upon you, wrapping his arm around your waist and cupping your face with his hand. His lips crashing into yours, you felt the desire of years in that kiss, he tasted just as you had imagined every night as you lay awake thinking of it, he was gentle but firm, everything warm, his mouth tasted like toothpaste and a hint of whiskey from last night. You had to stand on your tippy-toes while he bent down to reach each other’s lips. As he pressed his body and mouth closer into you, you moaned softly, he caressed your neck and cheek, and when his lips found the corner of your mouth he began planting small kisses messily on your mouth, cheeks, nose and all over the rest of your face, you began giggling, and he began pinching and tickling your sides, the giggle turned into a fit of laughter, until finally, to catch your breath you pushed him away ever so slightly, with his arms still wrapped around your waist, the two of you looked at each other and smiled.

“I love you.” He whispered gruffly. You pecked him on the lips.

“I love you too.”

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Knight in Shining Armour (DeanxReader oneshot)

Summary: Based off of Cinderella. Reader lives with her abusive Step-Sister’s and Step-Mother, used commonly for bait and research. After they forget her one hunt, leaving her to die, Dean and Sam swoop in to save her, only causing Dean to fall in love with her, even though the Step mom has other plans for him

A/n: . Ok so I started liking this and I don’t like the ending. At all. But I really wanted to post again so I can get back on track. Sorry for it being so bad, hopefully you’ll all like it more than me :*

Words: 4774

Warning: Swearing, Rape-type action (no actual rape), violence, blood

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©alexandra__bastien  This is the back of my body art : tribute to the Winchester! Thank you @jensenackles for all the kind words and It was fun going on stage with you & @jaredpadalecki! Precious moment 🙌🏻👌🏻🤘🏻I can’t wait for the next gig!  #alexandrabastien #jensenackles #deanwinchester #spntor #torcon #spnfamily #jaredpadalecki #jeffreydeanmorgan #samwinchester #johnwinchester #makeup #bodyart #bodypainting #bodypaint #montrealartist #familybusiness #spntorcon2017 #art #portraits #supernatural #surnaturel #tvshow #horror #backtattoo #mua

🤘🏻Finally! 🤘🏻 I can show you some photos about my Supernatural Body Paint gig in Toronto! I learned so much during the #spncon, cause it was a 40 hours of makeup art in 2 days for me and my model. And doing realism portrait is the hardest thing to paint on a body!  I cant thank enough @jensenackles and @jaredpadalecki for their amazing response to my art! You guys are the best! It was so much fun! Thank you to all the people who came to meet us and thank you @creationent for putting together such a great event! I cant wait for the next one! #spnfamily #bodypainting #bodyart #alexandrabastien #spncon #TORCON

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From Con to Con (Part One)

A/N: Oh my goodness, I never thought I would be doing this. First time submitting a story on Tumblr…let’s hope it goes well! This will be a series, possibly a long one. Hope you like it!

Summary: You’re living the dream as an actress on Supernatural. Since joining the show, you’ve made friends with everyone, especially your best friend Rob Benedict, who you may or may not have a crush on even when you don’t want to. When things end badly for you and your boyfriend, will you ever be able to get over it and move on to the man standing in front of you? 

Pairing: Rob Benedict x Reader

Warnings; angst, cheating boyfriends, hurtful words

Word Count: 2,234

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When high school ends the bullying should too. The people that put you down drift off into there own lives and forget you. But whwn you have bullies in your own home. They refuse to go away. They think they have every right to put you down because they are family. And after so long you adjust to it accept it even. No matter how much it kills you inside everytime they down talk you. No matter how hard you want to cry when they down talk you or compare you to others.

Soon i will be dead on the inside and theyll no longer effect me.

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I miss feeling like me. The past few years my worlds been flipped upside down. I can't explain how it feels to finally have a place I feel safe. A group where people understand me. People care about me. It's like being cuddled in a soft blanket surrounded by love.

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Random Asks

1. Favorite kind of juice? 2. Favorite movie? 3. If you could pick one color to represent yourself, what it be? 4. If you had to pick one texture to represent you, what would it be? 5. Name a talent of yours. 6. Cookies or cream? 7. Do you like to draw? 8. What is the best restaurant you have ever been to? 9. How many times have you cried this month? 10. What’s your biggest regret? 11. What’s one thing that you judge people on? 12. What’s one thing you wish people didn’t judge about you? 13. If you had to eat one food for the rest of your life what it be? 14. Would you ever cliff dive? 15. Would you ever eat a bug? 16. Would you ever skydive? 17. Do you believe in destiny? 18. When is the last time you ran a mile? 19. When is the last time you kissed someone? 20. When is the last time you hugged someone? 21. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth? 22. Do you like hot or cold showers? 23. Hot pizza or cold pizza? 24. Favorite designer brand? 25. What’s one thing you wish everybody co 26. Do you believe in astrology? 27. Do you believe in ghosts? 28. Do you believe in karma? 29. Do your believe in luck? 30. Do your believe in love at first sight? 31. What type is your hair? 32. What color if you hair? 33. What color is your eyes? 34. Do you like school? 35. Favorite fruit? 36. Favorite vegetable? 37. What is the best feeling in the world? 38. What is the worst feeling in the world? 39. Favorite social media platform? 40. Jeans or leggings? 41. Skirts or shorts? 42. What color are your socks right now? 43. What is the best piece of advices you give to someone? 44. If you could go back in time and tell your younger self something, what would you say? 45. What’s one thing you hope to have in the future? 46. If you could go into the future and ask yourself something, what would you ask? 47. What is your zodiac sign? 48. Do you have siblings? 49. Do you want kids? 50. Favorite subject in school? 51. Least favorite subject in school? 52. If you could be perfect at one thing in life, what would you want it to be? 53. Would you rather write an essay or take a math test? 54. Would you rather take biology or chemistry? 55. Favorite shade of lipstick to wear? 56. On a scale of 1-10, ten being a lot, how independent are you? 57. One song that makes you happy? 58. One song that makes you cry? 59. One song that gets you excited? 60. One song that brings back memories? 61. Favorite song? 62. Running or swimming? 63. What is your biggest fear? 64. What’s one thing that always calms you down? 65. Favorite comfort food? 66. Who is your role model in life? 67. One punishment that you will always hate? 68. favorite memory from childhood? 69. Do you use scrunchies? 70. What’s the first thing you want people to notice about you? 71. What’s the first thing you notice about other people? 72. What’s the last TV show you binged watched? 73. Soccer or football? 74. Gymnastics or ice skating? 75. Favorite Olympic event to watch? 76. Dream pair of shoes? Describe. 77. Dream outfit? Describe. 78. Dream wedding? Describe. 79. Dream house? Describe. 80. Dream S.O? Describe. 81. Who is you celebrity crush? 82. What is one trait that turns you on? 83. What is one trait that turns you off? 84. What is your guilty pleasure? 85. Are you a night person or morning person? 86. In one word, describe your love life. 87. In one word, describe your friend group. 88. In one word, describe your style? 89. In one word, describe your music taste. 90. In one word, describe your parents. 91. What’s one thing you wish you could do? 92. What’s one thing you wish you could be? 93. Favorite snack? 94. If you could change one thing from your childhood what would it be? 95. What’s one thing you love about your childhood. 96. Sweet or savory? 97. Do you consider yourself responsible? 98. Favorite scent? 99. What is one movie that always makes you cry? 100. What is one movie that always makes you laugh? 101. Do you shower in the morning or night? 102. Favorite physical trait of yours? 103. Favorite personality trait of yours? 104. Would you want to be a model, an actor, or a singer? 105. Name three things that make you smile. 106. Name three things that make you frown. 107. What’s one language you always wanted to learn? 108. Biggest pet peeve? 109. If you could go back in time, what time would you go to? 110. What is your battery percentage at the moment? 111. Favorite quote? 112. Fanboys actor? 113. Favors singer? 114. Favorite model? 115. Favorite rapper? 116. Reader or writer? 117. Mechanical or traditional pencil? 118. Are you good at making friends? 119. Do you have a lot of secrets? 120. What’s one of your insecurities? 121. What is the best gift someone could give you? 122. What is the worst gift someone could give you? 123. Do you have an accent? 124. Are you scared of public speaking? 125. Are you scared of bugs? 126. Are you scared of flying in planes? 127. Are you scared of heights? 128. Favorite spot to vacation? 129. Favorite album currently? 130. Favorite type of hat? 131. Favorite type of soup? 132. What is something you are confident about? 133. Are you stubborn? 134. What is your spirit animal? 135. What’s one color you would never wear? 136. What’s one color that you wear too much? 137. Favorite song lyric? 138. High heels or flats? 139. Iced coffee or hot coffee? 140. Iced tea or hot tea? 141. Favorite thing to order from Chinese takeout? 142. Milkshakes or smoothies? 143. Favorite kind of donut? 144. Favorite kind of pie? 145. Do you lie a lot? 146. Do you wear glasses? 147. Favorite kind of wine? 148. What is your gemstone? 149. Describe your dream wedding ring. 150. Favorite season? 151. Do you pull all nighters often? 152. How many drafts do you have saved in tumblr at the moment? 153. Manicure or pedicure? 154. What’s one thing you couldn’t live without? 155. Stripes or polka dots? 156. Are you a optimist or pessimist? 157. Do you like confrontation? 158. Reveal a secret to your followers about yourself. 159. Are you a movie or TV show type of person? 160. Are you indecisive? 161. Favorite band? 162. Favorite book? 163. Sparkles or sequins? 164. Do you still use blankets in the summer? 165. Do you have any games on your phone? If so, what are they? 166. Favorite flavor of ice cream? 167. Your friends need to use one word to describe you. What word do you think they will use? 168. Your family need to use one word to describe you. What word do you think they will use? 169. If you had to pick one superpower, what would it be? 170. Fire or ice? 171. What do you believe killed all the dinosaurs? 172. Have you ever been heartbroken before? 173. Have you tried drugs before? 174. What’s one things everybody in the world should have a chance to experience? 175. Guilty until innocent or innocent till guilty? 176. What quality of yours do you thinks stands out the most to other people? 177. Are you wearing any nail polish at the moment? If so, what color? 178. Describe your ideal first date? 179. What are some things hat automatically make you like a person? 180. How comfortable is your mattress? 181. What is your favorite fashion trend currently? 182. What is your least favorite fashion trend currently? 183. Favorite material to wear? 184. If you could swap lives with a celebrity, which one would you switch with? 185. What’s your favorite thing about school? 186. Favorite genre of movies? 187. What’s one physical turn on of yours? 188. Favorite genre of music? 189. Do you dip yours cookies in milk? 190. Favorite board game? 191. What’s your favorite kind of dressing? 192. Favorite video game? 193. What’s your favorite flavor of cake? 194. Favorite card game? 195. What’s your favorite gemstone? 196. Gold or silver? 197. Favorite meal for dinner? 198. Favorite meal for breakfast? 199. What age did you learn how to swim? 200. Make up your own ask!