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"Don't forget, I'm also just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her"

Last visit before start company training tomorrow... Hmft

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Masya'Allah Tabarakallah... Jogging before start the hectic company training tomorrow 🤧

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Living my dream I had since I was child...

I am blessed.. Sincerely, Mrs. Lampard 😍

Know exactly all bless I got is because of Ibu's prayer and Bapak's too.... Yaa Allah please always give Ibu & Bapak happiness and healthy. Aamiin Yaa Rabbal Alamin

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Kalau ku pergi nanti, semoga semua orang yang mengenalku memaafkan salahku dan bersaksi bahwa aku bukan orang jahat.

These days so many people leaving. I'm not ready to be left, it must be really hard.

There are Ade Paloh, my Pakde, and suddenly Gustiwiw 🥺 Even I cried a lot when famous person person I know suddenly leaving. So, I'm not ready to be left by anyone close with me.

As it happened, started from mid of 2024 I have no desire to live anymore (but never thought to really end my life apalagi mikir suic*de kookk). As I don't have desire to live now, am I ready for leaving?????

Ibadah ku masih bolong-bolong, masih banyak salah juga sama orang 🥺

Semoga Allah mengampuni dosaku, semoga semua orang memaafkan salahku.

Kalau ku pergi nanti, semoga semua orang yang mengenalku memaafkan salahku dan bersaksi bahwa aku bukan orang jahat. Hopefully so many people attend to my funeral (sorry for being selfish as I know that everyone probably has their own activities)

Hope I can increase my ibadah, so I can be ready to leave and hopefully entering Allah's heaven. Aamiin Yaa Rabbal Alamin

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Planning to have these in my room... Looks adorable and cute.... Hmmmmm ggeeemmmeeesssshhhh ❤️

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Another story reveals... Our OB also will be lay off by Pak Heng. This OB person is very supportive compared with Sheila who's became a burden somehow.

Makes me thinking, why things happened easily for bad people (our sales person who demanded for Pak Harris and OB to be lay off), and why everything is hard for a person who did nothing bad to other people (me, office team).

Maybe I'm not a good person, we probably did something wrong but I can guarantee that I have no attention to harm people or even take a revenge (something it's in my head, but hopefully I never do it).

Also heard that this OB people started to have motorbike instalment. I know exactly looking for a new job is not that easy too.

Luthfi sabar sabar yaaa. Semoga Allah kasih rejeki pengganti. Aamiin.

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Oh shoot!!! I miss your chicken karage ginger + mushroom sauce 🥺

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Company forced Pak Harris to have his own pension suddenly, he even to be announced only a week before.

Pak Heng, the one who decided seems fine and act if it's usual thing.

Although I don't like Pak Harris professionally, doing something like this due to politic situation was too harsh & rude. in the past Pak Harris did a lot of things and makes me suffer, he did it just because like and dislikes, not objectively did it. Now seeing him suffer turns out made me sad.

People are so cruel somehow.

I mean, you can lay him off, but I thought he will get a chance to prepare himself at least one until 3 months, but it's only a week. Feels like lightning strike.

Yaa Allah please guard me from cruel people who can't appreciate people like these people. Aamiin

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A year after, everything changes. We changed. Happy changes, I also change. Just hoping all these changes are good for us, prove that we're evolving.

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I know exactly I'm just somebody he knew in his life, but see how he grows and evolved as a good person makes me happy.

Oruu, tante cuma bantuin daftarin basket doang sama nemenin mama nonton kamu basket, but I remember the first day you are joined Basketball you cried a lot, and now look who is this little boy, even some person who see you said, 'tuh liat, jago!!'. I also enjoyed watching you from afar during sparing, and currently you showed us how good you are on assist (somehow I was thinking you probably feel insecure on shooting, I believe one day you can be pro)

Dear Oru,

Whatever you do, I hope you do good. Thank you for always being nice and sweet to tante. Hopefully one day you can be a pro basketball player. Aamiin

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He said 'luck aku kalau sama Tante Oki bagus bagus'

Then who can't not love this sweet little creature 🥹

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Dear Happy Priguna,

Happy birthday! I wish nothing but the best for you and your family. I hope whatever you do, you do good.. I hope you, Ibu Sismi, Pak Pri, Kak Una, and Oru always get health and happiness.. I hope you get a lot of halal rizky, for you and your family.. I hope you always be a man like your name 'HAPPY', not a person that currently you are, Mr. Grumpy.... I hope you're able to evolve your self.. I hope you will become more mature.. I hope you can regulate your emotions, I hope you can communicate well whatever in your head, so everyone can fully understood what you want. I hope you become more sholeh, and sholat way more diligently..

Aamiin Yaa Rabbal Alamin ❤️

As you wish, I won't give you anything this time... Even the truth is I prepare special gift for you.. it's Official T-shirt Cockteu Twins, Official T-shirt RHCP, and Patagonia hat.. What should I do with these gift, Happy?

My last last wish, I hope we can be like we used to.. Aamiin Yaa Rabbal Alamin

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always choose Red Pill but still falling apart at the end.

Should I just choos Blue Pill and die young? So I won't feel any hurt

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You're an expertise of playing victim. Let me watching 🤗

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This morning, Ibu said that she and Bapak wanted to have croissant that previously Happy made for Idul Fitri Hampers (they still didn't realise that Happy the pne who made it). They said the croissant is totally good that makes them missed it. I said, Happy doesn't always made it, only if he has big order. Ibu said, "Happy yang buat Mbaoki? Itu enak banget! Happy bisa buatnya? Soalnya enak banget"

Happy, Ibu loves your food. Gyoza, Dimsum, Ramen, and now Croissant.

Ibu sincerely appreciates what you did!

The only weakness you had is your insecurity that makes you did a lot of stupid things, make you did bad things to other people.

Happy, lo tuh capable to do many things tho. But so many things in this world evolve, you just need to adapt and learn, admit that somehow you have to adapt and learn too from others. I've never underestimate you, if you feel so, I've never had intention to do so, sorry. Probably your insecurity makes you think that way.

Happy, you're cool enough to do a lot things. And you are fast learner too, you easily adapt on anything. I knew that!! but somehow you're moron enough that let your ego wins, and make you look you can't do a thing.

I believe, one day you can be mature enough that you need to evolve yourself, because you're actually that cool! Aamiin

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Kangen Kemlenyer 🥺

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Is it normal when you have a lot of in mind when you heard your parents doesn't feel well?

I feel anxious when I heard Ibu said she's kliyeungan, or same feeling when Bapak doesn't feel well and asked some vitamin to make his body feel more well

Pak, Bu.. sehat sehat dan bahagia yaaa. Aamiin Yaa Rabbal Alamin