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Do I Wanna Know?

Have you got colour in your cheeks? Do you ever get that fear that you can't shift The type that sticks around like something in your teeth? Are there some aces up your sleeve?

Di bar itu, tempat kita pertama bertemu dan berbagi cerita. Kulihat kau di sana. Namun ada dia yang lain di sampingmu. Ada rasa di mana aku ingin datang menghampiri, namun apakah aku perlu melakukan hanya untuk memahamimu lebih jauh? Sebelum aku menghancurkan malammu dengan dia, kutinggalkan bar itu dan menembus dinginnya hujan malam itu.

I dreamt about you nearly every night this week How many secrets can you keep? 'Cause there's this tune I found that makes me think of you somehow and I play it on repeat Until I fall asleep Spilling drinks on my settee

Di sini, duduk di atas sofa nyaman dan ditemani alunan lagu. Terbayang dirimu yang pernah kutemukan di tengah malam yang samar. Pernahkah terpikir olehmu bahwa aku berharap kau di sini? Atau aku hanyalah sebuah fase samar dari pertemuan-pertemuan lain dalam hidupmu. Kembali alunan lagu ini mengingatkanku pada malam itu. Ada sebuah perasaan kuat yang membuatku tak bisa berhenti memikirkan keberadaanmu. Botol kosong itu pun tak mampu menenggelamkan rasa yang terpendam.

(Do I wanna know) If this feeling flows both ways? (Sad to see you go) Was sort of hoping that you'd stay (Baby we both know) That the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can't say tomorrow day

Apakah kamu seperti aku sekarang ini? Tenggelam dalam perasaan yang berlarut, seperti dalam sebuah euphoria yang abadi. Apakah ini hanyalah bayang-bayang semu dari pertemuan itu? Hanya sebuah sintesa dari imaginasi akan keberadaan dirimu. Apakah malam itu menjadi bagian yang terlupakan begitu saja olehmu namun begitu indah dan nyata bagiku? Seolah seperti mimpi yang sempurna dan terus berputar di otakku. Mungkin hanya aku.

Crawling back to you Ever thought of calling when you've had a few? 'Cause I always do Maybe I'm too busy being yours to fall for somebody new Now I've thought it through Crawling back to you

Apakah kamu benar-benar merasakan apa yang kurasakan? Apakah memang hanya kamu dan tidak ada yang lain yang bisa membakar perasaan ini? Hanya kamu dan pikiran ini kembali melambung padamu.

Simmer down and pucker up I'm sorry to interrupt. It's just I'm constantly on the cusp of trying to kiss you I don't know if you feel the same as I do But we could be together if you wanted to

Mungkin kita bisa kembali bersama, mengingat dan merasakan kembali malam itu. Tapi entahlah… Apakah benar kamu merasakan apa yang kurasakan? Apakah kita benar-benar bisa bersama? Apakah kamu menginginkan ini semua?

Atau sebenarnya aku pun tidak ingin tahu apa yang kau rasakan tentang diriku?

(Do I wanna know?) Too busy being yours to fall (Sad to see you go) Ever thought of calling darling? (Do I wanna know?) Do you want me crawling back to you? inspirasi : https://www.youtube....h?v=bpOSxM0rNPM

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I’m Sorry

I know, I promised in my tumblr that I will consecutively write something in here. But my work is piling up. Some shits are happening in the factory that my company owned. For now, it’s still calm. But in the near future perhaps i need to go back and forth to the factory. Well, i don’t know. I don’t want to rant about it in here.

But, as I said before, i’m sorry. I’m busy and my mind is occupied by something that makes me unsure about myself. So, i guess i need to talk about that in here.

It is started by bumping into the same person every morning. He is a middle-aged guy from my neighbor. I bump him too often so we end up saying greetings and having a chat on the street. As i know, he is into textile business, got a lot of contacts here and there, sometimes disappeared for a few months and back to my country and meet him again while I’m on the walk to office and he is having a morning jog. 

Turns out, he is asking me to run his business. He is not sure about it at first, but we end up having a talk about it, asking if i’m interested in it or not. He got children of his own, but no-one to continue what he is doing. So it’s a kinda ‘take it or leave it’ kinda thing for me and it’s bugging me a lot.  

Because, first of all, it’s kinda weird for a 24 year-old girl like me, travelling a lot with a middle-aged man like him. It’s kinda unacceptable in my society tho, but as you can see, i’m not thinking too much about it.

The one bugged me the most is the fact that i should travel a lot again. While leaving my mom behind, alone at home. I’ve been abroad for 4 years. I want to grab a chance to travel again. But to leave her again, it’s kinda hard.

The good thing is, this nice old man also being considerate by stating those obvious points that if i’m down for this, i need to be abroad for 4-5 months just for one project. He is also saying that he doesn’t want to interfere my private life. Like, “You can try for a month, to see what it feels like and then just decide if you wanna in or out of it”. It’s not like i need to follow him in the near future, but if so, i wanna try something new as well. Oh gosh. it’s hard for me to think tho. 

I will try to find sometime to meet him again and pulling some new information about this. Like how deep is one month trial being his apprentice? Also need more convincing details for me to talk about it with my family.  

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Falling in Love

It’s rather a hard question for me Have you ever fallen in love with someone before? I did once, head over heels about him But now it’s been bitter for me, or maybe it’s just felt completely nothing.

At some point i’m trying not to fall in love anymore. It’s just i’m constantly distancing myself from people. I don’t want to go that deep anymore. I don’t know why, but I know i can’t live in the moment.

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Month of Writing

Well, this idea just suddenly came to me. I will try to produce several writings on this month and one topic for one day. Since I already missed April 1st, I will try to make it up for you to read.

It’s gonna be random, maybe a short story, maybe a poem, or just a random opinion about something. But I will try my best.

Oh, perhaps i will write something in different languages too, like in chinese or bahasa. 

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Tribute to Yuko-Sensei

Actually, as I’m writing this, I need to dig in my Whatsapp conversation to know exactly the date when Yuko passed away. It was November 12th, 2015, I was on a bus, going home after the tiring work day. As I opened a message from a friend, she wrote that Yuko just passed away that afternoon. I was so shocked that I’m holding all my tears through. As my bus stopped near my house, i was rushing, running, and crying to my way home.

It’s not a good feeling tho, it was not at all. The last time i met her was at the end of 2014, I just came back from Taiwan and she just came back from Japan. She gave me and my mom a handkerchief from Japan. That’s all. That’s the last time I met her. Nothing special, she was just grateful enough that I already finished my education in Taiwan. That’s all. 

And after a long one year of not having any word with her. I got a heart-breaking message like that. I just couldn’t take it well at that time. She is not only a teacher for me. She is kind of a friend, a sister, someone that makes me feel like ‘ I’m a part of her family as well’. Overall she is just a good person.

Actually, her life in Indonesia is not really good. She lived in densely populated area in Jakarta, it’s not a good place for her children. Came from a good family from Japan. She needed to struggle in such a small house in a poor are, where most people are not highly educated. She was struggling hard there. Feeling lonely, out of place. But she did her best for her children, that’s what i like about her. 

She was married with a Indonesian-Arabian guy named Cholid. Actually, they met in New Zealand, and Yuko decided to marry this guy. Long story short, Yuko lived in Indonesia and struggled to survive here. To be quite honest, maybe her husband is not great in making money, but he is a good guy after all. As a Muslim husband, he didn’t even try to restrict Yuko’s privacy or even constrict with the fact that Yuko is working well and making more money than him. Usually, most of the man’s pride is playing in this game. It’s like a blasphemy if the wife makes more than the husband. But he is not like that, he encourage her, and didn’t just stop her from doing what she likes to do.

Anyway, long story short. Last night, I went to her house. To help her family to write a letter for Yuko’s Family in Japan. So, yeah. That’s how I got a full story of her being hospitalized for 4 days, before finally going home in peace. 

Actually, becase I don’t know how to communicate my feelings with and about her, I ended up writing this. Yuko-san, i hope you are fine there. I guess there’s no need for you to be worried about your family, they are doing fine. Maybe not as good or as under control like while you were still here. But, they will survive. Basically, I miss our little talk, miss your presence. Thank you for everything you showed me, taught me, and guide me. I hope we’ll meet again.  

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so much bullshit in one day

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Basically, i will humbly pardon you from your stupid assumption, but will not pardon your stupidity

Me

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There is something about death. The sure thing is, we are gonna die. The unsure thing is when?

me

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There are so many things that I've started but in the end, they don't have an ending.

me

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Beast

There is something unique about hatred. It’s like feeding the beast inside you, you gave him anger and bitterness. Once he grew bigger, you can’t stop it. And when it’s getting bigger, he will take control over you. The beast became unstoppable and you can’t do a thing about it.

 As for me, the beast is just there, growing up. But I also grow the kindness over me. I keep on waiting, until the time when the beast and kindness will clash on each other. I’m waiting to see, which one will win over me.

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♥ BB GUN : MAGIC EYE GIRLFRIEND ♥

…i didn’t cry drawing it…

[trigger warning: transphobia, transphobic slurs]

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Homeless shelter is transformed into 5-star restaurant, hot food and warm hearts all around.  See the full video here. 

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The nicest people I’ve ever met were covered in tattoos and piercings and the most judgemental people I’ve ever met are the ones that go to church every Sunday.

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commonly misused words - learn the proper usage of these words to get your way up to any English proficiency exams - IELTS, TOEFL, GRE, etc.

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marine by mistake killed by following orders

Engraved Zippo lighters from the Vietnam War.

~ Cowan’s Auctions