First person narration, angst, panic attacks, tears.
This was an important performance, SKZ prepared very carefully.I've been preparing for so long, I wanted to be the best for STAY, I wanted to be proud of me! It was a big award where we wanted to receive a big award, Daesang. The boys were tense, they did everything professionally that was needed. The performance was supposed to be with the song "MEGAVERSE" and everything turned out perfectly.
"What are our lovely lady thinking about?" Minho jokingly asked, patting me on the back as I was warming up in front of the studio mirror.
"I'm worried, Ho, I want to show YOU that I deserve to be a part of Stray kids." I bit my lip and shook my body before turning to Minho in a half turn.
"You are an integral part of us, and whoever disagrees with this goes fuck themselves," Minho said briefly, but very accurately. Lily laughed at his words
"What are you laughing at, it's time for us to go"
"And where are the others?"
"Seungmin and Changbin are now buying water for everyone, Chan is discussing some points with staff, and everyone else is waiting in the car. Come on,Bear...You're too slow"
I left with Minho, the atmosphere was quite tense and everyone felt it. We sat down in the car:I was sitting next to Felix, who was taking new selfies for Bubble and we took a selfie together; Jeongin had already fallen asleep on Chan's shoulder, Changbin and Hyunjin were jokingly arguing; Seungmin was listening to music on headphones, and Jison and Minho were pestering each other. Lily exhaled and whispered to Felix, "I'm so worried, freckle..as if I don't have the right to make mistakes."
"Oh... Lily..this is absolutely normal, our work anticipates constant stress. Firstly, you are an ordinary living person and life without mistakes is impossible, STAY will love you any, like other Members, you will not get worse from this," Felix said with a smile and took Lily's hand in his, he understood how important support is to her now.
Some fans literally used the phrase "I'm ot8, but Lily..."
I put my head on Felix's shoulder, and he squeezed my hand harder.
We arrived at the filming location, and staff began to prepare us. I had bright makeup done with black shaded arrows, blue lenses were put on and the tone of my face was adjusted so that it shone aesthetically, perfectly. My dyed burgundy hair was twisted into a lot of curls, and my clothes were a rather strict version, an earpiece was hooked on my ear.The boys were having fun and laughing, of course it was loud and noisy in the SKZ Dressing Room...I tried to join in their conversation, but I just made it worse for myself.I don't belong here.I looked at myself in the mirror, my throat constricted, I just whispered to myself:"a living doll." I don't want to be here, I have to be somewhere else. Why such thoughts?The first signs of anxiety.
Chan noticed my condition and gently patted me on the shoulder: "Princess,is everything okay?".I'm scared."Chan frowned and took me to the nearest couch so the boys wouldn't see them.He stroked her hands with his fingers, his lips briefly kissed her forehead so as not to erase the tone from her face."My beautiful one, you are perfect and everything will go well, you make the STAY and boys so happy. You'll like this performance," Chan patted his back and gave a bottle of water in his hands, "And after the award we'll go home and watch some movie, okay?"
I nodded and hugged him briefly, my lips were frozen: "Thank you, my love"
It was time to go on stage, I gave the boys a bright smile and we went on stage to the noisy STAY, it became dark.The spotlight fell on me, and I took a deep breath, ready to dive into the dance. But suddenly my heart started pounding wildly, pounding loudly in my chest, I'm suffocating again. The light became blinding, the sounds became unbearable, and the air around me became suffocating. My vision was blurred, and my hands were shaking uncontrollably. Tears welled up in my eyes, I want to cry so much, fear gripped me. I was engulfed by a powerful force that engulfed me, completely paralyzing me. Every muscle in my body was tense, and it was impossible to control the waves of panic that were spreading through me.I was engulfed by a powerful force that engulfed me, completely paralyzing me. Every muscle in my body was tense, and it was impossible to control the waves of panic that were spreading through me. I desperately tried to regain control, to suppress the panic, but it continued to intensify. The adrenaline coursing through my veins only fueled the fire of my anxiety. The performance I had been working so hard on was slipping away, disappearing into the darkness around me. The music deafened me, I looked around in confusion, it's time to perform. My body was moving, I didn't understand what I was doing, my body was working automatically.The reality of the situation has dissolved, and all that remains is an overwhelming sense of impending doom. Thoughts raced through my head, saying that I wasn't good enough, that I would embarrass myself in front of everyone. It was as if the weight of the world was pressing down on my shoulders, hampering my every move.It was my turn to play, my body continued to move gracefully at the same time sharply, singing broke from my lips, I tried my best to suppress tears and shaking in my body, just not now, please.During one of the elements of the choreography, I exchanged glances with Hyunjin when the scenes were going on at the frn while there was a part of Jison. Hyunjin nodded to me softly and squeezed my hand for a moment, and I smiled gratefully.With all my determination, I overcame my fear. The path ahead was uncertain, but I didn't let panic dictate my fate. The support of my boys and the love of art that fueled my passion became beacons of light leading me forward. "Welcome to the Stray Kids HOT MEGAVERSE" Felix and I dictated this last line together. The lights went out, and Staye's deafening support swept through the hall.When the last notes echoed through the hall, I was overcome by a sense of accomplishment. I faced my fears face to face without giving in to panic. It wasn't a flawless performance, but it was filled with sincere emotions and unwavering determination.The applause that followed was dedicated not only to the performance, but also to the resilience and strength it took to overcome my panic attack.I exhaled exhausted and we went down from the stage to the idol area. I bowed politely to my friends and colleagues. We sat down at our table, and under the table I felt Chan's supportive grip and Hyunjin's proud gaze.I squeezed Chan's fingers under the table.From that day on, I vowed never to let fear dictate my path. I knew that panic attacks were part of my personality, but they didn't define me. I will continue my work. I'm part of the Stray Kids. Hwang Lily will never fade away.
Aini, previously the youngest in the family before her cousin Yongbok came into the picture (she hates her for it) is known to be a little dramatic. she's definitely a momma's girl and cries to her for anything. she enjoys picking on her older brothers Channie and Changbin and likes to steal their mothers attention from them. with that said, she is a crybaby.
☙ ɪᴄᴏɴɪᴄ ᴍᴏᴍᴇɴᴛs
although being a good actor, Aiko finds it very hard to act as Aini since aiko doesnt like doing cute stuff so sometimes she breaks character to silently cringe at herself
the first to defend her mothers honor against her fathers act of adultery (she just wanted to be included in the drama)
flexes the fact that she's trilingual (eng, kor, and jpn) and uses it against her cousin
while playing the silent game in the second skz family episode, she was hiding on the couch but when her aunt Lee Know got close she ended up on the top of the couch and fell off which made her 'cry' for her eomma
she secretly loves being able to be a 'girly girl' while playing Aini since she doesnt get to do it often being constantly surrounded by her members
in the newest episode, she had a rivalry with her cousin Yongbok since she didnt like having another little girl to steal the attention from her
Baby Daddy Kenji Sato! Who thrives when he sees you and his baby girl cheering for him on his baseball games. Every time he's successful at running across all bases, he points at the both of you and winks, smiling ear to ear.
Baby Daddy Kenji Sato! Who cries every time he sees you're having a hard time breastfeeding the baby, not being able to control the tears rolling down your cheeks, as the little one aggressively tries to get her food.
Baby Daddy Kenji Sato! Who always buys customized clothes for you and the baby to wear when you go watch his baseball games, or just to lounge around the house.
Baby Daddy Kenji Sato! He takes pictures of you and the baby, plastering them all over the fridge, his locker, his car even his phone case.
Baby Daddy Kenji Sato! Who tries his best to entertain the baby so you can have some time to yourself, whether it is to take a relaxing bath or just go outside get some fresh air.
Baby Daddy Kenji Sato! He always praises you for the amazing work, taking care of the baby and him. "I'm so lucky to have you, baby"; "Our baby is gonna grow up to admire every single thing you do"; "Even with your hair all tangled, you're the most beautiful woman in the world, sweetheart"; "I feel so grateful to have you in my life, you have no idea".
Baby Daddy Kenji Sato! He gets all excited when the baby is babbling, letting out all kinds of baby noises, he finds it the cutest thing.
hi! can i request an audio of hyunjin whimpering during sex? 🫶🏻
MY FIRST REQUEST AHHH THANK YOU :) you can request anytime, never be shy!
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hyunjin smut audio || hyunjin whimpering trying to fuck you quietly on the tour bus <333 enjoy
everything is directly edited by me; the clapping sounds, the whimpers are pitched, even some hyunjin hisses from his lives. always give credit if you repost <3
hey, love your audios! i've literally been looking for a tumblr that posts them forever omg. could you do a changbin or choi san audio next? thank you! <3
Haii,I already made one for bin so here’s one for San! ( ˘ ³˘)
✧˚⋆𝐓𝐖(𝐍𝐒𝐅𝐖 𝐀𝐔𝐃𝐈𝐎)⊹˚.♡
❀ San x reader
❀ San loves to tear you apart but in the end he makes sure to take care of u and make you feel loved (˶‾᷄ ⁻̫ ‾᷅˵)
Hiya pretty<3 I was reading a few of your works (after stumbling across your keeho drabble) and I genuinely couldn't stop thinking about them 🥴
I was wondering if you could base a switch!keeho fic on this video 👀 (this video has me in a chokehold I swear..)
If you can't then that's totally fine ♡ I hope you have a lovely rest of your day 🩷
i told you to stay still.
yoon keeho x fem reader genre ౨ৎ explicit
🎀: awe hi darling! somehow i’m glad that that keeho drabble did wonders ?? also i am sooo sorry this took so long, i hope you like it!
🔞 / nsfw link
🔞 warnings: switch!keeho and implied switch!reader, pee, mention of squirting, multiple orgasms, keeho is a crier.
sitting atop the counter, all keeho could do was throw his head back as you jerked your hand back and forth on his length, tugging on his cock as keeho whined loud and clear, moaning out your name as he bucked his hips.
keeho liked to occasionally buck his hips despite you slapping his cock to get him to stop, he just wanted to cum, that's all.
"move and i'll stop." you say with a stern voice, warning keeho as he whined, head hitting the mirror with a thud as he desperately tried to stop himself from moving around.
shaking his head, keeho tearily looked at you as he sniffled, "baby please, i wanna cum.." he whimpered, droplets of tears cascading down his cheeks as you cooed, wiping them off with your clean hand, "then stay still, 'kay? i'll let you cum." you say with a smile before picking up the pace as you jerked keeho off, making the man moan loudly when you squeezed his length, making him burst out into tears as he sobbed, hips desperately trying to stay still but he ends up bucking his hips, chasing your hand.
letting it slide, you continued to pump keeho's length, eyes fixated on how keeho cried as he watched you milk him dry with no mercy.
keeho's moans were loud and breathy as he called out to you, begging you to let him cum as you mindlessly pumped his length, paying no mind to keeho's voice calling out to you.
throwing his head back with a moan, you watched as spurts of cum started to cover your hand as keeho started to cum all over you and his length, globes of cum landing on his torso as he sighed in content meanwhile you continued to jerk him off 'til keeho was coming down his orgasm.
continuing with your fast pace, keeho kept on writhing as you jerked him off, now going towards a second orgasm, possibly even a third. he couldn't even tell you to stop, merely a few moans and whimpers were all that slipped from keeho's lips as he continued to stop himself from bucking his hips into your hand, feeling way too overstimulated to say anything.
tears subsiding, keeho was already nearing his next orgasm, merely just throwing his head back before he released spurts of cum and pee all over your hand and his torso, jets of pee hitting his chest as he panted.
you waited until keeho was done cumming all over your hand before you let go of his swollen cock, smiling at him sweetly before you wiped the cum off your hand.
keeho reached for your waist, pulling you in for a sweet and brief kiss before he pulled away, lips planted on your neck as he sucked on the delicate skin, "think I could make you squirt like that too?" keeho mutters against your skin before sinking his teeth on your neck, marking you up.
bf!chan who gives back hugs whenever he sees your back turned to him, every minute every second.
bf!chan who is unable to keep his hands to himself whenever he's near you. hugging you, kissing you, stroking your hand, everything.
bf!chan who gives soft kisses and pecks to your neck, rubbing his nose as he does it.
bf!chan who is so eager to give but so reluctant to receive, he wants to treat you like the royalty you are.
bf!chan who takes you on star gazing, walking on the beach at 4AM, driving around the whole city, watch the sunset and sunrise as you eat a tub of ice cream together type of dates.
bf!chan who shows up at your house no matter what the time is to kiss you after you jokingly text 'i want to kiss you'
bf!chan who lets you paint his nails whatever color you want. purple? he loves it. metallic gold? perfect. pink glitter? his favorite.
bf!chan who spoils you like crazy. he wouldn't let you say no to him. if he could, he'd give you gifts every millisecond. he loves your reaction.
bf!chan who never forgets anything you mention, even the smallest details. he has his attention on you 25/8. you say you like sunsets? he'd take a picture of them everytime, send a pic and say 'reminds me of you' or 'not as beautiful as you are'
bf!chan who keeps a picture of you in his wallet, and also a picture of you in a locket necklace. everytime he's away from you, he'd look at them.
bf!chan who says 'you look beautiful' everyday even if he didn't see you at all. he knows you look beautiful no matter what.
bf!chan who takes you slowly, whispering sweet nothing's in your ear as he moves slowly.
bf!chan who loves missionary, so he could kiss all over your face and watch how you crumble under him.
bf!chan who does anything you asked. you like rough? he'd make you pass out. slow and sensual? prepare for tons of hugging and kissing, feeling your breath mix with his.
bf!chan who never lets you unsatisfied. that man will NEVER stop unless he sees you have the best orgasm of your life.
bf!chan who takes you anywhere and anytime he could. (with your consent ofc!!)
bf!chan who loves eating you out and satisfying you. his priority is you and only you, he doesn't care about himself much. but if you say you want to suck him off or ride him, who is he to say no?
bf!chan who loves when you take control. maybe he would admit it. but probably not. he loves it when you finger him, order him around, and maybe peg him. (hehe)
bf!chan who is a god at bed, but also a god of aftercare aswell. he'd carry you to bathroom, wash you and massage you. you are not allowed to refuse.
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