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You make me feel the way i do when I see the first of Christmas lights hit the stoop

And also how they feel when they look alone washed down after the end of season

The way a kid feels with their first puppy

Or the way they feel when it finally passes on

You make me live between hate and regret and a joy for the times we spent even if it couldn’t be forever

Speaking of forever who decided that was long enough

I would be one with you longer if I could

Endless annoyance at the foot of a tragedy

Written in the stars by someone much stronger than me

Who is me

Someone who’s written into existence by the way you speak

You speak my thoughts into actions when you fall asleep

I long to be in your dreams

Think of me when the clouds cross the sky

Or the waves touch the sea

Going back on retreat

Like I do when I run from you

Scared of the way you make me see blue

Blue like the way I feel when you forget me

To think of her alone when you should think of me

The way I’m petting your hair but you’ll never know

You’re far away but close as can be

I miss you when you fall asleep

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Micro pills I’m microdosing

Take prescriptions

Floating doses

Die tonight babe will you notice

What I said when we were loaded

Meant it then and now I’m sippin

On this bottle with prescription

When I wake she’s there alone

Empty bottles make her throne

Queen of nothing

Queen of dreams

Loved forever

Never seen

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I wish I could forget about you

The way you so easily stopped thinking of me

Or find a way to hate you

Break things

Throw things

Be angry the way I see everyone else

So free

Letting it out

No fucks to give

Screaming angry words at me like

All of the good ones the

“I love you”s meant nothing

Nothing for me or you or anyone else

Because words are words

But you meant nothing

Maybe because the one I want is as unreachable as the sun and the stars

And just as far away

Maybe because some people don’t deserve happy endings but instead to constantly be reminded of the things they’ll never have

Constantly hoping maybe one day

ONE DAY

Someone will come around that makes you feel the way you used to

Before everything fell apart and no one

NO ONE CAN FIX IT

Because the only person that can will never speak again only words already said remain

Lingering in the air with no explanation

Except what they are so that’s what they will be

Just words.

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everybody telling me life’s short but i wanna die

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Human conscience is slowly rotting with every word

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please keep telling me what to do with my life

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