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Dreams (10/04/2020)

I dreamt of giving birth to a triplets. Masaya pero di ko sure kung ano ung meaning.

Si Jem daw yung doctor. Tas nagulat ako kasi tatlo ung lumabas saking baby.

Di ko alam kung sino ang daddy. :)

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Your personality is a result of your continuous struggles in life. 

I am not who I am today, if not because of what happened yesterday. #notetoself

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Tingin ka ng tingin. Para kang buang. 

Ayusin mo buhay mo Xenildred. 

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Facebook Warrior

Me as a FACEBOOK WARRIOR. Daming PO, ano po? HAHAHAHA po.

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BABY NAME

Some changes in my preferred baby name:

MALE: Pax Midori Meaning:  Pax = Peace (latin), Midori = Green (Japanese)

FEMALE: Lex Eowyn Meaning: Lex = Law (latin), Eowyn = horse joy (old english), a shieldmaiden who slayed Lord of Nazguls in LOTR.

UNISEX: Lux Miro Gil Meaning: Lux = Light (latin),  Miro = Precious/Valuable One (elvish), Gîl = Star (elvish)

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ABUNDANCE! BIYAYA! GRASYA! BLESSING!

Dapat magbitaw para makatanggap Pag masyadong malaki swapang ka haha You get what u think about most of the time Every moment is a blessing..every moment has a blessing Pag d mo nraramdaman, d mo nakkita, ikaw ang may problema Pag d mo mahanap, hanapin mo. Pag d mo mahanap, hanapin mo... Kasi andyan lang yan e. Pag may nawala, pag umiyak ka babalik? Idilat ang iyong mata, at buksan ang iyong puso Bat yung wala ang tnitngnan mo, tngnan mo ung meron Taong palaging natawa ttagal ang buhay, ang laging galit naikli ang buhay. Baka last day n nya. Haha.

HEARTSET!

 #1. I flow - ang taong madaloy ay dadaluyan. Blessing comes best after giving. Ang kontrabida laging pinapatay sa pelikula. Pag d yan namatay, may part 2. Dun ka tumutok sa positibo.lagi ka dumuduro kaya lagi ka naddurog. Kng blakero ka, and you expect to be blessed, unfair ka. Scarcity mindset: i block 

#2. I connect - wag mong baliwalain ung mga bagay na d na naggawa ng iba buong buhay nla. Be a blessing hunter. Pag naninira ka ng iba, ikaw ang nasisira hindi sila.  Yung masakit kelangan lulunin, kasi ung mapait na gamot wala kang ibang kailangan kundi lunukin. Pag pera lang kulang kalahati lang yun.. pera + values = blessing, pera + family = blessing. Kng nasan ka man, that's where blessing is. Materyal at hindi materyal un ang totoong biyaya. Scarcity mindset: i disconnect 

#3. I attract reward - Karma is not punishment, it is payment. Kng d man sau ang karma, sa pnakammahal mo o s pnkamahalaga sau. Your happiness is your choice. 7 billion people, ilan lang ang nagtthank you sa Panginoon. Scarcity mindset: i gather payback 

#4. I choose to be positive - 90% of media news are negative. See the positive in everything. scarcity: i choose to be negative 

#5. I appreciate my journey and everyone's journey -  no one wants to hurt you intentionally, dont take everything personally. The pain I give is not because of you. My pain is my pain, it has nothing to do with you, so do not take it personally. Even if you feel justified na magalit, always remember na wala ako knalaman sa kanyang galit, nagkataon lang na andito ako kaya ako  nadali. All your actions stem from your core, if your core is wonderful it will show. We cannot be like you, so dont make me like you. Everyone is carrying something. You don’t judge the tardiness, you punish the tardiness. scarcity mindset: i mind only my journey 

#6. I evolve into a higher being - thoughts, words, feelings, appetite and sexual desire inhibit you from being higher. Bawasan everything, and then you're evolving. Thoughts: Everytime you get angry, something is happening inside. Negative, worry, doubt, eliminate those. Ok lang mag asal hayop mung pinanganak kang hayop. Tao lang ang napunta sa langit. Kahit ilang milyon ang pagsilbihan ng upuan na yan. Di yan ppunta sa langit. Words: Words are faster than a running horse. Ang salita sa puso nananahan. Kahit magsorry ka nasaktan ka na.   Feelings: Sexual Desire: scarcity mindset: i devolve into a lower being 

#7. I create balance - salamat may trabaho tayong lahat, pero kailngn padin ng balance. Do and Be. Self: kelan mo huling naalagaan ang sarili mo? Family& friends: spend some time with them. Rest: 8 hrs sleep and take a break. You're main job is your well being. Recreation: kelan mo huling gnawa ang iyong passion. Health: more fiber, nuts, fresh, grains. Mdmi kang mdming kailangan gawin na kailangan ng katawan. Mission: helping one person at a time. scarcity mindset: i focus on wealth and work  In omnibus amare In omnibus servire  In omnibus amare Et servire Domino  In everything, love and serve the Lord.

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Cheers for a happier life in 2018!

New Year’s Resolutions (?):

- Decide what you really want to happen with your life - Work smarter - Do not procrastinate - Save for the future! - Go to Mass every Sunday - Go to confession - Bring Edcel to the Lord! - Decide every morning that you will be happy EVERY DAY.

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A day before New Year

It is a parent's role to support his or her child's decisions, aspirations and choices. No matter what your child is or will be, should always be a reflection of their choices, NOT YOURS.

They should learn to grow up owning their mistakes, live up to what they want to be in the future, struggle to achieve things, get up from failures, love who they want, feel appreciated on their achievements, and be supported on their endeavors and choices in life.

Children only wants acceptance and support. Other than that, they may feel wrong, unaccepted, failure, incompetent, self-doubting, timid, weird, etc.

It is a bliss if a child is born strong-willed and confident, but what horror it is if they’re born not.

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Baby Names

I finally decided my future baby’s name!! 

MALE: Pax Miro Gil  Meaning: Pax = Peace (latin), Miro = Precious/Valuable One (elvish), Gîl = Star (elvish)

FEMALE: Lex Eowyn Meaning: Lex = Law (latin), Eowyn = horse joy (old english), a shieldmaiden who slayed Lord of Nazguls in LOTR.

In God’s holy name, I shall use these names for my babies and love them as much as I love myself and my future husband.

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So long, 2016!

Di ko na i-eenglish. Baka mas mahirapan pa ako. Nahihirapan na nga ako ilabas yung nasa utak ko.

Napaka-ironic ng taon na ito para sa akin:

1. Yung ayaw mabuntis, nabubuntis. 2. Yung gusto mabuntis, hirap na hirap mabuntis. 3. Yung sobrang bait ang dating sa public, konti ang naniniwala. 4. Yung mukhang mamamatay tao, madaming naniniwala. 5. Yung ubod ng relihiyoso, di marunong magpatawad. 6. Yung di naman ganoon karelihiyoso, marunong magpatawad. 7. Yung pagpatay, di kinukunsinte kontrang kontra ang simbahan. 8. Yung pangangaliwa, pinagbibingi bingihan lang ng simbahan. 9. Yung may cheapipay na storya sa pelikula, bentang benta. 10. Yung magaganda ang storyang pelikula, konti ang tumatangkilik.

Anyway. So much for things that disturb me. Focusing on the brighter side:

1. Nasa Pilipinas na sila Mama. 2. Na-promote ako sa trabaho. 3. May increase ako sa sweldo this year. 4. Hindi kami nasuko ni Edcel sa isa’t-isa. 5. May tao akong pinaglalaanan ng pagmamahal (Edcel). 6. Stable na trabaho ng mga kapatid ko. 7. Nakapagcontribute ako ng pambayad s bahay. 8. May bahay na kaming maituturing na amin. 9. May naihuhulog na ako sa investment part ng insurance ko. 10. May subordinate na ako sa trabaho. 11. 2 lang ang absent ko na Sunday Mass. (Sana next year wala na) 12. Healthy ang pamilya ko. 13. Healthy ako kahit papano. Walang sobrang malalang sakit. 14. Healthy si Edcel. 15. Nakapunta ako ng Mindoro this year. 16. Nakabalik ako ng Singapore this year. 17. Easy to reach ang mga friends ko nung college. 18. Wala AKONG kaaway. (Sa aking pananaw) 19. Nanalo si Duterte bilang Presidente. 20. May pera ako pang-invest sa stocks. 21. Nakahanap na ko ng bahay na bibilhin.

Nawa sa 2017:

1. Maging mas responsable ako sa trabaho. 2. Maging mas pasensyosa ako sa bahay, pati kay Edcel. 3. Maging mas maganda pa ako. Charot. 4. Maging mas mapagmahal na girlfriend. 5. Maging mas magaling sa paghawak ng pera. 6. Maibalik ko ang dating relasyon namin ng Panginoon.

GLORY TO GOD!

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#malandi #TextNaChatPaa #WalaAkongPakeKungAlamNyangMayGFKa #IkawBa? #AlamMoBangMayGFKa? Part 2

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#malandi #WalaAkongPakeKungAlamNyangMayGFKa #IkawBa? #AlamMoBangMayGFKa? Part 1

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BLAAAH

Missing my intimate moments with tumblr. Hope to be back soon.

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BLAAAH

I am buying books, not to read today but to read in the future. I’ll build a library full of novels, comics, instructional books and magazine where I can spend my day, my lazy day, knowing I’ve had enough of my time living for the world. This time I’m living for me.

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So this is love?

I can't understand my feelings. I thought of love as too superficial injusticely. Now that I'm holding it in my hands, I just can't seem to loose it. I'm too bounded to be removed. It seeps deep into me that any thoughts and possible causes of removal consequently shots searing pain in my chest, much unbearable than all that's formerly. I've become too dependent of his presence, his scent, his feel. One thing I thought was too above one's self is dependency. To live a life to someone, for someone, with someone. That, I thought I have understood all my life. And that I thought I wouldn't feel and do whenever these fortunate event happen. With great effort, I'm trying to give a part of space or something for myself. That, I know he did. Why from listening to all my rants about giving something for yourself and not always and only to someone. My mind's not getting any more focused. I should sleep na. It's 11:30pm btw. Wew.

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Beyond grateful. Happy in love. #Baby #EdcelCatoy