I hate the stubborn fat at the top of my thighs! I’ve tried work outs but it doesn’t help maybe I need to try different ones? Body check in toilet again not too bad, I like my spine showing a little but having to pose to get that to happen is so annoying! I want to lose so much I’m currently about 103lbs :( if I’m strict with myself I’ll lose in no time!
Edtwt is so much better than edtblr at the moment, it’s like everyone has became inactive.
Tried body checking my back from the weekend, need to lose a lot!!! I miss my body from 2020 I’m 103lbs now and I use to be 88lbs maybe lower but can’t remember as I didn’t weigh myself as often then as i do now >_<
You can slightly see some bones but I wish they were naturally prominent rather than having to be in a certain pose for them to be more visible! I want people to be worried, I want to look fragile and I will!
So far from my goal and I just don’t feel motivated, or as if I have any plan. I make sure I do move a lot so I have my Apple Watch to help me keep track of that. I try to choose low calorie foods or just try hold off eating anything till I feel light headed. I’m not tracking my calories as best as I could, I’m just making sure what ever I’m eating is low in calories. I should probably start tracking that way I would probably see results. Please comment any tips and tricks <3
• Make sure to only eat my lunch if feeling faint and dizzy
• Minimum 10,000 steps
• Eat slowly that way my mind will believe I’m full and try and reduce being bloated
I have porridge, banana and some strawberries making my total cal 251 however I do have a lära bar which has 125 cals in which I’ll eat before I go to the gym and if I’m feeling hungry I will either have a hot chocolate with no sugar, a 7up or water.
I’m trying to slowly reduce the amount of calories I eat in a day that way I won’t be bloated and help me lose weight. I’ll take it easy if I’m feeling light headed etc.
For dinner I’ll try mainly have soups etc or small portions of solids and more veg.
Ugh look how gross I look I think my weight is 46kg I just want to be 40kg or lower! I wish my bone were prominent and stuck out, I wish I had a thigh gap, I wish my legs and arms were more dainty I want people to talk about how small and fragile I am. I hate this.
I want people to whisper “is she sick?” behind my back. I want to take off my baggy sweater to reveal the xxs T-shirt underneath and have the room go quiet. I want cheekbones and big tired eyes. I want to be the regular who’s just a black coffee, please, every morning. I want to forget I have a limit and just forget to eat. I want people to get excited when I eat an apple, just an apple thank God she’s eating something. I want my fridge to be nothing but water and a bag of iceberg lettuce. I want to forget what its like to binge. I want to stop taking any comfort in eating at all. I want to not eat because adding up calories is too much work. I want bruises on my spine from the sit-ups. i want to get under my UGW without noticing. I want to be thin.
• Stop standing up so fast. You know damn well that you get dizzy from that, so stand up slowly. If you still get dizzy or start to black out, sit back down and take deep breaths until you go back to normal, and then try to stand up slowly again.
• Don’t work out until you pass out or puke. Just walk. It burns a lot calories and it’s much easier to do. I do this instead of working out and I lose up to 3 lbs a day sometimes.
• Sleep (if you can). Your body is tired as fuck. You don’t eat very much and sleeping will help re-energize you.
I won’t tell you to eat. I know a stupid tumblr post won’t suddenly make your disorder go away. I just want you to try your best to stay safe. Believe it or not, I love you. We’re a big family and we would all feel like shit if you died because of this. If you ever get the urge to recover, take it and run.