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sick to death of everyone being rail thin and wearing their hair in a slicked back bun. this summer and forever i'm all about big thighs big boobs big butts and perhaps most importantly big hair

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I hope one day very soon I transtrend for the last time and go back to being cis for real. I hope soon I won't have to pretend and I can become an actual real respectable person again.

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it's been long enough since the original online transmedicalist wars that i think we, as gender criminals and binary perverters, could reapproach the possibility of re-incorporating two depreciated pieces of vocabulary:

trans*, with the asterisk representing identities that aren't transgender, but share certain experiences of violating the gender and sex binaries (i.e. intersex folks, crossdressers who go on hormones, drag performers, etc), and

genderqueer, not as a specific identity, but as an umbrella term for any person, whether trans or cis or both or neither, who queers gender.

the depreciation of this vocabulary was pretty bad-faith and wrapped up in the aforementioned online transmedicalist wars -- hell, dropping "genderqueer" as an umbrella term was specifically pushed by radfems (both trans-exclusive and -inclusive) on the premise that "queer is a slur."

any subsequent attempts to create or use new vocabulary to mean similar concepts has been met with ridicule and bad faith. many mainstream media outlets use "nonbinary" to replace "genderqueer," but are met with rejection because nonbinary is a specific identity, not an umbrella term, and calling someone who does not identify as trans, or who does identify with one or both binary genders, "nonbinary" is considered misgendering to many.

but it's a new decade. we are currently, right now, struggling to articulate our shared struggles as gender-variant peoples under this new wave of worldwide fascism. as a medically transitioning person who fits the oldschool use of "genderqueer," and who doesn't fit into either "trans" or "cis" categories, i've been struggling to articulate my experiences using any of the current popular trans vocabulary. maybe it's time to revisit these words and assess their use through new eyes.

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I get that this is mostly a me thing but seeing so many posts making fun of "holy blood cannibalism pomegranate deer" style writing just makes me sad ;-; . guys that's a lot of people's first stab at poetry that's hobby art that's a vulnerable thing to post those are passion projects...

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my kin type is abortion. I spiritually identify as a miscarriage. ever since I was a little girl I always knew I would've been happiest as a pile of red mush on a grimy fluorescent lit tile floor. growing to full term and being born and alive sorta feels like... when you were at school and you break one of their meaningless rules, like you're in primary school and you sneak back into the classroom at lunch time because it's cold and the other kids hate you, and then you get caught and you're staring into the furious eyes of someone 3 times your size and strength who has the power to ruin your life on a whim. it's like the universe or god or whatever is the angry teacher catching me "inside at break time" (daring to be alive and think I have a human soul like everyone else) and she won't hesitate to remind me of the power she has to inflict punishment endlessly. so yeah, any pronouns are fine.

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Try internalizing that arguing with other queers on the internet about theory is not the same as activism.

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Cafe Depresso Bratislava

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hw paintings (2019)

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Coffin texts: Spell 714, translated by Allen

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hey guys guess what! I got fired <3 my arch nemesis unemployed and denied benefits returns for round 2...

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“𝔈𝔳𝔢𝔫 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔦𝔯𝔬𝔫 𝔰𝔱𝔦𝔩𝔩 𝔣𝔢𝔞𝔯𝔰 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔯𝔬𝔱 “ ♱🗡️