yaniethoughts

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Stop avoiding the subject and tell me. You said we’re doing this for life. If we talk about this, we can’t do this for life.

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"You shouldn't dream of the person you have one-sided feelings for ask you if you still love him. That would be counterproductive."

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الأمراض النفسية بشكل مختلف .

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"You'll see what this love can do, the love that could have been yours."

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I've entered a phase where I am overwhelmed with hatred. All that love seemed to have turned to hate. Like something shed some light on the dark side of the moon.

I know one it's either I would speak all the good things you brought into my life or I won't speak about you at all.

But for now, knowing you exist out there. Happily living and getting away with no sense of remorse.

I fucking hate you. I really do.

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Today, I'm reminded of the story your friend once told me about how a common friend compromised dating someone just because you like the same person.

And you have the audacity to feel abandoned. It is ironic how you understand the pain inflicted by someone else, and yet you caused the same pain to others.

No, I'm not telling you to have to know everything and be certain with everyone's intentions. I'm telling you to consider sacrifices other people possibly has made and the possibility that you too youd have caused the pain you are currently experiencing onto others.

Just to let out some air from your inflated ego.

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One day, you'll take responsibility for all the pain you've caused to other people.

You will keep losing people because of your failure to appreciate their value while they are there.

You will certainly live a life where you will only be remembered when people need something from you until you realize you also did the same.

You will be no one to you someone.

You will know this pain.

Because you deserve it.

I fucking hate you.

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"The love you refused today will be your regret for the rest of your life."

- Nathan, Untitled

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Hey, you.

Whenever I go to places on Saturday nights like this, I can't help but remember you.

The spot where we used to smoke...you threw up...you cried...

The bars you slept on... You broke down... You kissed someone...

Everywhere I look, I see you.... A memory of you. It's amazing how I managed to do so. I'm not running away from it because I failed when I did, but when I allowed myself to be exposed to it too much I ended up getting hurt.

With each passing day, I no longer feel like I'm losing you.

With each passing day, I realize that I never had you from the start.

With each passing day, you are losing me but you never lose what you never fought to stay.

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Maybe one day I'll get to be on your shoes...

To have people who would look at me...

The way you look at the moon and stars at night...

then I would understand why you only saw one...

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Believe it or not...

Those who chose to like you...

But you cannot reciprocate the feeling...

There's a way to reject them properly...

It will not be free from pain, but it is proper...

That's the best you could do...

And they deserve that.

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I just want this pain and longing to go away. With each passing day, it seems to show that I don't matter.

How unfair it is to feel terrified of losing you and yet you're not bothered by the fact you're losing me.

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"It's tragic when those who caused your sorrow were once a reason of your happiness."

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“I knew he didn’t love me but I adored him anyway.”

— Patti Smith; Just Kids

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"I miss the sunshine you once were. Especially now that I feel like I won't be there when you shine even brighter."

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