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Self acceptance ❤️!

Forever Beau·ti·ful My skin color. am I beautiful? Your answer being yes i go on about my day being the beautiful person you said I am. No I'm not beautiful? Ahhh didn't I tell you self love was a hard thing for me, now you know. Another reason I look at myself every day in the mirror. Tick tock tick tock hours go by still standing In front of the mirror. Pointing out what's unattractive about me. Hearing others say " she's ugly" "she's fat" and etc... all that I learn to ignore in the moment it's being traveled to my ear. I go on about my day. Come home lock myself up and stare deeper at my imperfections. It's apart of my everyday life now. I've become so attached to my unattractiveness. Forever beautiful, you called me ugly now I let that affect me. Why ? I can't come to my sense of why. Stretch mark on my body, come on body keep up I'm growing im stretching. Don't leave these ugly marks or are they beautiful tiger marks. People Magazine showing off the most beautiful women alive. Why aren't I apart of them ? You said I was beautiful ! Standing in the mirror again tick tock tick tock hours fly by but I feel as if nothing has changed. My play station playing songs telling me I'm beautiful and to never change who i am. Forever beautiful, am I getting prettier by the day? What kind of vitamins do these beautiful women take. I want to be like them tell me how, teach me how ! Come home my mascara is running, face now hurts all the crying.. eyes are puffy and tired. I'm tired of the daily routine i want to change. Scrolling down my feed all these pretty liars. They could be like me for all I know. Turn off my phone sleep. Good morning body, good morning world. No make up just my natural face feeling the fresh breeze, I may look different but I think I like the breeze. They way I look in certain clothes I don't like but I like the bulge clothes. The way they stare at me, I like the attention being brought to me. I am forever beautiful in my inner ugly. I am forever beautiful no plastics for fixtures all natural me. Hello world I am forever beautiful, make fun of me put me down tell me things I don't but need to hear to be able to love myself. The color red such a vibrant color. The way it's run down my body. Slowly and staining my clothes. The reflection of my self on the blade. You have a choice horizontal or vertical I suggest horizontally. In matter of fact put it down it looks ugly on you. Those marks aren't meant for your body. People will spot them and know you hurt and question you till they get answers. The sun hitting my skin the warmth feels great. Wow I've never felt anything like this. Is this me feeling beautiful. Look in the mirror I smile that little smirk is a sign. Repeat over and over I met a guy he says he loves me and i love him. Will he accept my flaws I don't know.. he looks at me like I'm the one girl in the world. I make him smile wow I did that it feels good making someone smile seeing their beautiful smile that reflects upon what I say or do. I make and loose friends though some are gone they once told me I was beautiful, intelligent they said I would do big things. They see things in me I cannot see sometimes. I thank them with love and hate. Hate because they lied and told me they'd stay but left. Love because I know they still see those things. I tell you to love yourself so do it. The mirror was my friend all along it taught me to see things in me I didn't want to. I have extra fat on me it's beautiful. I have messy hair I'm still beautiful. All these unattractive things make me beautiful. I don't need makeup to make me feel beautiful. You may need it and your still beautiful don't worry. Thank you mirror for all the hours. Thank you for calling me ugly without it I wouldn't be here loving myself. The message through which they tell you that you're beautiful are correct. You are beautiful in your own way, do whatever makes you happy. Don't please others don't do it. That's what they want they're not that special so don't do it. Forever beautiful in your own unique way. This is something I wrote and is very sentimental to me. I hope you enjoyed reading this. If so please message me ! It would really mean a lot.