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𝑨 𝒉𝒊𝒅𝒅𝒆𝒏 𝒎𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕…

A hidden moment in the shadows, just the two of them 🥰

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Elriel from ACOTAR series by SJM

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...I don't know why I couldn't let this go.

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Yes! I was the member of the polycule that was only there for the free rent! Just put the pliars away!

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The fact that both Az and Elain got each other gifts, but knew they couldn’t exchange them in front of the others is so hot and intimate. I need to know if the two of them have done this before.

Has Elain walked into her room and found a bouquet left on her dresser? Or maybe a pretty trinket from the continent?

How many times has Az returned from an assignment to fresh pastries left on his desk? Or maybe a little care package for while he’s traveling?

Have Nuala and Cerridwen have been sneaking things to Az and Elain on the other’s behalf?? I NEED TO KNOW!!!!

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Azriel taking the potatoes from Elain’s hands and saying he would take care of it

Azriel telling everyone to wait before eating because Elain wasn’t seated yet

Azriel making a joke to make Elain and smile and look less uncomfortable

AZRIEL HUSBAND MATERIAL

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OKAY THIS IS ABSOLUTELY MY FAVORITE ELRIEL FANART EVER !!! THE DEATH AND THE FAWN REFLECTION OF AZ AND ELAIN IS BEAUTIFUL I'M OBSESSED !!!!

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“I HATE ELAIN BECAUSE SHE PLANTED FLOWERS INSTEAD OF FOOD FOR HER STARVING FAMILY!”

credit: bookishloz on tiktok 🤍

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They look so beautiful

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"How do you read so many books??" I am simply trying to avoid reality, what are you doing

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River of Sorrows 🌹

I translated a poem by Nizar Qabbani called River of Sorrows, and it felt so painfully Elriel coded I could completely imagine Azriel writing something like it. So I decided to transcreate it from his pov 🥰

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Your eyes... like rivers of sorrow,

Rivers of music that carried me

Far beyond time

Beyond reason

Beyond redemption

Rivers that lost themselves

And then, my princess,

They lost me too

Black tears fall through your lashes,

Each one a note in some silent melody

Your eyes... my drink, my smoke,

And the tenth sip of you…

It blinded me.

Here I burn,

My fire devouring my fire

Shall I say it, Elain?

Shall I say I love you, moonlight?

Ah…

If only I could

For I have nothing in this world

But your eyes

And my sorrows.

My shadows weep at the harbor

My wings torn across the wind

Fate, that yellow eyed curse,

Crushed my faith

Crushed me.

Shall I leave you, my garden in bloom?

You, the sun in my darkness

You, my green summer, my hidden dawn

The most vivid color in my night.

My lilac... how can I go?

When our story is sweeter than the return of spring,

Softer than a gardenia

Caught in the strands of your brown hair.

Don't cry, Elain

Your tears pierce my soul like truth

I have nothing in this world

But your eyes…and my sorrows.

Shall I say I love you, my light?

If only I could

I am lost

The road does not know me,

Nor name, nor place, nor purpose.

I have no history

I am the forgetting of forgetting

I am an anchor that doesn't anchor

A wound shaped like a male.

What can I offer you? Answer me

My silence?

My sins?

The sickness?

What can I offer you but a destiny

That dances in the palm of the devil

I love you, a thousand times over.

So stay away

From my shadows

From my ruin.

For I have nothing in this world

But your eyes,

And the sorrow I drown in

Every time I look at them.

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Forgot to post this during elriel month so SURPRISE!!

Elain and Azriel having some alone time in their own little oasis 😏

Close ups ⬇️

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Here is what I've noticed, which sets Elriel (s) apart from Eluciens and Gwynriels, and where, I think, the crux of the matter lies in how we treat the characters and their eventual stories.

Eluciens and Gwynriels both believe that one person in their ship is nearly flawless. Almost perfect. Lucien (for whatever crazy reason) is viewed as an epitome of a positive male character. And of course Gwyn is pure perfection, who's never done anything wrong ever. Perfect sister, perfect friend, perfect priestess, perfect warrior, perfect scholar.

But Elriels don't think that Elain and Azriel are perfect. Quite the opposite, actually. Both have their own issues and lots of things to confront and work through, individually and together.

The thing is that it is EASY to love a perfect person. There is no challenge in loving someone flawless.

The challenge is loving someone BECAUSE and WITH all of their flaws.

And that's Elriel.

Because a perfect person would inevitably try to charge the other to fit their own perfection. The gulf is too wide. If Gwyn is an ideal female character, then where does it leave Azriel in that equation? Because he is probably the least flawless character of all (maybe only next to Rhys). Does she then try to change him to make him 'better' or into a version that is acceptable to her? Or does she accommodate him and change herself to manage the relationship? Neither option works.

With Elain, we already know that she accepts him for what he is. His imperfections, his grumpiness, his darkness, his silence. And she never tried to change him. And Azriel certainly won't try to change Elain. She chose him, over the 'perfect' Lucien, and he chose her, over the 'perfect' Gwyn (though of course Gwynriel is not even real).

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The Light Between Sin & Salvation | Chapter 34

Chapter 34: Be Free

Summary: Elain and Azriel reconnect as Azriel begins to recover.

CW: None 🩷

One or two chapters left...

Thank you so much to everyone who has made it this far and who has supported by with shares, comments, kudos, discussions, and kofi donations 💗 I appreciate each and every one of you so much. I'm trying to take my time with these final chapters to produce the best writing and story I can.

And thank you to my doctor friend @landofthefaerie for helping me out with the medical stuff on this one, queen.

Preview:

Elain turned her head to kiss his palm. “I’m so glad you’re alive,” she choked out finally. 

“Because of you,” he answered, his throat tight to the point of pain. “All because of you. Everything—everything is because of you, El. Everything.”

He didn’t know how to make her understand how completely hers he was. How she had made him hers. How thoroughly she had saved him in every way imaginable. He didn’t know how to find the words to tell her. But he would show her. Every fucking day of his life, he would show her. 

Az drifted a thumb over Elain’s bottom lip. “You know you’re my salvation, don’t you? All my life, I felt like I was buried by my sins, by the choices I’ve had to make and the hurt I’ve caused, and then somehow this…this bright fucking light just appeared, showing me a pathway to salvation. The light between my life being destroyed by sin, and saved by love. You’re that light, El. It’s always been you.”

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Headcanon:

When Azriel visited his mother during the second Solstice, he was a little lost in his thoughts and seemed different than usual because he had bought Elain a gift and knew Lucien would be there, and that alone was eating him up. He wasn't sure if he should give it to her.

His mother noticed the change and understood from the look in his eyes, that there was someone on his mind, that he was hurting because of love.

She probably didn't push just told him, as he left: "Whoever she is, I hope you let her love you. You deserve it Azriel. You always have."

So when he's finally with Elain, he will take her to meet his mother.

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𝐈 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐧’𝐭 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐢𝐟 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐭 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐥𝐮𝐞 𝐬𝐢𝐩𝐡𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐫 𝐚𝐭 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐬𝐤𝐢𝐧 𝐛𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡 𝐚𝐬 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐝, “𝐛𝐞𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐮𝐥.”

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✮♱✮ art by @flixia.art

✮♱✮ commissioned by me

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I have more Elriel to share! This beautiful piece is from the amazing @flixia.art who definitely did my ideas justice! I always love the idea of Elain & Azriel spending time with each other out in the nature of the Night Court, far from prying eyes and only themselves enjoying their company. I think that in the outdoors is when they’re most comfortable with each other, soaking in the peace and solace that it brings. I hope yall love this!

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✮♱✮ quote is from A Court of Wings & Ruin

✮♱✮ characters are Elain Archeron & Azriel

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Tarot + Chocolate | Chapter 5

Chapter 5: Now & Then

Summary: Elain continues to have visions of the past, and Azriel is surprised at work.

CW: minor blood

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Another Monday, Elain thought to herself as she bustled about her kitchen, making a late morning tea. She had a lot to do today to get ready for her week, including sweeping and mopping her shop floor, restocking popular tinctures, and testing a new recipe for itch cream. Yet she had spent her morning dilly-dallying in her garden, picking fat strawberries and eating them right there on her rooftop.

She had spent her entire weekend trying to puzzle out what her Sight was trying to tell her with her card reading, and waiting for Azriel to say something in response to her.

He never did.

She cursed herself more than once for being unable to hide her emotions in that ominous moment, for having scared him off so thoroughly. He thought he had hurt her, and she just wanted him to know that he had not, that he didn’t need to punish himself.

So she waited, seeing those cards endlessly in her head even through her working hours and doing readings for other customers, but was nowhere closer to an answer about what they meant.

Elain moved slowly and lazily through her kitchen, carefully selecting a tea leaf blend. She was about to pick up the kettle to pour steaming water in the mug when the world went white around her. She was only aware of falling and the sound of breaking china before she was pulled by mist-kissed hands into the Void.

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