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I cringe a little at how much my fear of being seen has held back any creative endeavor or efforts

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I am incredibly sexy and beautiful wow

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So many things that I wouldn’t accept from literally ANYONE else in this life but I’m continuing to emotionally drain myself in the name of “that’s your mom” ….BIG fuck THAT this time around.

Why would I still try and attempt to have a good relationship with someone that:

- doesn’t accept accountability from themselves or others

- lacks discipline

- negative mindset

- emotionally immature

- doesnt keep their word

- doesn’t even try to celebrate me on the day THEY literally gave birth to me. But posts a HBD on Facebook a day later. When I went out of my way, even when we were having problems to make sure she felt the love on her day.

- avoids hard conversations

- doesn’t hold space for me and my feelings, or anyone else for that matter.

- beyond selfish

- doesn’t respect my partner

- made my engagement all about her

- made my dads death all about her

- clearly never respected my boundaries

- says I didn’t do enough for her when she was in the hospital AFTER I JUST GAVE BIRTH.

- lies for nothing, just fakety fake fake. Mayor of fakesville if you will.

The list goes on so seriously why should I tolerate it?

- because she’s my mom? — mom is just a title and at this point her actions are just reflective of a loss poor friend that claims to love you but actually can’t stand you.

- because she’s lonely and I feel bad for her? — at this point it’s her fault she’s lonely.

- because I want Blyss to have a relationship with her? — I’m not going to block this entirely because Blyssy poo deserves it I just have to figure out how to navigate it.

- because I feel like I need her. — This. Even though for the most part I know I don’t need HER. I wish it was HER but ultimately I desire a wise, older woman that can meet me where I am and can speak life into me and truly support me and mine. The only person I should be able to expect that from is MY MOM. Nobody else.

So again I ask. Why should I put up with it. What else will it take for me to pull the plug on this relationship.

[yeaglo]

Truth be told I still grieve losing my dad, crazy that it’ll be 7 years ago this year and it truly feels like last week.

I think I lost both my parents the day that he died. Idk if my mom has always been ~like this- and I was just too young to care/notice or if a piece of her left when he did.

All signs point to her having unchecked mental illness/divergence but it makes me feel more empathy toward her if it is the latter.

I’m at the part in adulthood where I don’t know if it’s supposed to be this way. Am I supposed to feel this lonely? Is that adulthood? Motherhood? Being a wife? Is it really this lonely? Or is my own relationship with her just that fucked? I don’t see myself abandoning my kid mentally or emotionally just because they are grown or have a family. I’d like to think that I’ll just find new ways to show up for her/them in a way that contributes positively in their life.

[yeaglo]

pretty phuckin

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my baby is so funny and perfect. She has no idea 😍

[yeaglo]

"I can do better."

This is a thought that's always present in the minds of highly driven and successful people.

When you're alone with your thoughts tonight...

I want you to ask yourself:

Are you doing the undeniable best you can in your career?

Are you doing the undeniable best you can in your relationships?

Are you doing the undeniable best you can in your life?

Are you doing the undeniable best you can for yourself?

Reflect on these questions.

If you have any level of humility and self-awareness...

I guarantee you'll be able to identify multiple ways you can improve in all of these areas.

Form a game plan to start closing the gap between who you are and who you know you can be in your heart...

...and start executing.

None of us will ever be perfect.

All of us can do better.

Make the commitment to being and becoming better.

Learn to have honest conversations with yourself about how you can improve.

It's the only way you'll continue to make progress.

[yeaglo]

she has an elegant mind 💭

an elegant mind isn’t about knowing everything—it’s about how you think, what you choose to engage with, and the way you filter the world. slow down, be more discerning, and take control of where your attention goes to cultivate the calm and confidence you crave.

develop intellectual quiet. learn to hold opposing ideas without rushing to conclusions. not everything requires an immediate opinion or reaction.

refine your attention. what you consume shapes your mind. choose books, conversations, and media that add depth rather than noise. (btw, fun counts! think quality rather than seriousness.)

speak with intention. be precise. say what you mean, resist the urge to over-explain. learn to express yourself and not just regurgitate other people's opinions.

embrace curiosity. ask questions. cultivate a mind that wonders rather than one that only seeks certainty.

seek beauty in thought. let your perspective be expansive, positive, and exploratory, rather than festering in negativity that shuts down and reduces everything to bad faith takes.

an elegant mind isn’t about being impressive. it’s about being interested—in the world, in ideas, in the subtleties of experience. this creates a calm, confident, and magnetic charm.

[yeaglo]

friendly reminder 🪷

in my control

my actions

the way i respond

my values & goals

my boundaries

my beliefs

my choices

my perspective & mindset

what i take responsibility for

what i focus on

how i spend my time

how i engage

in my influence

my health

my wellness & wellbeing

my connections

relationship dynamics

my reputation

certain aspects of the future

my energy

my environment

my finances

not in my control

the past

my memories

regrets

others feelings

others thoughts

others words

others beliefs

others behaviors & responses

politics

world conflict

aging

illness

loss

the weather

the future

[yeaglo]

Stop being so easily intimidated. When their heads turn to look at you, own the moment and feel totally empowered. Drop the negative self-talk. Own the ability to make head’s turn, eyes shift and people stand at attention when you enter the room. It’s time to allow your presence to be spellbinding.

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I'm thankful for what I have

[yeaglo]

be busy. busy not checking messages. busy reading those books you never started or finished. busy having a good night of sleep. busy taking care of yourself and your skin. busy moving your body. busy helping your community. busy reflecting on your life and what you can improve. busy doing things aside from the capitalistic viewpoint of “productivity.” busy slowing down.

[yeaglo]

energy givers vs energy takers 💐

understanding the difference between energy givers and energy takers can significantly impact your overall wellbeing, so here’s a helpful guide:

energy givers include:

a glass of water or a warm cup of tea

sunlight

nourishing food

exercise

laughter + meaningful conversation

cuddles with a pet

self care

meditation + visualization

reading a book

fresh air

good music

creativity

writing + journaling

setting intentions + gratitude

adequate sleep

meanwhile, energy takers include:

overthinking + poor stress management

screens + too much social media consumption

clutter

dehydration

greasy + fatty foods

people pleasing

setting unrealistic goals + expectations

unclear + sloppy boundaries

negativity

constantly going without rest

comparison

gossip + anger

it’s key to maintain a healthy balance when it comes to receiving energy. identify what is in your life that gives you energy and what takes it away, incorporate more energy givers into your daily routine, and regularly set boundaries with energy takers. here’s to a healthy and balanced lifestyle! 💐

[yeaglo]

small things to improve your life 𝜗𝜚˚⋆

compliment people more often

pick up a crafty hobby

start to learn a language that you've always wanted to speak

take more photos and videos

watch movies, documentaries, shows, read, write, etc etc..

practice your makeup skills and try different styles

law of affirmation

start a blog (or just read mine hehe <3)

write essays on whatever interests you at the moment

make new playlists and update old ones

workout, stretch, go for walks

allow yourself to be bored sometimes; you don't have to constantly be doing things

talk to yourself with love and kindness

go thrifting and update your wardrobe

try new coffee shops and find your favourite one

embody the energy that you'd like to attract

dress up every day, you don't need a special occasion to wear your favourite outfits

decorate and rearrange your room until it feels like you

journal and write about your day, dreams, and ideas

manifest and visualise

reach out to your friends more often

visit more museums and art galleries

talk to the moon

As always, please feel free to share your own suggestions and tips in the comments! <3

my insta: @ malusokay

love ya ･:*₊‧✩

[yeaglo]

Internal Glow up Part Three- Attitude

People

Surround yourself with good people who will encourage and and care about you

Try to grow and find new friends

Remove yourself from emotionally taxing situations-it’s not selfish to cut off drama

Content

Unsubscribe from anything that doesn’t benefit you

This can be any television, accounts you follow or the music you listen to

Create a new social media life of helpful and calming content

Don’t be afraid to delete apps or block people

Being yourself

Try to be as positive as you can

Look for the lesson in everything

You are in control of your life, make the best of it

Be kind to others and kindness with come back to you

Series Masterlist

[yeaglo]

rotting vs resting

there’s a fine line between giving yourself the rest you need and slipping into a cycle of neglect

resting is recharging. rotting is escaping

resting feels nourishing. rotting feels numbing

resting is taking a break to come back stronger. rotting is staying stuck in the same loop

resting is letting yourself exist without pressure. rotting is avoiding the things that would actually make you feel better

resting is choosing peace. rotting is letting exhaustion make choices for you

rest isn’t lazy. you deserve slow mornings, cozy afternoons and nights of deep sleep. but if “rest” is leaving you feeling drained, uninspired, and disconnected, maybe it’s not rest, it’s self-abandonment in disguise

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ʜᴏᴡ ᴛᴏ ɢᴇᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ ʏᴏᴜʀ ꜰᴇᴍɪɴɪɴᴇ ᴇɴᴇʀɢʏ

Embracing your feminine energy involves connecting with qualities such as intuition, creativity, empathy, and receptivity.

Engage in Creative Activities: Paint, dance, write, or craft are creative endeavors that foster self-expression and connect you to your creative essence.

Practice Self-Reflection: Dedicate time to introspection through journaling or meditation. This helps you stay grounded and in tune with your inner self.

Connect with Nature: Spend time outdoors, appreciating the beauty of the natural world. Walking in the park or sitting by a body of water can enhance your sense of peace and receptivity. citeturn0search3

Embrace Stillness and Rest: Allow yourself periods of rest and relaxation. Embracing stillness enables you to receive insights and rejuvenate your mind and body.

Cultivate Receptivity: Practice being open to receiving—whether it's help, compliments, or opportunities. This openness nurtures your feminine energy by balancing the act of giving and receiving.

Nurture Relationships: Invest time in building and maintaining meaningful connections. Engaging in deep, empathetic conversations fosters emotional intimacy and aligns with feminine qualities.

Honor Your Emotions: Acknowledge and embrace your feelings without judgment. Allowing yourself to experience a full range of emotions enhances emotional intelligence and authenticity.

Let them treat you like the princess you are <3

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