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jinse sbse jayda pyar kiya…woh pyar hi na hone ka ilzam lga k chale gye….

jinse sbse gehre raaz sajha kiye….woh band kitab hone ka ilzam lga k chale gye….

sath ek nyi shurat krne ki chah me….kch dukh chupate chale gye…

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Today I questioned myself what is love….what do we have for the other person that we call love….several things came to mind like you are attracted to thier beauty….or you are simply too dependent on the person emotionally….or you are so lonely and when a person comes it that feeling of void going away is love….but all i could understand is this….i read somewhere….it means caring about someone beyond all rationality and wanting them to have everything they want…no matter what it takes….i never used to believe…this thing…if you love them…let them go….like how….but yeah….its the reality…you might fall for someone…who deserves much more than you…and you are kind of limiting factor in their life….no matter how much you try…you are not enough…then probably you should let them go….but here is the catch….in the first few interactions…we already get the idea that whether you deserve the person or not….but we still keep on trying kyuki kya h na…..

Zeher vaikh k pita te ki pita,

Ishq soch k kita te ki kita

Dil deke dil lain di aas rakhi ve bulleya

pyar vich lalach na kita te ki kita

Probably the last post….started with a writing a few lines…ending with some of them…and irony is….situation was almost same…

Ek tamanna h ki…woh aaye aur mujhe gale se lga le…

Ek hakkikat h ki…..woh ab mujhse bahot dur h….

Ek shikyat h ki….bhari majlis me bhi woh hme anjaan krdenge…

Ek sukoon h ki….woh apni manjil pa lenge…

Jb ghar choda toh….mn me ek shikan thi…daulat pa li toh..zindagi me sb hal h….Magar zindagi me kitni bhi daulat pa lo…kitni bhi sohrat pa lo….agar raat ko sone se phle agar aakhri khayal tanhai ka h toh…sb viphal h…

Tere jane k baad jo m rh jaunga ab woh mujhse toh nei sambhalta….isliye patthar kr liya h ab dil ko…ki kahi nei phighalta….

Adiue…

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Mini….how could you just assume that you have been hurting me and all….and you not being yourself with me….haven’t I always wanted that….what you feel is the real you….be that…and give me a chance to accept you….adjustment was supposed to my thing….you don’t make adjustments in love….but i will do….I don’t have problem jukhne me…i was begging to you on my knees and i still do…what am I supposed to mini….aise majhdhar me chorke kaise ja skti ho mini…..it feels so bad….I couldn’t really even believe it….i am feeling so suffocated….I couldn’t even breathe an air of relief….i just couldn’t….i don’t know mini…i could even do this….but i hope…you will not be disappointed and know…i did my best….i hope we meet again….if not….maybe in next life….

To my parents….i know…I won’t be able to forgive you my whole life….but i do now…i forgive you….i am letting it go….i just hope…i made you guys proud…and please forgive me.

To my lil bro….you might not understand this now….but 6-7 years down the line…you will get this…please read this….you are strong…stronger than me….you will do great in life and make our parents proud….you are smarter…better and stronger than…never let anyone make you doubt that….

I am not going to do anything stupid….don’t worry….i was just reading my some of the blogs…i wrote earlier….about the reality of life….I have a miserable life….people will say…what I don’t have in life….great career…good money…everything….but….when I think about it….do i really have anything….do i even have a life…worth living…a future worth hustling….i was just contemplating….

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Couldn’t we have just talked about it…a bit more…mera dil manne ko raazi hi nei h…ki tu aise achanak se….if something has happened…kisi ne kch bola h…please tell me….i am dying to talk to you mini

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Idk what to say….you are not seeing my message on telegram…:just wanted to let you know….i love you baby….and i know you will conquer

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This is not good yaar…ab please online aa jao yaar

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Kha ho yaar mini….I don’t even know telegram pe message kru na kru….kl shaam se gayab ho…kha ho yaar…kya ho gya…please reply

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Heyy Mini…..

I don’t know what happened to you or why are you sad….but can we please talk about it….and you know i am never that busy that I can’t listen to you….you know how happy i feel when you tell me about the things…so please mini….please talk to me about it….

And i used to take it as a joke that i irritate you….but do i really irritate you this much….

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Dear Mini…

You asked me…why i love you…and you said…this question can make me feel irritated….but the fact is…it makes me again look upon those smaller things as well…which might get missed sometimes…mini the thing is…you are beautiful baby…you are awesome….the way you talk…the way you do anything….i love you for your honesty mini…whatever it is…you tell me…and that…that makes me feel a very special person….a very special one….i always used to think ki…will i ever have someone….who can love me…take care of me….make me their priority….the thing is mini…i have all of that with you…you know…i said…i am in a middle of a situation…and how you got worried….it makes me feel blessed mini…though a person like me…always in some kind of trouble…tu puri zindagi pareshan hoti rhegi….but how can you not see it mini….you are the most perfect partner and person for me….you know like i always say…fitting perfect like a jigsaw puzzle….that’s who you are mini…my missing peice…the one who completes me…you know…i don’t mean to objectify it…but if it is meant to be…you are the most beautiful and special gift of god for me…

And you know…how you are focused on your career…you will debate ki…every thing is not going as they are meant to be…but this is life mini…what i love about you is ki…you are honest with it…what is not good and has to be improved…and trust me…its such a big turn on…you talk business…remember that day…when we were discussing that business…it was something….

All in all mini…there are somethings which are always there…but there is so much about you mini…which i love and srsly…you are making me fall even more.

I LOVE YOU MINI…A LOT BABY❤️❤️

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I am really sorry mini….idk why it sounded like i was irritated but i swear on everything i was not irritated even a bit….i guess you have turned the phone off…but i really wanna say to you….i am really really really sorry mini….

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I really love it…when you leave message for me when i go to sleep and i wake up and read them..it just makes my day…Its like i crave for it…I know its wierd but can you do that🥺🥺

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I love you too mini….i really do….i am lucky to have you baby…look at you…how much you love me…how can’t i say ki…i am the luckiest person in the world

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Its 1st October today and i still love her….well today was a nice day…i went to see a lot of places beautiful and soothing….and the thing was…i missed her so much more there…like I know how much happy she would have been there…all i could imagine there was laying down in her lap…while she enjoys the nature and i enjoy her happiness and warmth….

I hope she is okay..she didn’t tell me what happened but i hope she is okay…and ofc we all have things which we can’t share with anyone…or its not…maybe idk…i am confused…is it about comfort level or is it case we have somethings which we can’t share with anyone.

All i want to say to her is…

“Thank you for loving me, when I don’t feel lovable”.

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Sorry I wasn’t able to write yesterday….last night was hell man….pta nei konsa gaon kya tha….pure bangladeshi and all….no internet….no electricity and hell lot of humidity….aisa lg rha tha…jail me band kr diya h

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Its September 29th and i still love her….i am on a trip to meghalaya…but the best thing today was…we talked a lot…..god she makes me feel special…its juat amazing how she could make me blush…instantly….she asked me how long will i miss her if she is gone…I won’t write the anwer here….its too personal for us….we played scribble and riddles…it was nice….

She will tell me she loves me…when she will mean it…but i will say…i love her….cuz i mean every bit of it….and i don’t blame her for this….she is my love..she is special…she can take as much time as she needs….i am here….i just want ki…she knows and understands this.

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Today is 28th september….and i still love her….she is so amazing my god….she talked to me when i was feeling anxious…now k really wish…i could go on trip with her…just me and her…a travel date…ooh god i am missing her so much