yellowbanana15

[yellowbanana15]

Hi this is Nazi aka partner in crime! Love the post....I believe in you and that you can do this! Set ur mind and it's one pound, one day, one change at a time that will make all the difference <3

FMLS90 Week 1

Hello!

I’m Nael… sounds like the Nile river, spelled like a dyslexic Neal. I just turned 33  and I live in Kansas City, MO (I still can’t believe we have not met in person @fatmaninalittlesuit)  Pictured above are myself with my dogter Eleanor.  That was our first walk as mom-dogter and my friend took these wonderful photos.  We were both a lot thinner and with more muscles!!

She is my little princess and my wiggly butt.  I may not bake for myself, but I bake her her cookies. All organic, of course.  Spoiled pup. :D  In case you have never seen my blog, I guess this is a good heads up! There will be photos of my PuppyNor, of my garden an my yarn creations… so here some more photos:

I live in an apartment, not at all far from my work (though i will have to move at the end of my lease) and I am still VERY active with my old neighborhood… like the community garden! This year I got two beds but sadly it has been A LOT HOTTER than last year and I have done a terrible job with them. That ginormous thing that got dubbed “Eleanor’s Jungle” by myself and neighbors?? Parsnips.  I grew them last year, could not dig them out (fell flat on my butt every time I tried) so i figured I would leave them over the winter to die.  They didn’t. They became the spot that Eleanor would use as her little cool jungle while I was melting under the sun.  Plus she would eat my nearby carrots.  She is quite the inspiration for carrots and zucchini.  Really. Just look at that happy cool face!!! And yes, she gets allergies so she goes bald on some spots. She got her fur back. Poor pup.

I have been managing a farm-to-table restaurant for 5 years and I’m so proud of my team! Here are some pics from work:

“Nael’s Secret Garden”.  FIVE years managing that restaurant, first time I got a cocktail named after me!!! I don’t recall what it had… it was DELICIOUS.  And yes, I have turned any possible dirt sport around the restaurant into a garden… we use the herbs for the kitchen and the bar.  And if two community gardens weren’t enough, down the block we built yet another little one… I need to remember to wear sunblock!!

Eh… You can see I gained a bit of weight. Oops! I do wear them very well thankfully, +50 lbs. still gained though.This was some FOH & BOH staff photo to say goodbye to our Sous (red shirt) who was leaving us to operate the new food truck at the food truck hub. My boss and supper cool chef is the guy behind me with the gray shirt. His cooking, OH MY GAWD!   (I’m the one with the black pants and lilac shirt).

Our patio! That metal planter has pineapple mint growing… that terra cota planter has now sage and lemon basil, the dirt next to the tables has just shady flowers… we got some little planters to hang on the rail things with edible flowers (they aren’t doing so well, this heat!) and not pictured is the super awesome basil patch. I will take a photo tomorrow and share. I have so much basil growing we stopped ordering it from farmers.  And they use it for syrups for the bar to make basil lemonades and BOH for their pestos.  Regular curled leaf basil and lemon basil. MMMMMM

Here is my “Green Lasagna” I love that scarf! I croched it and I am so happy with how it came out, even with Eleanor’s help. When I got her she had severe anxiety and separation anxiety (rescue, had never been in a home, actually part of the MO500) so she would eat anything that I had touched and still had scent of me… extension cords, shoes, knitting needles, YARN (like the purple one… had to tie so many knots because she left me pieces of yarn no longer than 6″…crafty pup) a small spray bottle of maze (That was the last thing she chewed). When I finished the scarf I ran to take a photo of myself because I was so proud, you can see me tearing up because it was ridiculous! I looked like I had a pesto lasagna around my neck!! HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!! Now that I am looking at it I guess I could also say a coral reef going around, purple, green and blue. Still, green lasagna scarf.

This is an awesome picture. My brother’s wedding.  Yes…can you find bride and groom? I’m the flapper, front row and center. Really, that was me. Not the same as the fluffier version from the restaurant, right?. That is my goal. To get back to that body I had as a grown adult. I want that body back, with the muscles and all.  When that photo took place, I was still coaching gymnastics (coached for 8 years in Long Island, NY) and after  bunch of health issues I just kind of lost the muscle and gained the fat, and the aches, and pains… and stiffness… et al. I know I’m not having the same lifestyle of coaching 5.5 hours a day, 4-5 times a week. But just some muscle, some more flexibility, less aches on my knees, back, arms… less belly fat.

Aside from more muscle/less fat (Get down from 178HW to 125-130) I do want to get more organized. I’ve moved around so often and somehow I end up with all this stuff and crap… and it’s hard to let go of some of that because of the emotional attachment I have to it. You know, like the laptop that does not work at all because screen is shot and it is so old internet browsers don’t even work on it but I can’t let go because it was originally (for 4 weeks) my grandmother’s and when she passed in my arms I kept it. Computer doesn’t work, I need one, could sell it for parts. Can’t get rid of it. Yeah…nah. Need to change.  I saw some of my tumblr friends using the HabitBull app and so i downloaded it. Of course i want to log food and drinks, lose weight, get rid of stuff… clean everyday even though i’m exhausted… etc…  I also want to keep in touch with family and friends. Over the phone. I’ve lost so many loved people, I still have this fear or wall and I do not talk to them over the phone… I need to change that.  So hopefully within these 90 days I will get to change it.

I do not have an accountability partner, I’m hoping @yellowbanana15 will be mine, but she doesn’t use Tumblr anymore. Wanna join me? Wanna be my partner in crime???

I know there will be more to write… but it is late, have a LONG day tomorrow (Managers meeting) and I have a pile of dishes to wash in the sink… you know, trying to start on the right foot.

:D

[yellowbanana15]

Day 3-6

Amazing! ~ Have been mindful of my eating and working out like there is no tomorrow...Realizing that pain will be there but my mind is just that much stronger.

Took a class at the gym today and for the 1st time EVERY I ran...it brings such light to my heart to know I did it. Its even better to know I did it on my own on my terms with my strenght and limitations.

There is nothing stopping me and my goal is to over come my weight loss and keep going.

<3

[yellowbanana15]

Day 2

....much better. Although the pain was always lingering through out the day was able to eat healthy and managed to put in 30 minutes of cardio. Today I had the idea of joining a boot camp and after hours of researching it I came to the conclusion that I wont be able to do to boot camp not b/c I don't want to but because of my physical limitations...here is a lesson on acceptance. So back to the drawing board on how I can optimize my workouts to meet my bodies needs while keeping in mind my limitations.

Swimming seems to be good so that's something to stick to and next week weight training....

Motivation and acceptance are the lessons of the day

[yellowbanana15]

Day 1

....didnt go as planned but no guilt and no blame...it was just a bad day. My 8 hour work day turned in to 13 hours and I worked through my Cardio Blast class....but I was mindful of the fact that I was missing out on class so parked the car as far as possible from work and walked, ate salad for lunch and drank as much water as possible.

Pain was ok. Mood was motivated. Lesson learned was to plan ahead for what work may through your way and learn to say “I need to leave work on time today”

Day 2 will be great! 

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Fall Seven Times Get Up Eight

[yellowbanana15]

No, its not as easy as people say it is....

Having to workout is one thing. Having to workout while in physical (no not workout pain) is another.  I find myself loving physical activity (i.e Tennis, running, walking, or just simply using weights) but sometimes anythign as simple as taking 4 steps can be painful. 

People always make comments like “just do it”, “walk it off”, “no pain no gain” but what do you have to say to someone who has no control over their pain which could be from  an injury, surgery, or childhood disability? Can you really find yourself telling them “just do it”?

So I am hoping to use my experience as someone who is truely in pain (from a childhood) and also a behavior health clinician to help others cross the path to a healthy life....as being physically active may also give the emotional support you need to battle all the other things life will put in your way....

No, I wont be posting pictures of my so called “progress” but rather I will share my challanges, my fears and my limitations and most importantly how I over come them.

Day one of my Journey to lossing 30 pounds begins on 9/8