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"small clawed beast that vibrates on your lap" in my favorite description of a cat now, thanks

(ask referenced) happy to provide funny little cat descriptions :D

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H A H AH IM IN DANGER DANGER DANER TORNADO COMIN TODNSFO FUCK FUCK FUCJ DUCK DUCKM FUCK FUCK

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God, I’m exhausted.

I’ve been thinking recently and it’s just. Damn. Six years ago I was almost forced to get anger management classes and now I can’t feel anger without the fucking cold pit that comes with planning everything down to the second. What do I do with that? What could even happen? I’m exhausted. I’m apathetic hall the damn time nowadays, and it’s fucking shit. Probably mildly depressed. Feel like I can hardly talk to people I care about so incredibly much. It’s exhausting.

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I feel like I don’t have a right to bother any of them anymore

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It’s happened so many times now. Dropped for someone else. Im sorry. I m so sorry. I’m sorry, Gia, I’m sorry, ash, I love you all but I’m so tired.

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But I wanted to be something more.

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I’m glad I was the catalyst.

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They’re all dating, or talking, and I don’t even get to see.

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I feel like there’s no room for me anymore.

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I’m so fucking tired. If everything. I feel like Gianna hates me. I feel like they’re all fucking annoyed by me. Would any of them care if I just,,, didn’t? For just a few days, shut down and fucked off.

They’d notice? They’d care?

Would they?

Would they even notice?

I’m so tired...