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moved blogs !!! keeping this up as an archive

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yeah i'm probably moving blogs.

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worst part about tumblr is when there are people who have literally not interacted with me at all but every time i see them i want to fucking scream

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anyways i'm considering making a new blog. Current one isn't doing it for me.

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can the blank blogs PLEASE fuck off

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A lot of people seem to think day 12 in tihtbilwy is when mappi started doing bad stuff but honestly i think thats when bad stuff started happening to her

The glitched text appearing afterwards like she's trying to bury smth + despite being excited she can't remember anything from being at his house + the line that's sung is the title of the song (this is how to be in love with you/ also gets translated as [this] is love) + the scene that immediately follows is mahiru wistfully looking out of the birdcage relationship metaphor

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Hello, furry artist.

In front of you you will find a desk, paper, and various drawing implements, along with $500 in cash.

Amanda told me my fursona is, and i quote, "some sort of roadkill". I don't agree. I told her my fursona was cool and scary but when i tried to draw it, she laughed.

You have infinite time to draw my fursona, which i will describe using the supplies given. You can leave to take breaks if you want but please don't call the cops, this would be a really embarrassing thing to kill someone over.

And if it doesn't cost extra could you draw amanda's fursona in a trap, like that one across the room?

That's for a later guy, don't worry about it. Just... draw. Please.

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you know that vision leafpool got of brambles surrounding the camp and she took it as meaning that brambleclaw should be deputy because he'd protect the clan

first of all, shout out to leafpool for being very mature and assuming the most positive outcome about that vision even though she fucking hated brambleclaw (rightfully)

but also what if she was wrong, what if she interpreted the sign wrong, what if the vision meant brambleclaw, like brambles, would ensnare, strangle, and cause HARM to thunderclan, not protect it

bramblestar's leadership has literally caused more harm than good to ANYONE in thunderclan (as well as outside of thunderclan, literally all of the clans (except skyclan i guess?), as well as the sisters have SUFFERED because of bramblestar being thunderclan's leader

and not to mention the individual cats who've suffered the most from him being leader, like him using his power to literally ABUSE squirrelflight, as well as his decisions actively causing leafpool's death, as well as the death of moonlight, killing a harmless group's leader and leaving three newborn kits as orphans, and ALMOST killing squirrelflight

not to mention brambleclaw literally had to STOP AND THINK about whether or not he should save firestar from the foxtrap like what the fuck man, and maybe if he hadn't literally hesitated firestar wouldn't have lost that life and then at the great battle firestar would have survived

what if starclan WAS sending a warning, and specifically sent it to leafpool because she was already suspicious of brambleclaw, but because she was still so young and less experienced, because she was so kindhearted and wanted to see the good in everyone, she WANTED her sister's mate to be a good person, a good leader, and was such a positive person, she thought, she wanted, she HOPED that it was a sign from starclan that brambles would protect her clan, her sister, her family

but it wasn't

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everyone always focuses on how fucked up it is that someone might fake a disorder, no one ever stops to think about why. what support does this person need?

social? do they feel like everyone around them sees right through them when they’re themselves? do they rely on a support system they’ve built based off of an illness they might not have? what can we do to help them feel seen and safe to be themselves?

financial? could this person have something that will never get them put on the disability benefits they need? something like debilitating depression or anxiety? something that might make living life “functionally” impossible for them, but is not deemed serious enough for them to receive the financial support they need to survive?

medical? could this person have a lack of access to medical care? could they be too afraid to seek medical care? could they be misdiagnosed by a professional, or misinformed and diagnosing themselves? could they have a disorder that is causing similar/same symptoms to what they’re claiming to have?

mental health? if someone has something like hypochondria, their body can mimic symptoms of illnesses they may not actually have. what matters is that they believe they have the illness. hypochondria is a terribly misunderstood disorder, that can also basically bar someone from receiving any other diagnosis once diagnosed with hypochondria, meaning someone might not receive care that they might actually need. it is often not taken seriously or treated properly itself, most medical professionals my hypochondriac parent has tried have basically deemed it the Lying Faker Disorder.

for all these reasons, i am not hurt by people “faking” my (professionally diagnosed or self diagnosed) disorders. the reality is, if they’re “faking”, there is some kind of support they need that they are not getting. they are going through something that is likely just as painful for them as my disorders are for me. nobody fakes for no reason, and a lot of people deemed “fakers” are people who don’t believe themselves to be faking, or people who are not faking at all anyways. i’m not you, i’m not your treatment team, it’s none of my business, and quite frankly i do not care. when someone can show me proof that people fake for absolutely no reason, then i might reconsider, but until then, i will be kind.

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DISCORD GIVE WARNING BEFORE STARTING A FRICKING CALL

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my mental illness is cancelled forever :3

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everything is so overwhelming and i fele the intense need to move and drop off the face of the earth AGAIN

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note 2 self finish & settle on a notion layout for your ocs tomorrow please for the love of god

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Morning, nothing is good here after his jumpscare