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2nd year, 1st semester.

4 modules, 1 distinction.😔

Difficult semester, but we made it.

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11:11 hope I'm okay.

Please be good to me.

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And a year later, I've completed my first year in nursing.

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I have never disliked my mother, this much. Just an annoying fuck who ruined my December holidays.

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Cannot fully express what a relief is to have finished my pep medication, now all that is left is to test one final time to determine what my status is. It's been scary, lonely and uncomfortable and I simply don't wish to go through this again. I promise to take better care of myself and not be so naive and trusting that people will have my best interest at heart.

Glad my first year as a student nurse has ended and now headed to my second year. What a year it has been, to say it was challenging is an understatement, i prayed the year before the commencement of my studies, begged God that I wanted to keep my head busy cause I was tired of doing nothing, but I couldn't have imagined how busy it would get, I mean I only rested for two weeks and I was back on the horse once more. I have been scared and relived so many times, more than I could count. I have excelled in my studies that I have shocked myself. I have managed to keep calm , keep my head above the waters. I have gone through moments that forced me out of my comfort zone, I have made mistakes and wished I could take back immediately. I have wonderful souls and wish the best in everything they do.

Now, we look forward to the second year as a student nurse. It will be everything I have gone through in first year, multiply that by 1000 maybe. I can only pray for guidance, strength, patience, understanding, comprehension, and caution. For me to always listen to my institution . To make better, well-informed decisions.

Academically, what do I even say, of course I want to continue my amazing streak but ohhh, I was tired in my second semester and my grades flopped. So maybe, I ask simply ask to manage my studies better, to make time or manage it better, take advantage of opportunities that arise.

Financially, I want better, I want more and I genuinely pray for more. May I get everything my heart desires. Financial security, job security and my own house, simple.

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How selfish, must you be to think you can just leave your mess with anybody else.1

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They way I don't want any kids or anything long-term.

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Did the dumbest thing and bought R244 worth of airtime for a random number and my bank tells me I have to wait 4 hrs before they can help me??? Why not immediately. I barely have any money.

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I can't wait to be back home

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What a selfish prick, my sister is. Absolute c^nt.

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What a selfish prick, my sister is. Absolute c^nt.

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God...I hope and pray nothing happens...this was done out of fear, not malice.

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Feeling deflected, just completely down. Yesterday, my father almost burnt the house down and today, my mother has left to my sister's house, how mighty convenient...i wish I had the ability to just up and leave when things get tough and uncomfortable. I wish I could just cry out loud or just have someone to vent to...cause I don't want to seem like my feelings are invalid or I'm crazy for feeling the way I feel. Everything today, since coming back from school has completely broken me down. I simply wish these last 2 years of my diploma could pass on easily by and I could find work immediately after.

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Truly despise how my sister has kept quite about her son ruining my laptop. It seems, she considers it to be nothing, not worried at all nor is she concerned. I don't understand how she could think very little of how I feel, because it is a big deal that her child ruined my laptop...the least she could have said was sorry or offered to fix it, instead I had to buy my own laptop, expensive as it is, still she said nothing. Truly hurt my feelings.

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Nothing bores me like my life. I had my own plans for today, it looks like they have to take a back seat. Yho.

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He is disgusting. I hate him so much. I hope he chokes on his food.

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Don't want to go unsaid but I truly hate my sister's kid and wish him unspeakable things. What a fuck ass bastard whose father denied him.