yoshimura-eto10-blog

[yoshimura-eto10-blog]

Live a life that i will look forward to

i want to live a life that i will not feel regret when im looking back

i want to live an impression and impact on others, not a big one, not mean to chase attention

but just want to leave a positive vibes, and made their day more wholesome

more importantly, i dont want to stuck at the same place la every year

each day, each week, each month must have a progress

permudahkanlah urusanku ya Allah

belajar tinggi2 sampai degree, sampai umur 23, tapi what contribution did i make

[yoshimura-eto10-blog]

today is the youngest that you will be ever be

[yoshimura-eto10-blog]

Mandi dan cuci tandas, smpai 3.30 ptng

Solat, mengaji

Beli nasi ayam, 4.30 ptng

5.00 ptng hantar firas pulangg

5.30 berjalan dgn aten dan mok, berbuka kat nasi kokak nilai

Solat maghrib di rumah/di masjid nilai

Hantar aten balik kat mrt kajang

Jalan² dekat uptown cri tudung

[yoshimura-eto10-blog]

i will come here when things become a bit overwhelmed for me or when my mind is too clustered scattered disorganized

ok, so now what dear-self?

you did not yet finish your resume

you have a long way to go in FYP

you did not perform Isha’ prayer yettt

-buat resume smpai pukul 1, take break pi solat

-smbung buat smpai jam 3

[yoshimura-eto10-blog]

What I want to be/achieve/dreamt of

-Waking up early everyday..paling lewat pon pukul 6 pagi

-Penampilan kemas, tutup aurat (pakai stokin dan handsock), kasut bersih, wangi, ada jam tangan

-sentiasa rajin minum air kocong

-posture badan konfiden, x bongkok

-tight core

-solat di awal waktu

-mengaji setiap hari

-ada tujuan setiap hari

-dekat dgn Tuhan

[yoshimura-eto10-blog]

D-2 Journaling (22/9)

Today was quite a flop. It started with a small flop and later become a bigger flop.

i woke up late and missed subuh prayer, even not take shower before going to work. not taking any breakfast.

sometimes i wonder, how the heck did i organize my day? how can i improve myself if there is lack of discipline in my life? lack of exploring and trying out new stuff

at the workplace, sempat la siapkan sikit frontend fyp. tapi tula, buat sikit je pon ambik masa lama, dh la x lawo, lopong2. ini pon buatkan aku terpikir, aku ni memang x kreatif ke, mcm mana aku nk hasilkan website design yg lagi menarikkk

ada la jugak rasa menyesal sebab x konsisten buat fyp setiap hari. gila babi bnyak betul ketinggalan

aku rasa aku underestimate betul diri aku, x cabar diri aku untuk buat mcm2 benda. sedangkan x cuba xtau, sedngkan masih muda, cuti sem, ptutnya manfaatkan sepenuhnya masa yg ada.

i am lacking behind in so many way

aku x tunaikan solat tepat pada waktu, aku x baca quran setiap hari, aku x cukup selawat dan istighfar, solat sunat apatah lagi

aku x letak Tuhan sebagai fokus utama dalam hidup aku :(

dan yg paling teruk la harini, terjebak lgi sekali tgok benda x sepatutnya. aku x ckup berusaha untuk kawal nafsu dan keinginan diri. patutnya aku keluar dari bilik, duduk luar rumah ke, buat apa2 yg boleh distract otak :(

solat asar pon lewat sngattt tadi aku buat, pergh flop flop flop teruk

skrng pukul 8.20, aku nak buat jsp video, nak study ctf dan nak buat frontend.

berikanlah kekuatan kepada hambamu ya ALLAH.

kalau bangun awal, nak buat solat taubat. aku nk cuba includekan solat taubat dalam rutin harian aku sebab kita ni pendosa. hari2 ada je dosa yg aku buat.

[yoshimura-eto10-blog]

D-1 Journaling

harini xde apa yg menarik pon aku selitkan dalam rutin, boring, sleepy, wasting time, rasa x produktif gila

aku bangun pon pukul 6.30 pagi, then smbung tidur skjap smpai pukul 9

daan ad briefing pada pukul 10.00 pagi

time forum ni la yg merancakkan sikit adrenaline sebab ad orng tu join unexpectedly hahah

and disebabkan forum ni la, aku ceburkan diri untuk join pertandingan yg due date dia dekat nak mati padahal fyp front end pon x siap lagi haih

and i miss out on several mandatory prayers because I oversleep..again..i dont know what i was thinking or doing today, i felt so bad and useless till the end of the day

to summarize, today i did:

-apologize to him for not replying to his question

-register for a competition

-chat with mom

-cook simple menu

-not doing anything regarding study AT ALL

-missing out zuhur and asar prayer weh astagfirullah

-overslept obviously (but my body feels much much more better after waking up)

-not exercising eii

-wasting time

*surely, theres thousand of improvement that I can do to make up for this day. Ya Allah, berilah aku kekuatan dan ketabahan untuk menunaikan ibadah, untuk menjadi hambamu yg bermanfaat, jauhkan aku dri sikap malas dan lemah Ya Allah. Berikan kesembuhan kepada kesakitan yg dialami kakakku ya Allah, aamiin aaminn.

[yoshimura-eto10-blog]

Journaling

I need to take journaling as a daily habit seriously. Need to put some serious punishment on myself if I miss out journaling for two consecutive days.

.

The punishment need to be something that slaps my ego and embarrassing me!

.

Punishment: Ws crush/ reply status ws dia hahahaha..mesti segan nk mampus rasa nak gali lubang kubur sendiri

.

Ok, thats it! Today will be D-1 of journaling: 19/9/2022 and Tumblr will be my main platform.

[yoshimura-eto10-blog]

Loyal to crush?

Don’t sweat it. You are just going through the phases of having a crush. You like this person at this point of time. You feel like this person is ‘special’ to you right now, right? The way you feel about this person is different from that of all others. That’s why your mind tries to be ‘loyal’ to that specific person. It’s not rooted in rationality. Don’t sweat it, it’s just a crush. You’ll either get together or you’ll just get over it and this phase’ll pass, like all phases do. Either way, you’re good. Enjoy the giddy feeling of having a crush while it lasts. Just don’t do anything rash. You aren’t in control of your feelings, but you are in control of your actions. If you don’t let your actions get out of hand, it’s fine. Don’t worry over such small things. Stay happy. :)

-quora

[yoshimura-eto10-blog]

Schedule

Jumaat 16/9 - dah settle frontend

12/9 

5.00pgi - bgun awal, solat isya, tahajud, taubat

6.00 ~ 6.30pgi - solat sunat sebelum subuh, alwaqiah

6.30-7.00pgi - buat frontend skit

7.00-7.30pgi - tlong mak masak, minum air susu

7.30pgi-9.30pgi- focus frontend visitor (hero, about)

9.30pgi-10.00pgi - rest, solat dhuha

10.00pgi-11.00pgi - how it works

13/9

[yoshimura-eto10-blog]

uwu sendu

“All roads lead to you, even those I took to forget you.”

— Mahmoud Darwish

[yoshimura-eto10-blog]

Priority:

Self improvement on skills, ibadah, finance management

Ibu ayah (rajin masak, rajin tolong)

Dibah (tolong dia mana mampu, dgr dia bebel)

Other family members

Friends

So, where do i put ANH

i dont deny my feelings toward him, but idk what to do with it

Hoping for him to have same feeling towards me?

Make a move and give hints ?

Bertaaruf, mcm mana nk taaruf, berapa la nk taauf, apa benda yg boleh dan x boleh buat waktu taaruf

X boleh ke kalau nk kawan biasa² je dgn dia haih, tapi itula payah mat kalau online, kalau offline pon payah act hahahahaha

Aku rsa masalah di sini adalah skill komunikasi aku kot, aku x reply hint dia, x pham soalan dia hahahah

Tapi tula im tired ler pikir nape dia x tu, nape dia x ni, nape dia ilang eii

Pepandai la dia buat apa dia naaakk, suka hati dia laaa nk tgok status ws aku ke taaakkkk

I will make my movee when the timing is rightt, tpi buat masa skrng mcm taaakk setelah aku ghost soalann diaaaaa

Aku rasa tnggu masuk kampus nanti je laaa bru pikir pasal mamat tu

Betul la kata afiqah, menyesal lak x reply leklok soalan dia gahahah bodoh eiii

Skrng ni aku doa je laaa supaya Allah jagakan diaaa, mudahkan urusan diaaa, jaga hati dan perasaan dia

Dan berharap supaya ada jodoh dgn dia, kalau xde nk buat mcm mana, Allah maha mengatur dan mengawasi segalanya

Buat masa skrng:

-jgn rsa menyesal dan bersalah menonggeng sebab x reply soalan dia

-jgn check last seen

-jgn bca chat aku dan ANH

-jgn check selalu dkt ig sape online sape x

-xperlu chat last seen dkt tele selalu

Tabahkan hatiii walaupun dia dh x check status ws ko selaluuuu

[yoshimura-eto10-blog]

8.00-8.40

Mandi

Solat maghrib

Mengaji

Solat Isya

8.40-9.30

Habiskan chapter 4

Rehat 10minit

9.30-10.30

Smbung chapter 5 sejam

10.3-11.00

Rehat 30 minit

11.00-12.00

Buat frontend visitor page sejam

12.00-12.15

Rehat sat

12.15-2.00

Habiskan chapter 5

2.00-5.30

Tido

5.30-6.00

Solat tahajud, solat taubat

[yoshimura-eto10-blog]

Be confident in your own ability.

List out the things that you have...zzzz nanti smbung

Java

-build backend using JSP (add,remove,edit image)

-integrate scriplet tag into HTML code

Flutter

-build a mobile application using Flutter framework

-consist of several page (register, login, add quiz, edit, answer quiz)

SQL

-create, update, delete, remove entry in database

[yoshimura-eto10-blog]

Wat i got to put in my linkedin profile

-number of times i have participated in ctf

-backend program

-projek web app java

-website portfolio

-passion in what:

[yoshimura-eto10-blog]

Uphold

im gonna live by that one quotes by Mahatma Gandhi

[yoshimura-eto10-blog]

live and learn

“Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.” - Mahatma Gandhi