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I swear. This shit is very applicable sometimes

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It’s okay, baby girl

You’re bipolar. So we know this is going to pass. Hold onto that and don’t make any lasting decisions, okay? This state will be over soon enough, and you’ll be able to regroup then! Get some real sleep. Try again tomorrow. No judgement! Be easier on yourself when you need to be.

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Me. This is me right now…

Just realized I haven't been taking my antipsychotic/ mood stabilizer for the past week and a half

The wind and storms are, decidedly, not helping my mental state

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Bipolar truth: you don’t have to feel guilty or bad for taking the meds you are prescribed...

Regardless of what anyone THINKS…because I can tell you for a fact that they don’t KNOW jack shit.

Shout out to all my bpd baddies who are literally just trying to make it through the next hour, day, week. I'm proud of you for being here even if all you want is to not be. I feel you and I know you can do this🖤

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Read my mind!

I’m (im)patiently waiting for Dan to get home…I think he will be pleased with my plans for the night.

notice how everyone is horny today

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This reminds me!!

I meant to get up and try to do something with my lazy ass life.

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Caution!

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This is the most important thing I’ve ever read from a stranger. I have never been able to illustrate my mind with words so precise as this. This is the synopsis of my life…

I feel. So deeply. But it’s useless, all this emotional bullshit. It benefits no one, not even myself - don’t desire to be paranoid and anxious and uncaring.

I guess I’m just a person that requires connection. To be felt. To be spoken to. To be physically loved on. To be enjoyed while enjoying myself. I guess it’s the only thing that matters to me in life. I don’t want to experience things on my own. It’s fucking POINTLESS.

I can do nothing by myself, honestly. I can do ANYTHING myself. But where’s the fucking JOY? Where’s the love and excitement of living if you have no one to share it with? No one to laugh with. To cry with. To talk it all through. Or to be appreciated for who I am.

Fuck. I guess I am a people person…but maybe it’s actually that I’m an all-consuming creature of love and creation. The people that I love fuel me and motivate me to live. I inherently desire to make them laugh. Smile. Yet I still spend most days alone. If I’m not trying to make their lives better, I serve no purpose. I don’t work or clean or cook…and I certainly don’t leave my house unless it’s for the purpose of being or doing for another.

My only function in this lifetime will be to love and listen; to heal and nurture. And if there’s no one around to bestow my purest of intentions upon…I’m sure as fuck not gonna put that on myself. That’s fucking narcissistic - I am NOT that goddam important. The world does not revolve around me. I am not the world’s greatest asset, savior, or even one to give a fuck about anyone that I do not choose to love. Fuck the rest of the world. I am only interested in my place in time, the present moment, changing the things I can change and trying to accept the things that I can’t, regardless of the reason…

I guess I did turn out to be like my mom…

Got a fat ass and an even bigger heart. Definitely not how I ever imagined to be. Gonna have to give up the serial killer vibes and acknowledge the truth. Ugh.

“I don’t know what living a balanced life feels like. When I am sad, I don’t cry, I pour. When I am happy, I don’t smile, I glow. When I am angry, I don’t yell, I burn. The good thing about feeling in extremes, is when I love, I give them wings. But perhaps that isn’t such a good thing, cause they always tend to leave and you should see me, when my heart is broken. I don’t grieve, I shatter.”

— Rupi Kaur, Milk and Honey

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I reset every night and find myself in a new state of mind daily upon waking in the morn.

I also have the definitive knowledge that I will always swing back up, even if I’m trapped in the void. Gotta love the bipolar mind.

But my heart is definitely full of love and other captivating things that will make you curious and capture your attention. I’m not a bad friend to have, I think!

So yes, today I am anxious. But I’m going to have a good day on purpose. Even if that means dismissing the guilt over not doing the dishes or walking the dogs, and not berating myself so harshly over not doing something that isn’t the end of the world.

Dan said, “none of that is really happening” as I began to panic before he left. All these thoughts I’m anxious about are not real situations, and they probably never will come to pass. All this noise of never-ending, obsessive dissecting comes from imaginary, concocted worries of the future. With wild guesses and nihilism at the forefront, the shit in my head easily gets out of control and I am paralyzed. But he’s correct. If I would focus on the present more, I think I’d be a much more enlightened and happier individual. I’m working on it every day, to stay in the moment - with Dan’s loving and patient demeanor, his assistance has helped me on my journey to self-acceptance and allowed me to feel alive again. I’m no longer a shell of a person with failure on my mind; I am growing into my own every day and I can shape the universe around me at any time.

Hell yeah! Baby girl over here gonna rule her destiny. ⛈️🌦️☁️☀️🌈🌈🌈

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This is so sweet and I need this for our bedroom because…well, I think it’s so goddamn cute! Dan is my boyfriend and life partner. My love. My babes. My best friend. My present but also my future. The light of my life; the nurturing for me to be loved and cherished and appreciated and respected and truly accepted. I feel important. I feel adored. I feel desired for my body and our effortless emotional and mental connections. I feel empowered again because of this man. I feel confidence again because he compliments me and communicates with me on a level I’ve never experienced. I feel hope again because this man encourages me and drives me and motivates me toward our shared goal of a healthy and wealthy and peaceful lifetime that we can share together oh-so-lovingly.

Thanks babes. You’ve helped me more than you know…

I love you

LOVE ME

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So true when you’re fucking a dime piece! Dan knows! 😜

Doggy because her ass fat & missionary because her face is pretty 🥰🎀

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I swear I just told Dan a couple days ago that I wished my pussy had a beak like an octopus…he was confused. Well, high beautiful, wtf does that even mean?! LMFAO

Artiste : @caroandtheoctopus sur instagram

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I realized for the first time today: I think I saved Dan. He needed this love and never experienced it. And he deserves all of it for being the exceptional human being he always has been; asshole or not, this man has a heart of gold and is the home I have been seeking, but never got. This man is certainly the light of my life.

I love you, Daniel

being weird and full of love can save you

and it might save those around you, too

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Happy Pi Day, y’all!

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I just need to get my shit together before noon. And then I will be able to run errands, get paid, and enjoy life outside of my dank, dark ass room

“It’s a new day, fresh start, fresh energy, new opportunities. Get your mind right, be thankful, be positive and start your day right.”

— Unknown

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Everything at once.

If I’m even able to fucking figure it out…

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Will you bring me flowers and take me on an adventure? I want to leave the house…just not alone. Like always.

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