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Seeing all those bodychecks of you skinny girls really make me so sad, unhappy and utterly depressed

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idk but it seems like skinny people have it easier

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I could really be skinny by December if I stay on track. Wow.

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i wish..

one day you will be skinny, you will wear those leggings and that crop top. they will stare, they will all stare. they will all be in awe at you and your size, how petite and small you are. how dainty and graceful you look when you walk, how effortlessly your clothes loosely hang around your body. you can do this, think about how gorgeous your body will be once it’s thin and graceful. you could be there in just a few months.

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More euphoria inspo 🦋

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I've been thinking about the ED community...

Most of us are really young, we are broken souls of the society that doesn't allow us to have some lbs more because "that's not beautiful". Then, we get mentally ill and start following Ana and Mia's steps.

Then we get to our UGW! We feel beautiful and above everyone's opinions.

So we take photos! Of our bodies, our bones, out thighs, our "meals", our perfect appearance. But we didn't think something will get us down of our cloud, didn't we?

We start feeling cold, feeling dizzy, our hair falls, our nails are weak, our skin is so sensitive! We feel dumb, we forget words, things, ideas, we can't learn anymore. Then, our stomach!! Is so HURT.

We lose our digestive capacity, we can't eat because it hurts! So much that we need to get out of our classes, jobs, events, just to rest, to go to the doctor, to pay meds so expensive just to get us pass the day.

Then what? Just two options for us: recovery or suffer.

We look at our photos when we were thin, but now we are with some lbs again. Fun fact? We are eating exactly the same things (that get us thin).

What changed? Our bodies. We treated our bodies like it's just the appearance, but forgot about the real utility of our bodies: to care of our souls.

Our body is A FULL MECHANISM, so if something fails (stomach, kidney, brain, heart, blood), all falls apart eventually.

That's what happened to me. I'm in the same weight that when I started, but my body is falling apart.

So, with my experience, I will tell you just the important thing:

STAY SAFE AND LOVE YOURSELF.

STAY SAFE! & LOVE YOURSELF!

TREAT YOURSELF! YOU ARE WORTHY!

You are NOT someone else's opinions.

YOUR ARE WONDERFUL!

It's not about how your body looks, it's about how it works. We all work in different ways, so find a way you feel good with yourself without suffering (or killing yourself slowly). You don't deserve to suffer.

We deserve YOU.

YOU BEING THE BEST YOU CAN BE.

STAY SAFE.

(I wish someone would tell me this, so here I am)

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I’ve never done this before... and I’m kinda ashamed. I know I’ve still got a lot to lose but I hope this motivates someone.

SW:96 kg

CW: 73.2 kg

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TW

some people get really triggered by summer and I completely understand it but I really think fall gets me more. 

Like I really want to pick out a costume and not worry about my weight.

I want to wear cute skirts and baggy sweatshirts without looking like they’re tight.

I want to wear chunky boots with skinny legs.

Thigh highs that actually fit my thighs and don’t cut off circulation.

a thanksgiving where people tell me “you look like you’ve lost weight!” 

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me working out when low restricting and amost fainting

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My ED and I looking in the mirror at my body for the last time before bed:

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all the time

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this took some time to make

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Thinspo doesn't work for me I'm too gay and just end up being attracted to them

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Me:

My body dysmorphia : you look like this

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i need that jumper omg, only once i’m ~skinni~ of course

Stupid boys think that I need them

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my stomach: *growls*

me: omg shut u p i'm literally doing you a favor >:/

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me: thinks about childhood for 0.0001 second

my brain: uh boi! Is it time for crying ??