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First Post. First Time.

Hi Wow I’m awkward asf. I’m YoungBlackGoddess234 and this is my first post. I’m 21 years old and recently...as in maybe 3 months ago...Let someone take my virginity. I can honestly say when it happened I was comfortable me and the guy had been talking for a while and I swore up and down I wasn’t going to have sex with him. I even got my beat friend to come and sit with us but to be the blocker I needed her to be. I share an apartment with my best friend and it’s not the best situation..another story for another time tho. So any ways he comes over I’ve never been “intimate” with anyone whatsoever. I am very ashamed of my body I’m not thin I’m not tall, im a short chubby black girl with large breasts and a barely there ass. So I was naive and let this older man (about 12 years my senior) talk me into letting him slide by my apartment. Me and him had been talking for about a year and some change and I’m comfortable around him so I figured why not? 🤷🏾‍♀️ He came by and we had 2 shots of gin my idea because it would help me loosen up and he makes me mad nervous I mean sweaty palms butterflies the whole nine yards. So we’re downstairs talking because I knew him and in my room alone. No Go. We talking and he starts kissing on my neck and I’m like chill my roommate right there like fr. He is not trying to here that he continues and I’m like why not you know (classic dumb bitch phrase) he slows down a little bit and I look at the time God must have know what I was up to cause it was time pick up my sister from work and I was like time to go he said that’s cool I got to go pick up something from home anyways I’ll comeback and see you momma. So he leaves I’m driving talking to my best friend like bitch you not doing the job assigned to you he kissing all on me not giving one fuck you sitting on the other couch huh🤔. I get back I take a shower cause the sweat was real boo put on my little ugly night pants me thinking he gonna be like ewww bitch them ugly ass pants and a tank top. While I’m waiting for him to come back I take 2 more shots I’m nervous bite me hoe. I’m have the butterflies it’s too much I’m cold as hell so I’m sitting with a blanket 20 minutes lateral calm in cool the butterflies done went I hear the doorbell and the bitches came back instantly. I let him in. We sitting on the chair and he laying in my tits got his arms wrapped around me smelling GOOD AS HELL. We laying on my cream colored cough talking and all that he looking at me I’m looking and him totally giving him the Nyla lion king eyes 👀 then he kisses me. I HAD NO IDEA HOW TO KISS so I just do what feels “natural” I need air so I bit and pull on his bottom lip. He thought that shit was sexy I just needed air feel me? So he kissing lower down my neck over my breasts and then says do you gonna give me a tour or nah? I say nah maybe next time he says I’ll just have to show myself then walks up my steps and is missing for a good 4 minutes and I’m like I know he isn’t in my damn room and I’m still downstairs cause I’m not going up there cause that’s what he want he want me alone no thanks baby say my ass right there on that couch. All of a sudden I hear ma these purple sheet are kinda childish don’t you think🤔 I’m like oh shit he in my room I rush upstairs and his ass is sitting on the top of the steps. 🤦🏾‍♀️ Dumb bitch move he grabs like mhm I knew that shit would work he’s kissing me again this lead to a shirtless and braless goddess on this mans lap in the middle of my hallway with him fingers deep in my pussy. He takes them out and places them in his mouth I can clearly feel is dick through his sweats. He flips us over is taking my ugly night pants off legs spread and is face first in my pussy. I’m moaning I’m trying my hardest to keep quiet cause I didn’t know if my best friend was sleep cause the girl disappeared quick as hell. He comes up and kisses my lips Picks my big ass up and whispering which room is mine I point to mine and he carries me in and lays me on my bed and goes back to eating I’ve never experienced anything like this it felt amazing. He ask me if I was a virgin and I told him yes I also said I wasn’t having sex with him cause I wasn’t ready for that he says you sure cause you more than ready babe he goes back to fingering and licking me asking me questions and I’m not sure what they were honestly. He ask me again to try and I am almost certain I said Yes. 😫 So he’s stripped had no idea when but...ok he tried to make sure I’m comfortable and tries to push inside me and kissing me as a distraction. Let me tell you that shit did not work it hurt like hell he trying to push in again I’m trying to have on these big girl panties but that shit HURTS he tries another way told me to get on my stomach and put my ass up this hurts too but he slides in it was a little intense. He pumps slow then I feel a slap to my ass why idk I don’t have much back there but whatever he flips me back over pushes into me slowly and I’m moaning this lasts for like 3 minutes and then he pulls out and walks to the bathroom. I’m laying there stuck hurting trying to get myself together. This man comes fully dressed. Hold up I know that ain’t it. I don’t say that but I’m laying here thinking ummmm why you dressed? He pulls me up to him ask if I was sore just a little I say he like I’ll text you when I get home my dumb ass like ok. I throw on a long tshirt and walk him to the door got my ass in bed and went to sleep. That’s pretty much it I found out like 2 days later he had a whole girlfriend and he kids kids (like 5) he didn’t wear any protection but thank you God for never having a regular period and the birth control pill I take EVERY day faithfully. I also went and got checked for STDS and pregnancy I’ve seen my doctor 4 times since just incase. Went and bought my own condoms cause I will not be a fool and I haven’t talked to him since. To say I wasn’t hurt would be a lie I liked him a lot but that was my lesson and my experience. Thanks for reading. YoungGoddess Out.!!!!!