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Yumi au: When ever someone flirts with her she calls them a bitch (aka the au where Moca is the more desirable one)

the forbidden ask that I have kept in my ask box for prolly like five years

I am freeing her from her prison

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So I've been really upset...

As the title suggests, I’ve been extremely upset. I believe I’ve posted about the table that I had a crush on at work that I couldn’t buy, but if not then there you go. I was rather enamored with a table we had recently gotten in stock at the furniture store that I work at. It had been sold last week :((( I found out about it from one of my coworkers. He just mentioned it passively and didn’t elaborate on who bought it but I just slipped into a downward spiral after that.

I really like it. I really really did. We were becoming so close until that home wrecker came to buy it. It isn’t the same in that store without it. I ended up calling in sick the day after because I couldn’t handle that depressing atmosphere. I’m still upset about it but I have to make a living somehow.

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Jerma fursona

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to the artist that I just went through the uh. entire account of,,, sowwy I like the brushes you use and the way you color :D

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in honour of geto's birthday, i want to talk about the fandom discourse that paints him as a mother. he definitely has a degree in motherology (with a minor in babygirlism), but i also think it’s possible that gege is genuinely using his character to say something interesting about motherhood and maternity.

this post is inspired largely in part by @virgobingo's thoughtful meta on geto and monstrous femininity, which you can find here. i want to extrapolate from the trope of monstrous femininity and extend it to monstrous motherhood. (which @virgobingo also touches on; you should really check out their meta— it's awesome!)

geto's character is immediately established in a protector capacity, which is intensely reminiscent of the tropes that mothers embody in media. his whole thing is that the strong must protect the weak; it's his core belief. his character is premised around this belief, much like the way mothers' constitutions in media are premised on the principle that they'll go to any length for their children.

we're repeatedly shown his caring side during hidden inventory— he cares for riko, he expresses concern for gojo, he even asks about kuroi after he finds out toji supposedly murdered his best friend. it's made very clear that he's an outwardly caring person with a strong sense of duty. in this way, he parallels the textual role of mothers, whose function is to care and provide above all else. the repeated emphasis on his caring nature is what directly likens him to maternity, whose characteristic trait is tender love and care.

he also houses curses in his body. he unleashes them from inside of him, almost like children leaving the womb. these curses obey him and operate according to his will in a very parent/child dynamic. they are powerful, but they can only do what he tells them to do. he uses them to fulfil his duty according to his core belief: to protect the weak.

when he defects, his ideology fundamentally does not change— it just inverts. instead of the strong protecting the weak (the weak necessitating their strength because they can't protect themselves), now the strong must be protected from the weak (because the weak leech the strength from the strong, therefore rendering them weak).

nothing really changes; he still cares —fiercely— it's just in the opposite direction. he takes the tropes associated with motherhood and inverts them— he'll do anything to protect those under his care, including killing, because he wholeheartedly believes in fulfilling his duty as a protector (like a mother). his unwavering conviction and willingness to die for his beliefs (which are directly about those he's protecting) is the most flagrantly maternal thing about him.

toji's worm calls him "mommy" and it's not wrong. he takes in daughters and becomes the central figure of his "family"; his emphasis on family throughout the story (even as a youth) also speaks to his maternity, as mothers are often written as the binding emotional centres of familial structures.

after he dies, his body is taken over by someone who is Iiterally a mother. he embodies monstrous motherhood during life and after death, leading us to the question of what gege is trying to say about all of this. is caring too much a bad thing? does caring in one way open the door to caring in another? what happens when a mother's love, supposedly strong enough to lift fallen trees off their children, goes in the “wrong” direction?

there's also the fact that geto is male. i think gege is also asking us to reckon with how the tropes of maternity have been confined to women, showing us that these intense convictions and the depth of care attributed to mothers can apply to anyone, even (especially) if they are distinctly masculine. in doing this, he's also expanding the conceptual definition of motherhood, suggesting that mothers can exist beyond their provident care and one-dimensional duty to their beloveds.

geto's monstrous motherhood is an explosive reclamation of agency in a trope where women have been historically limited by the categorical imposition of maternity. it seeks to disrupt not only who we consider to be mothers but also what we consider a mother to be. perhaps the monster is not the maternal figure whose love turns vicious or violent, but us, who monstrously imprisoned them in the fixed role of "mother".

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the problem with geto's mindset didn't make itself apparent when he appeared to "switch sides". the problem had actually been there from the beginning.

when we're introduced to him in the series, his core belief is that the strong should protect the weak. he operates according to this belief and to us, it seems completely fine and acceptable because that's what a person should think, right? it's not untrue that he is objectively stronger than most, so we come to the conclusion that him protecting the weak must be a good thing.

when he goes through his depression era, it appears to us as though his morals are crumbling and his soul is darkening. geto also thinks this, shown in his conversation with haibara.

alongside the viewers, geto thinks he's deviating from the light to the dark. however, when you look closer, you realize that he’s not. nothing actually changes from when we meet him in episode one to when we see him massacre a village.

the problem with geto's mindset is in its fixed polarity. in the beginning, he believes the strong should protect the weak— demonstrating that to him, there are fixed poles of "person in need of protection" and "person who provides the protecting". this can be understood in a subject/agent dynamic, where the weak are agents of their own will, rendering the strong subjects to their needs. in doing this, the weak objectify the strong , turning them into protectors that lack agency.

when he appears to undergo an ideological transformation, the nature of the poles change but their position in a fixed binary doesn't. the subject/agent dynamic merely inverts, where instead the strong subject the weak to their will, assigning themselves agency and stripping the weak of theirs in the process. the poles invert, but the structure that houses them doesn't change— it was there all along, right from the start.

the problem didn't begin when geto decided all non-sorcerers should die. it began when he assigned two distinct groups of people to fixed roles in an established binary, holding steadfast to his belief even when he didn't have a real reason to. his mindset didn't twist, it only appeared to turn something "good" (the strong should protect the weak) into something "bad" (the strong should be protected from the weak).

the binaric infrastructure that scaffolds his belief system actually remained consistent. if you liken his belief system to driving a bus, the bus will still drive as one even if you change out the driver. changing the driver does not fundamentally alter the nature of the bus.

that's why yaga gives yuji such a hard time when he's trying to enrol at jujutsu tech. he's making sure they don't have another geto situation on their hands, where rigid ideals that may appear to help others end up becoming problematic because of their fixed nature.

geto thinks that he's changed, yet he hasn't. he may have replaced the driver, but the bus continues its journey unabated.

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my favourite thing about the Jerma "you look like the yellow m&m" clip is that when he realizes he kind of does he doesn't say "how did you realize that" or "how did you know that" he says "why are you talking about that" as if it was a secret he didn't want to get out

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actually you not ##### girl is #####

ma cherie, are you missing me 🤔🤔

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bitches may be wondering where’s opila bird

I’ll even throw in opila chick doodle. Anyway opila bird was down around the time of like banban 2 and she looked high af in da game

she’s a single mom who loves her kids and never stops

Based on my last post here are the rest of the banbans. I am still deranged.

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:3

Based on my last post here are the rest of the banbans. I am still deranged.

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hes jumping

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jerma dying in a glue trap irl