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yourbrokenmirror · 5 years

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A voice for someone silenced

This is something I'm posting for someone else because they are being slandered on Tumblr and do not even have a Tumblr account. This is her message:

I don’t know if Tumblr has word limitations so I’ll keep the first part brief just in case you have to cut some of this off.

1. I did not say what he says I did in the voice message.

2. I have not gone to anyone in his fc or the fc he left behind.

3. I did not gather evidence for a month to do anything to him.

4. I’m not even on the social media platform he claims I have made posts on.

5. I did not contact his old RP partners to band together to do anything.

6. He will not answer my texts, so it is not me who won’t speak.

I don’t want to have to do this, but he has forced my hand by continuing his defamation of character from behind my back Discord/game chats to a social media platform I am not even on. I would like the readers to know these things:

I have not been a part of any slander done to his name nor have I gone to anyone in his FC or the FC he left behind. He lumped me in with the one who did on his first post when he listed off transgressions and I had no part in it. You can ask them who told them anything if you would like to.

The story of what I said in a voice message keeps evolving to suit the level of defamation he would like to give me. The only truths he has spoken is yes, he did share it with his wife. She confronted me and we spoke like mature adults and even she agrees that I did not say what he is telling everyone I did. I did say “Just so you know, for the last month I have been faking it.” There was nothing about faking loving him. Nothing about faking it to gather information. Nothing about a social media crusade. I didn’t wish to air out any of this, as evidence by my silence on the matter in our mutual social circles. I faked affection. I can’t fake love. Love is something that happens and can stay with you well into years of abuse and even years after you have parted ways. (My past, not Mr. Lebeau.) That said, I still do, and probably will love him deep down for a very long time.

This also brings me to the subject of cheating that he keeps bringing up. From my experience, I was told he and his wife were in an open/online only relationship. I have not gone to his wife about him cheating, as she and I have been friends for quite some time and she knew that he and I were close. I don’t know why he keeps lumping me in with his past partners, but this was not the case with me.

I do not have a Tumblr account, a Twitter account, a Reddit account, or the other myriad social media platforms people use. I’m the part of my generation that doesn’t really see a point in all that. (I even failed at Myspace.) I do not like drama, I do not like personal issues aired out for the entire world to see. I think what he is doing is less-than-mature and the behavior needs to cease.

As far as evidence goes, I do have a significant amount that would paint a very clear picture about all of this. I did not seek what I have, but it was given to me during the lament of someone who was very damaged and broken by this man. She sought comfort and for someone to understand her pain, without the he-said-she-said. She just showed me. It was during this revelation that I discovered what caused me to send my very angry, very scathing voice message. It was something that crushed me to the core and has had me reeling for over a week. I will not say it here as this is business between Mr. Lebeau and I and I respect him enough not to share it. After this revelation, I reached out to ONE person just to verify only one thing for the issue that had torn me apart. In crying to someone close to me irl, who happens to know him for years, THEY reached out in their own curiosity to find out if the same was true elsewhere in his past. It was confirmed and I was given the information. This happened in less than 72 hours, not a month.

Within 24-48 hours of my leaving him the voice message, I was told about him deleting messages in Discord DMs. I was told he deleted his Tumblr page. I was told he was talking about me to his current FC and the FC he left behind (that I am still in). And I had told none of them. Thus, it seemed to all of us watching this man’s actions that he was trying to hurriedly delete evidence of his transgressions and spread his version of the story to as many people as he could in order to make issues brought forward from those hurt by him to be less credible. Again, I said nothing to his FC or my FC.

I have tried to calm the rage of others. I have held my tongue. I have cried every time I look at the birthday present I ordered for him weeks ago, sitting here in my room, still wanting to send it to him, regardless of it all. I burst into tears randomly. I can’t eat properly. I’m not sleeping well. And just when I think I can breathe again, another post or another person spewing hate for me in Discord gets shown to me and the cycle starts all over again. I just want it to stop.

So if you’re someone he has spread the defamation of my character to, I’m sorry you were pulled into this business that has nothing to do with you. Please understand that there are many perspectives to a situation and hating a person or speaking ill of them when you do not know the entire story is not only wrong, it damages someone who could be innocent.

I presume you will also be reading this, Mr. Lebeau. I will apologize for the profanity in my voice message. It was my moment of weakness and pain and I let it get the best of me. I kindly ask that you cease your false accusations and defamation of my character and ask that you remove me from your posts or take them down entirely.

You can be better than this. I’ve seen in you, a man that wants to be liked/loved/needed/wanted and a man that deserves all of that.

This is not how to be that man.

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